What a week

my awesome leader and friend.

okay i manage to get out, and study. and i guess some went into my head, some didn't.
i got to study harder now.

2 more days to freedom, after freedom, im going to enjoy and do things that i should do. im going morning walks with mum to prove her wrong, and alot more.

what a week, and yesterday's svc was really good, awesome. i dont want to ever leave, like really. my determination, God see it.

yup. spastics meeting tmr :D cya guys!

Greater is He

Spent the longest time ever in His presence today, not very good, cause i only learn when i am facing big bad wolf. (what a term!)

Haha, Really have to thank Rae and Jieying. Thank God for awesome leaders over my life. even Kelvin my zs knows i guess. Thanks for all the prayers, i can feel a victorious breakthrough coming my way, and i already claimed it in my spirit!

Got to be wiser. i have brains pls fiona guo!!

Nothing can stop me, or rather stop God. I feel bad for doubting God, but at the moment i was doubting, i couldn't hear from God, and God decided to use His vessel, Rae called me.

I must break through of this stupid cage the stupid devil placed me in, and find the key and get out. You can't lock me in my house. my house.

Breakthrough!!!

Ended my 5 day full fast with lots of food temptations in the middle, but i managed to go thru! WOOHOO! what a week of temptations plus struggle plus problems.

all shall be gone. gone.

run away

For this 5 days,

now i know what im really asking for.

All i want is just to stay in your house.

Me and jy ain't feeling good at all, it's affecting my studies. and i have exams.

how am i suppose to study.

i want to find a place where people cant find me at all.

i want to run away.

actually

I got to blame myself for all these.

haha, no better what happens, i shall smile it through. i know whatever test i go through, if it's easy to come out, it's only a minor breakthrough. So this time, im aiming for a large large breakthrough.

I kept telling God, i will continue to wrestle with you until i get my blessing just like Jacob, what Huimei had shared, haha quite dumb to blame God when i bought it all on myself. So one thing i can only do right now, get stronger. tt's what He said right?

my 3 things for this season,

1) First love

2) To be stronger

3) Preparation

Cool, never would i know the letter i wrote yesterday at starbucks would hit spot on to what happen. Be strong and of good courage.

Love love love and grace grace grace.

Never ever ever ever ever let you go.

Come holy spirit,
Fall afresh on me,
Fill me with your power,
Satisfy my need,
Only you will make me whole,
Give me strength to make me grow,
Come holy spirit,
Fall afresh on me.

Didnt know it will become this fierce, this bad. As im praying and fasting to be stronger, he have to attack me. Hit me so strong.

I need to make a decision now, one tt will please God. Is it true i must always face this kind of decision. I dont want to let anything go, it's really time for me to emerge strong. But i tried to get an agreement, i failed.

Grace grace to the mountains, MAKE ME STRONGER.

Thank God for Rae and Jasmin.

Last few hours, why can't she understands, i really dont want to leave everything down.

Stronger, being strong is a decision. i made mine.

it's not over

Seriously, Idk why, i thought it was over when i saw that he was willing to change.

Now it only goes to show that a leopard doesn't changes it's spots. & i think it disappoints me so much that i dont know how to react. haha.

maybe it's not true, but maybe it is true. God knows.

Bad things happens when im on a breakthrough lane, reaching another checkpoint to another.

Sometimes i get tired of running to the pt that i want to run away, but i come to realise, running away from the checkpoint doesn't helps.

Nevertheless, still i believe in His promises.

All will be well, all will be well.

Even the weak shall say im strong. I'm strong.

2nd day of fasting & prayer! (:

confusing

sometimes i wonder why emotions are so confusing.
so confusing tt my brain cant take it. only can pray tt God can make me wiser!

5 days of prayer & fasting.
Breakthroughsssssssss!

I decided..

To reuse this blog.

Even though i still have a little fear of blogging, but ya, im not going to blog up stupid things again.

My blog exist to just tell people how im doing. (:

Reason why this blog again, because i want to let my friends know that the memories i have with them are still treasure to me! So here i am back at spotthespellingmistake, credit to DEANNAGAN(PS, she got this name for me)!

ANYWAY EXAMS ARE HERE.
OMG and im super slack, i need to buck up! :D

Changing my skin soon.
A new start.

Try to spot the spelling mistake again! :D