tired max but still alive and breathing

This week is housechores + going out + work +running bedok reservoir 3 times a week = deadbeat
i think im becoming more and more aunty. but oh well, i think i dont look like one.

NEED TO SLIM DOWN DESPERATELY.
oh well, slowly but surely if i continue running. Oh gosh then someone tell me why am i gaining weight. okay going on diet! yay

and i dont understand why im still alive here typing at 2.35am when im gonna go run at 8 ltr. gosh.

Just got to say God is so good to keep me alive.
and im so blessed! to keep receiving blessing in terms of financials. PTL! :D
keep it going, SOT im running to you.
Speak to my mountain and it shall be STILL. so you can stop running about and i can go there next year!

Brings life

1 Samuel 2:6-8

God brings death and God brings life,
brings down to the grave and raises up.


God brings poverty and God brings wealth;
he lowers, he also lifts up.

He puts poor people on their feet again;
he rekindles burned-out lives with fresh hope,
Restoring dignity and respect to their lives—
a place in the sun!
For the very structures of earth are God's;
he has laid out his operations on a firm foundation.

Words are set by Him. Structures that are being built by His Word that He had spoken. The Word that lays out His firm foundation and made operation taken place. He speaks, the earth comes forth.

If its the earth that is form by His words is such an wonderful creation, what's more for my life?

Brought down to the grave i may be, but i know i will be made alive with rekindled fire that burns my hope with passion again.

This is my season.
and the key to the breakthru of the next door is in my pocket.
The season of life coming alive!

Please remember

One day.... When you cut off your social network w/o any updates about your life and all it's left is just your phone, those people who really bother to give you calls and shorts messages are really truly the people who care..

PTL! Bro got the job! and it's quite good! With 20 days of annual leave per year, for those who study HR, it is way above the Employment Act. Happy for him.

& my grandpa actually told me this, "If you didnt go to church, i would actually love you alot."
hahaha yay, there is actually improvement after like coldness to me for years.. & i managed to talk to grandma more too. Aft she told me about her philosophy of going to church, i just decided to tell her something and i think it really made her think.

So God answered 2 of my prayers ytd, Bro got his job, and it didnt rained in the morning. :D

& This song had been ringing in my head since last week.
I really love Leann Rimes, old singer but i really think the older singers actually have more substances.



Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together

And at the end of the day, even if all else forgotten about you, He is just singing... "Please remember, please remember. I was there and always there... Please remember the time we are together."

Keep holding on...

So............ my 2nd new maid ran away again.
This time she ran because she thought a sardine fish which has red gavy and in red colour is some bloody bloody animal that we keep and cooked, and she thought the sea cucumber was some snake... o.m.g.

oh yeah, best part! i havent seen her face yet, and i went running in the morning, and she's gone. why the 2 maids run when i go running. i dont mind they go run with me so they wont run away..

okay, so time to update my life so i remember.
HOUSECHORES. + feeding jiejie cilla's cat, smokey and she bit me on the first day i took care of her. :/

Seriously house chores are very tiring... but oh well.
im holding on~ if you want to make a small chat with me, ask me how am i and i will tell you, im doing house chores everyday. BIG CHAT, you can talk to me about house chores and i will talk to you like an aunty. JUST joking. or you dont want to talk to me, it's fine!

Life is fine. Guess everyone's busy with their stuff and moving on.
I think i move on too fast. 18 --------> 45.
Wooots just joking.

At least i run 3 times every week.
I pray, dont let it rain tmr, and bro gets the job he is applying. Thank God he passed the first interview. Oh and woah, my mum actually asked me to pray for korkor to get the job. wooahhh. ^^

Please remember...
Cause I remember...

results

Got back my results just now midnight and am quite happy about it cuz at least the effort and hardwork put in by being better this sem paid off.

I got 1 A, 3 Bs, 1 C. its not the best results to get but it is alrdy for me. even though I know can actually do better cuz kinda slacked during exam period, and actually able to get another few more As, but I'm glad improved! my best results in my poly so far. hhha.

But will not stop only here!
Thank God for teaching me this big lesson in poly ^^

nice guys finish last

So......

I finally cut my hair shorter than usual in 10 years time. & i dye back my natural natural brown colour.
this picture dont look like me i know but ya, see me in real life if i let you see me.

Thank God my new maid is coming tmr. My hands are so so so dry from washing and hanging and ironing and cleaning. but thank God for this whole time experience though. Love spending time w mum even though she gets very naggy but still, lovessss.

Work tmr. kbye!

Rolling in the deep

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

Been doing house chores till i drop dead, like dead.
Appreciate all helpers and mums for doing house chores and all. and it's not really tt good to stay in a big house though. im dead beat...

In need of a good massage if anyone wanna volunteer. hahah just joking!

so...... these were the past week pictures where i am not a maid. 

Running tmr. Bedok reservoir again! yay to bedok reservoir being so close to my house!

Letters to God

"There is more to life than this..."

Watched Letters to God...

"Dear God, i think we did it. You told me not to be afraid, and i wasn't. I just wanted everyone to believe. Love, Tyler"

Dont want to spoil this show by typing out the whole plot but i am just so touched by this show that thru one boy's letter, his hope was spread to many. His life was a letter... A must show show even if you dont believe..

"You show that you are a letter from Christ... written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.- 2 Cor 3:3"

This life we live is not just mere talking and talking, but a life living its message. Even if i type the best things, speaks the best motivating stuff, yet not living them out, i am just an empty shell, an artificial person selling a look like it yet a fake product.

If i wanna be a real product, i got to live the right thing, right way, showing who i am as what i am saying. Never want to be an artificial..

Blessed by Pst Phil's book and this movie..

Rise up....

Just finished my work at Xinmin Primary! really think kids are so adorable except for a few.. but its like so awesome to be a teacher, you get to impact lives slowly slowly but surely.

Okay this weird but having a stomache now and I'm on the train and think I'm gonna explode! ahhhhh just joking. 

"Dreams that die, they come to life again..."

Served ytd in zone meeting. it seems that this time, there's this beakthru, and everything did there was something abit more than before. thank you Holy Spirit! 

Having family dinner later! gnna be so good! :D 

the genuine heart

was just thinking, we can see easily if a heart is genuine to you or not.. & also, if effort is put into a certain thing you are doing..

But what happens if you have actually more than one to be genuine to? or more than one stuff you have to put effort in to? will there be this balance or will you focus on one so much more than the other?

But learning how to balance actually one thing all humans have to learn to do... Learnin to balance is askill...

Anw, had fun w sarah jasmin ting gary gouwei stanley today esp those who remained at the bar aft tt. hearts poured out, sharing stuff. something hvent been ding for a long long time. thannks guys! :D

Awesome friends running in same directions of life. cheers!

cannot believe

Looking thru past pictures and i realise something, i cannot believe that i am really skinny inside those pictures because i was a hardcore photoshop-per, photoshopping all the pictures.

So my motivation now is that i am really prettier than before.
SO i am running w Pauline every three times a week this holiday.
WO KE YI DE! JIAYOU XY! :D

That is how it seems, you cannot believe a picture till you find out whats beneath.
Kinda my life principal. haha.
Bye!

So this is what happened at Edwin and Rae's wedding..
Both leader that inspired my life the most! But ironically, i dont have pic w both of them here YET hahhaa.
PHOTO SPAMMING

All ripped off from facebook but it's here for me to refer back on my life.
I kinda prefer how i blogged last time. more happening then how it is now. This blog is getting boring, why can't i just be myself.
SMILEEEEE :D

Time

Time proves so many things.

Time and time again, the same thing happens and sometimes, it's making me lose trust in this kinda thing and it starts to make myself so protective against such stuff. Things changes, and i know i cannot make any differences if that certain thing wanna change. BUT i am secure in Christ.

God knows it all, and i am blessed enough to know tt.

Things nowadays are so so different.
But i am contented to know if i do not change for the worse.
Well, perspective of worse is different in many people's eyes. But mine, is not to leave this secret place of mine and to move into the vision He have in stored for me.

Search my heart O Lord, 
Make it ever true... 
Search my heart O Lord, 
May i be like You...

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and so i was reading my old posts, and i am thankful for times when i wrote little small revelations on my blog. helps me, and i thank God.
In all times, i will praise. :D

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to think about it...

Sometimes I think, I take my mum and my dad for granted. too much that I expect them to provide r me all the time, them to fetch me when need a transport becuz of my laziness..

And more and more.

Sometimes I feel ppl nowadays think tt parents are suppose to do and do and provide for us and expect a lot from them to agree to our requests when all these things they are doing not becuz an obligation thing, "they have to" but they "want to". a decision to keep me, a decision to make me grow to be an adult.

I am thankful..
Difficult not to be angry w parents cuz its inaviodable in this age, but I must always be thankful.

& all these PO thru the years, I'm learning a lot. Thank you Jesus.

thank you Abba Father for planning this whole life for me.

change

Change may be good, may be bad.

But today the change i see in my dear dear Kit makes me feel so blessed..

I love you Kit!
Till the next time we take a picture, i know there will be so much more changes for the better in you.
I believe in YOU! love ya!