Encouragements

Encouragements are actually so so essential to many people's lives.
Not sure about you though, but it is so so important to me. An encouragement actually makes me feel loved, feel so blessed, feels that someone actually care for me. & that is a thing i am always so ever thankful for. To be loved.

These 3 days of exams, okay wasn't tt bad to go thru, because i know every single moment, someone bothered to came to say 'Jiayou' to me or pray for me or confess over my life.

Thank you angels... For just all the encouragements in many many forms.

Just a thought... Random one.
Abba Father gave up His only Son to save the world. 
Abraham could give up his only son because He asked him to give Isaac up. 
2 different kind of sacrifices... More to think about.

Anw had a good day w Spastics. Even though it's short...
Deanna: "Anything recent?"
Me: "I got a new fridge!"
Deana: "Tell me that in the future..."

Cuz everyone's talking about their life happenings, like what's going on. But i really think having a new fridge is a big deal to me... No ice at home, and now a new fridge that can make ICE. WOOHOOO. this is joy!

Or maybe simplicity is just joy. (:
Take joy in simplicity... :D

Shoes...

Woke up w this dream again. What was cool about this dream is that it was my first time dreaming about stuff in church.

I saw Cynthia Kelvin and some other leaders talking about serious stuff at church lvl 4. like saying last year's camp wasn't free, but this year it will or something. and then it was so serious that i dont dare to join them so i saw Jas i went to start praying w her.. then she wanted to leave church, so in a rush i left my shoes in my shoebag at church.

so we walked to pioneer, i reached home. i told jy i left my shoebag at church. so we went back to get it, jy asked "can find meh"? "there's a lost and found there" and church suddenly became so near at shss area.

So to cut short on my dream, amazing thing was actually about the shoes i left in church. Why shoes... so i went to look up on shoes and it speaks of an armor for spiritual warfare.

Wear on your feet shoes that will prepare you to tell the good news about peace.

So i went to look up on it,
"GOSPEL" really means in the Greek language: "Good announce" or "Good message." Our English word EVANGELISM comes from that same Greek word. And in old times, that Greek word EVANGELISM or GOSPEL first didn't mean religion.

It just meant spreading good news like "REJOICE, our VICTORY is here."

And it dawned upon me, that i left my expensive sport shoes bro bought in church, and it means i have actually left my victory in church, and now it's time to really to find it back, and there is a lost and found there. You lost something, you can find it.

Aft Cynthia's blog post, i am amazed. war is here!
Well, dont leave your good victory at church, bring it home w ya!
Shoes are important for soldiers in a fight... I am gonna bring good news even if i have to run very very far cuz i have good shoes!

http://www.christdeaf.org/bible/armor/Armor4_Shoes.htm

Catching the flame, never be the same

Listening to all the old songs i wrote...
Some were unheard, some just simply not that nice.

But oh well, i know there is always this person so ever supportive of my songs, Abba Father...
Listening back to all the songs, it definitely wasn't the best songs around, but it was from my heart but i think i wrote it too quickly and finish it in 2 days or 1. so maybe it wasnt tt true? idk..

So i have this new tune... but no lyrics.
Cause i dont just want to write a song for the sake of writing a song, but rather, a song from the depths... Not just a reflection, but a conviction. A song that has lyrics from my revelations that convicted me.

Was coming up w the tune that day, suddenly this still small voice came and said,
Write because it's your song,
Write because it's your destiny.
At that moment, i was like, woah okay. Why should i write songs about how other people's lives are, i write cause it is my song. I guess this is what the other songwriters write for...

Listening to many other songs written, there is this certain power in their songs, cause they definitely had this encounter when they wrote this song. Inspired by all the lyrics, and actually made me think, im quite lousy actually when it comes to songwriting.

But when i think about it, my audience is not people nor men, but Abba...
So it's alright. I keep writing, i will keep improving. IT'S GOOD.

Always so blessed when i hear the still small voice that reminds me and guides me.
Not just godly stuff, but when i forgot something at work, "you still have this" and i was stun... okay. TYJ!

Still small voice... 

I thank God. Despite of all i went thru, i am still standing here. Somehow this year's storm is different from last year's. But every year i learn something so true, so real...

So another thing..
Recently, i learned, to love being me. to just stop being like others, and be me. i am created to be me, not to be other people. so why get so bothered by what other does, i have a specific destiny for me from Abba Father.

KKKKKK, STUDY.
Exam is another 13hours, im halfway done.
Feel quite at peace though... NO COMPLACENCY! STUDY!

i could sing of You love forever

Not every worship song have to be in tears, crying and all.

Every worship song tells of a story.

I could sing of You love forever... :D:D:D

Let this worship of mine not just only be in tears. but joy as well... (:

one of David's Psalm

1 Generous in love-God, give grace! Huge in mercy-wipe out my bad record. 2 Scrub away my guilt, soak out my sins in your laundry. 3 I know how bad I've been; my sins are staring me down.

4 You're the One I've violated, and you've seen it all, seen the full extent of my evil. You have all the facts before you; whatever you decide about me is fair. 5 I've been out of step with you for a long time, in the wrong since before I was born. 6 What you're after is truth from the inside out. Enter me, then; conceive a new, true life.

7 Soak me in your laundry and I'll come out clean, scrub me and I'll have a snow-white life. 8 Tune me in to foot-tapping songs, set these once-broken bones to dancing. 9 Don't look too close for blemishes, give me a clean bill of health. 10 God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life. 11 Don't throw me out with the trash, or fail to breathe holiness in me. 12 Bring me back from gray exile, put a fresh wind in my sails! 13 Give me a job teaching rebels your ways so the lost can find their way home. 14 Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God, and I'll sing anthems to your life-giving ways. 15 Unbutton my lips, dear God; I'll let loose with your praise.

16 Going through the motions doesn't please you, a flawless performance is nothing to you. 17 I learned God-worship when my pride was shattered. Heart-shattered lives ready for love don't for a moment escape God's notice.

18 Make Zion the place you delight in, repair Jerusalem's broken-down walls. 19 Then you'll get real worship from us, acts of worship small and large, Including all the bulls they can heave onto your altar!

The Psalm God spoke to me in the beginning of the year...
Create in me new heart... and thIs morning went to check the other versions.
This is the psalm..

self transformation

In a phase of self transformation. But definitely by the leading of God.

No longer I,

No longer I,

No longer I.

But Christ who lives in me.

The old man shall pass away, and the new man shall live.

Humility

Humility...
Something we always asked to have, but what does it truly mean to have a humble heart? As far as i can remember, i am always taught to be be humble, but sometimes it just feel that humility can actually also a prideful heart in pretense to be a humble heart.

But in L7, one thing i truly really pray is that He will humble the exalted me. Unless i am humbled, i will never ever be exalted. Not that i want to be all high and lifted up, but rather, be lifted up higher to reach Abba Father.

May my heart be pure...
Be right in His sight.

Delay in ministry makes it more precious... - Mark Kwan
and may i always treasure my ministry...

Something changed.

L7 is over... 3 days 2 night of life transforming sessions.
Something truly truly changed in me...Perfect love casts out all fear.. All fear, all rejections, all jealousy, all unclean things. 3 times of spring cleaning was what it needed, but in all of these 3 times, it's just His grace, His mercy...

Truly understand the meaning of what it is to really only being satisfied with God in my life. Maybe in the future i would be tested more again, who knows. But i know this L7, something changed within.

To continue to write this destiny of mine, to write this song of mine, i need a sharp pencil. So with this pencil i have, i pray, it's a life full of love, just like His love.

Nothing much to describe this 3 days except for the word Love.
So is it back to reality after camp? After 'hiding' in church for 3 days 2 night?
No, i'm always in reality cause i have Him in my life. Facing everyday with His love, in this reality. and im not losing it. Never losing it. but press on.

I want to be a sharp pencil, to be used by the Author, to write my destiny.

seaons

what an amazing season... 

not a season of expanding, but really just a season that so different.

Everyone have a season to do more, or to do less....   and it's a season to really to be faithful and hold on.. my latter days will come, meanwhile, i got to deal w the heart. 

sometimes, it's really just about letting go and peace will come. 

No matter what, Jesus, come take my all...

I long to be the bride You're returning for..

One word to just describe my whole feeling now.

Mixed.

Mixed w so many things, but really just want to focus on this one thing.
Realise in some season of my life i would just defocus...
But i pray, as much as i defocus, let me never go to the wrong track. i may fail, go the wrong track, just let me head back to the right way.

& still so thankful, regardless of many times i defocus, He still gives me chance, i will treasure it.