:D

I think this picture very nice :D

You danced awesomely Karrrr! :D

& woooooo i completed my BF!
Blessings are gonna come! Breakthrus too! :D

& omg,

Sissy Lim and Bro Lim just automatically signed me and Jy up for some weird family cooking show. Like helloooooo~ i dont wanna go on TV again & WE NEVER EVEN COOK BEFORE TGT!!! sianzxz, i hope we fail the interview or something, so we dont need to be on TV. really, i got phobia ever since tt hideous performance of PSC nite. okay im so bad! haha. :D

& just now,
AXS machine near my hs spoiled, so me and jy walked to central area just to pay for our BF. We just want to make it a point to pay by the end of june and it's June 30 today! :D ENDED.

This is random, but i love you sissy jy.

friends

Credits: Edmund's Facebook!

Woke up feeling sian. People make mistakes but sometimes people around instead of understanding, they start being super aggressive and start finding more faults.

We won't feel love when people around don't seem to be interested in your life. We won't feel love when people around who actually love but they don't show it. We won't feel love if people don't speak nicely to you.

We show love by being interested in people, when we show our care and concern, we understand their circumstances, we know how's they are feeling when they show certain expression and so many more. It takes so much to be a great lover.

Watched Toy Story 3 and it's a great show showing great friendship within.

Andy: One thing about Woody, he never never leaves you.

(No matter what, Woody did not let go.)

But would you care for somebody who doesn't care for you?

That takes love. Friendship is love. & loving is not easy, same for friendship.

One day i will achieve that & i will be an eraser not just a pencil. (:

You're the air that i breathe

9 mins to Portugal and SPAIN match!

SPAIN PLS WIN!!!!

LM today was really very good.

I think i'm at the relationship renewal right now, to see which relationship needs some adjustment of intimacy.

Sometimes i wanna find a place to shout it all out, but there's no where for me to do so, not even this blog. So i shld just be happy and keep everything and just tell Him everything.

Got to start with internal renewal, and i think im in the midst of it alrdy.

Im having weird dreams,

1st day, i dream i robbed a bank with Spaz.

2nd day, i dreamt i was being robbed of my laptop and bag.

3rd day, i dreamt ppl all around me saying i very enthu.

i guess it's all linked, just like Daniel's dream, all of them were visions. Maybe im thinking too much. oh welll, match is starting.

SPAIN GOAL.

VILLA GOAL, AND GET GOLDEN BOOT. YES!

If only

(candid expression when we're watching that super retarded old video!)

Hellloooo.

Today was the first day of school and woah, really very very tired. But thank God for His strength, i managed to pass the day and did my project work with classmates at the end of the day. I can see like the poly students all complaining about school, stress stress, tired ahhhh, all tt, but yeah, i should stop complaining. Complaining makes people lose their joy.

Tmr will be a better day. :D

Was just reading people old blog post and really, it's time that makes people grow up. & things that happen during that period of time, makes people grow up. & the people's blog that i was reading really is a person who loves God so much thru all they gone thru & now a mature person, i feel la. If i were to compare me and 5 years ago, definitely i look and am super different. & i know as time goes by, i will be a different xy, someone more responsible, and one who loves people so much more. At least, that's my goal.

The future looks blur now, but i know as i walk and walk, it will become clearer. (Walk walk in the light, walking in the light of the Lord~ PRIMARY SCHOOL HYMM!)

School school school.

& more.

等待是生命的一部分，好东西是值得等待的。
(it sounds better in chinese, so i typed it in chinese)

But sometimes i'm lazy to wait. omg i think people who know me will think im a lazy person, cause i always say i lazy. But im not lazy, i just like things to be done quick.

I dont like it when i have 2 equally impt things on hand and i have to make a choice. sianzxz.

bye :D

Pour out so freely

Thank you Jamie for this picture! :D Love this pic & jy just cover me away when i show her the pic. :( you dont love me anymore ljy! not my darlie sister!~

School is starting tmr, no more late late night worldcup except for matches really exciting.

Had a good time at cgm today, just reading my bible with the rest of my cg members, fellowshipping and all. Thank you Jieying for listening to every single one of the member's problem and praying for us, like counselling session but not really. Thanks Jieying for listening! :D I have a very awesome cgl & im proud of it!

Was reading Book of Daniel & more today and it caught me thinking.

(GERMANY GOAL. sidetrack sorry)

Daniel 6:23

Now the king was exceedingly glad for him, and commanded that they should take Daniel up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den, and no injury whatever was found on him, because he believed in his God.

Because he believed, he did not get injured.
Because he believed, angels came to protect him and shut the lion's mouth.

Because he believed, he followed the word and was found innocent before the king & God.

& because he believed, situation changed and became the opposite, the people who wants him dead, now is in the lion's mouth.

Just because he believed so many things happened.

What will happen if you just believe?

Got to start setting myself in the right position, and dont think that things that won't happen will happen, and start believing more in Him. As long as i don't believe in wrong things that gives me false hopes and discern the right thing, all is well. I need wisdom and by His words i will learn how to discern right and wrong.

Time to set myself in the right way, right lane.

5 days! i can do it. (:

Here is love

Glorianne's bd!!! Pauline missing!!

Service was really awesome today.
When PK went up and every clapped, woah, i almost teared, cause he's just so so strong.
Love PK and Sun!! & really it's time to stay super rooted and cling on to what He had promised. (: Im glad im in this big family!

I want to run to the alter
And catch the fire
To stand in the gap
Between the living and the dead
Give us a heart of compassion
For a world without vision
We will make a difference
Bringing hope to our land

PK told us brother Poh wrote this song so many years ago when we're only 700 800 plus, and it came to pass, we're standing strong with so many people. this is what happen when we decided to hold on to the dream and vision God gave us.

PK's love for us is never ending too. Thank God for Him & Sun!

God is good!
CGM tmr! gonna be awesomeee~

past

THIS WAS LAST YEAR'S 29 JUNE. Time fliesssss.

Fiona lent me the CD i burned for her and Pauline, the retarded *()@&&@#* PSC nite performance during sec 1. omg, thank God it's over. it was 5 years ago man...

I look hideous, ugly and everything bad. (powerpuff got sugar spices and everything nice, mine is the opposite!) omg, thank God i changed, ad my voice is nicer. haha, maybe now i know why i got bullied in class last time. haha, but thank God i changed like super duper alot. Fiona say she wont be my friend if i still looked like tt crappy person. PTL!

Had very very good time @ Glorianne's hs today. Had a surprise party for her, and her strikeforce people came and though there was like awkward moments, it was wooo~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIANNEEE!

Talking about birthdays, im turning 18 soon in 4 months!

I pray i will have a very very good birthday this year, okay maybe not very very good, but just not have stupid birthdays. hah, but i believe i reap what i sow, this year will be awesome. i think.

i dyed my hair, but i think everyone won't see the difference. haha.

Oh and to my dearest member!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA!!!!

thanks for always being so faithful under my cog! always not looking down on me even though i entered church so much later than you. Thanks for always being so faithful and serving the cg by playing guitar! you're gonna usher in the presence of God in worship soon after you take over me! you can do it, and everything can be so awesome this year for you! :D

&& i don't like walking in a maze, that in the end, i still don't know my own objective of walking. i need an objective. & i need a objective that is realistic, something that is not stupid. i hope mine is not stupid.

experience

After spraining my neck, i got reminded.

I know spraining neck is pain, but i won't realise how pain it is until i sprain it myself.

& similarly, if i dont go through any test and trials, i won't know how tiring and painful it is to go through it. i wont know it by looking at how people are going thru it.

But at the end of this sprain, at the end of the test & trials, i will feel much better, cause i conquer the pain i experienced. NO MORE PAIN.

Meanwhile, i want my neck to recover la.

VERY PAIN. I shall not focus on the pain. i try...

I DONT WANT TO BE RETARDED ANYMORE & sprain my neck again.

i think everyone is tired of me complaining of the pain alrdy.

i shld stop! bye.

pain

Hellooo.

Actually i like spending my days at home especially when you feel a sense of belonging in that house. When you feel like there's nothing limiting you in your house, you can open the fridge, close it, put up your leg, put down and every other thing you wanna do. No limitations to what you can do.

Wooo and mummy is finally giving me and jingying a room of our own. i can't wait, even though it's like downstairs, and that room brings back alot of memories i dont wanna remember, but im glad, me and jy can finally have a room of our own, praying together without any fear people will crash in, placing our own decorations and pictures and decorate it our own way. Weeee~ & sleepovers are so so much easier and there's space. & our own cupboard and secret places for our things. weee~ so excited, thank God mum not renting it out anymore, she wanted to, but wee TYJ!

A place of no limitations! :D

Oh and i sprain my neck, LIKE AHHHH! very painful, i can't turn to the left, and guess what, like this i can't play my guitar. :( okay can la, but i can't see the chords im playing. i pray it wont get worse tmr, going to see doc tmr or something. be heal in Jesus name! i can't make my neck straight, dont laugh!! kaka laughed and then i laughed too and it's very painful! Okay, im just finding a find to complain, cause bingrong went offline alrdy and no one wanna hear me complain. haha just joking!

BUT VERY PAINFUL!
gonna stay home tmr. friday school. suppose to go picnic and school today, but all cancelled thanks to myself. yeah.

Season

For every season, there is a word.

For every season, there is a purpose, a goal.

The word is the season is the be strong.
The purpose of my season, is to stretch my capacity to the highest.

Higher my ceiling, so that i can reach higher and not be limited.

Really love Pst Phil so so much! :D


HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MY DEAREST MOTHER

& DEAREST DAMIAN! :D

portion

If this is your portion of reward,
will you continue serving?

Yes, cause i'm not seeking for rewards,
But for You.

righteousness

I think today's word is very very good.

Thank you Pastor Tan, your word is so for my season now and what i really need.

Everything is in God's timetable! I'm just trusting Him for everything.

& righteousness is not judgement, but expressing mercy.

Wee, i was watching the "She's out of my League" that day & i heard this line.
When somebody loves you, you're a 10 (which means 10/10, perfect score for a person). & i realise, everyone is a 10, cause we're all loved. & when we're loved, in the person's eye, we're perfect no matter what. & thank God He loves me. (:

& because he loves all, i shall learn to love even even so so so so much more (x100000000...)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL FATHERS!

A good father loves & accepts no matter what the child had done wrong. Instead of scolding the kid, he accepts & still love anyway.

& Happy Father's Day to my Dad, PK, PT, PZ, Kelvin, Rayvin! :D

I thank God for awesome fathers, especially thanking God for God Himself.

In Your Hands,
I give it all to You.

With You

my new wallpaper!! :D

I started off the day quite badly but on the train i saw wordy shirts. i sat down & i saw the word "sacrifice" and then i look around again, i see "my life just". so if i combine both together is like "my life just sacrifice". I'm not trying to say everything around you can speak to you, but yeah, i guess the tshirts spoke to me.

& then projects again. & then went orchard. saw Potae on the train! Had a good and unexpected fellowship today and i think it's good, to let me relax from all the projects and peh chek things.

Seriously these few days super peh chek, like pressed on every side, and sometimes i make it worse by running away. but i'm glad i prayed.

Sometimes it's seems you get so busy and then you feel so stuck. & everything's worse when no one cares to listen & only think about their own problem is bigger than yours & vent their anger on you just because they think you seem relax.

but thank God for friends, thank you Reyna & Deanna for being there for dinner! Gracewoo too!! Really love you guys, & gandidi, thanks so much for always not giving up. You make me feel loved when you are there to reply me on msn & meet me downstairs & walk around the neighbourhood.

Thanks for caring to hear, & caring to share. I love you!!! :D both Reyna & Deanna!

This week is a super loving and appreciation people week. If people care to appreciate people everyday, isn't this world a better place?

You the Leader is really a book in season. hah, i got 2 books on hand actually. Gonna finish them!! I love books by awesome Pastors esp Pst Phil!! :D

Sorry

Yun Ting
Apologizing: does not always means that you are wrong and the other person is right. It just means you value your relationship more than you ego.

So true ah ting!
I was just thinking today because of what happened, guess yesterday was a saying sorry day. Why lost a friendship or family member just because you dont wanna put down your ego?

I rather lose my dignity, my ego, my everything, instead of losing a relationship with anyone. Even if i'm not the one at fault, or i have to accept any blame, so be it. okay, words are easy, actions are difficult. but i went thru it.. like just.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word Sorry shouldn't be the hardest word, especially when you're in fault. So it's time to humble myself.

I like PK, cause he tweeted : Raining heavily in Singapore. Love to spend time in prayer when it rains ...

When most people would think of sleeping on a raining day, he's praying. & i wont be up if i dont have a project discussion now (it's break time) & i only slept 3 hours due to soccer yesterday. LOL.

I love PK no matter what people say.

highest likes!

HELLO,

I did this today and 28 people liked it already. hahaha and i typed for 28 people what i liked about them, and i being truthful okay! & i think it is good to be edifying!

Except for Jingying:

HELLO DLJY! I LIKE YOU BUT SOMETIMES I LOVE YOU. & I CAN'T MAKE UP MY MIND SO IT'S QUITE CONFUSING. I LOVE YOU CAUSE SOMETIMES YOU VERY CUTE BUT SOMETIMES I LIKE YOU ONLY. SO HOW? IDK LEH. HAHAHAHA, I LOVE YOU CAUSE YOU'RE MY SISTER BUT I LIKE YOU CUZ SOMETIMES YOU MAKE ME ANGRY. OHHHHH MAN. THIS IS GETTING CONFUSING. MY HEAD PAIN, CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ALRDY :( BYE. I LOVE YOU ♥

& TO ME:

Joshua:
HELLO XINYING!!! I like you cause I have been under your cog (W459&W524) for SUPER LONG MAN!!! :D:D You are an awesome leader and at the same time always so spastic and full of "actions"!!! HAHAHA!! :D:D

Jane:
HI XINYINGZZZ!!!!!! YES I INDEED KNOWN YOU FOR SUPER LONG AND I WANT TO SAY THANKS FOR BEING AN AWESOME SPASTIC LEADER:):):) THANKS FOR BEING THERE ALWAYS AND WATCHING WORLD CUP WITH ME!!!!!!!!! SPAIN FTW!!!!!!!!! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, I LOVE YOU! ♥ HEEHEE!

What's with the awesome yet spastic leader? hahaha! but it's okay! :D

Project tmr again and weee~ Kit's staying over @ my house! :D

YESYES SPAIN FTWW!!!

Remember?

Do u remember Shot to Fame? weeeeee~

Power

I realise, other than Power of your Hand, there's also Power of your Legs.

You have the power to move on every trials in your life, just continue walking and kicking.
But together with your hands, you're gonna create something that is larger than your vision.

Hee, soccer is actually kind fun to watch, especially when in the night of your holidays you got nothing to do. Germany won 4-0 yesterday! 2mins score 2 goals! WC!!

blessed

So blessed in yesterday's svc yesterday. In worship & in the Word.

Went for midnight movie the previous day but i wasn't feeling tired. weee~ thank God!

Went to Starbucks w Boonz Yeeliang Jy Jane Val. So happy to be able to fellowship with them. that's why W524 is different and thats why i love them! thank God im in W524! :D small we might be now, big we will be in future! :D

So after SB, i went Priya's BBQ even though everyone left already but Priya and family is really nice! thanks so much for hosting! :D & i caught the last bus to Tamp interchange, but missed my last bus home. So i walked home from interchange, long time since i did that, & thank God a safe walk home! :D

& then i watch WC, Eng vs US! OMGGGGGG. i still can't believe the GK nv stop the ball.

Anw, Svc was really awesome. Thank God for PP, and whatever he said, i look at PK, i know PK will be very very strong after this trial. I know when the Word says I will build the church and the gates of hell will not prevail it is true! Reading You the Leader now, and i know, PK is a super awesome leader! :D

This is the first time i feel so so CHCian, cause i know i want to be the one standing in the gap to intercede for my family! I love my family!

4 hours of sleep & then church, fellowship, bbq, soccer & slept and project now! :D

Webcam spams these 3 days!

With Kittt!~
I LOVE KIT :D

SP spam!
Yugene ah yugene, tag people blog can anot?! ahahha.

bryan & the XY on my hand, i drew it during exam when i was waiting for Blaw to end. haha.

This is my heart,
i give it to you.

footprints

People come and go,

touched you but in the end left you.

Made an impact,

but after that they changed.

Change of location,

& everything falls.

Was just reminded of so many incidents that such things happen. Disappointment was one of the indescribable feeling. All these things happen and sometimes it just makes us so insecure, so hard to believe.

Teehee, this is what staying up alone at night do to you.

It's not an emo feeling, just a feeling of feeling. Change seems so consistent that sometimes it's so hard to catch up with it.

It makes me feel sometimes, if everything is so inconsistent, what can we trust in?

but yeah, Thank God for God, at least His words says He's the consistent one.

He gives me a hope that ever dies.

I saw this heart that was stab so many many times, but it continue beating and going on, keep on pumping the blood even though it was painful for those knifes to pierce thru. Teach me to love the things You love, things that make You happy, & hate the things You hate, those that pierce right thru your heart.

Projects

Projects projects projects.

2 weeks of holiday and im stuck with 5 projects. CBM, PM, PC, RWPS, & Blaw after holidays.

I got to go back to SP almost every other day. :( & 10am, talking about more sleep, I DONT HAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

But nvm, i could just stop complaining and time to get involve with my projects. Not like my other classmates not doing the same thing. Jyjy, i need wisdom and grace.

Anyway, PM with W524 so awesome today. Really felt that it's time to launch to the deep.

Luke 5:4-5
When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.” But Simon answered and said to Him, “Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net.”

The words says launch out into the deep, not the shallow. & at His word, they let down the net. I guess the word now is to let down and launch out. Time to be obedient! & i know the later part of the story will happen!

I dont like to be reliant on people i guess, cause people change, but with God, He's the same today, yesterday and forever. (:

Got to do project research now. I feel like im living in a dream now. Have this weird dream feeling, like literally la. K, project time!

Hope that's never lost

TEEHEE.

MST week, 4 down, 1 last one to go! & i think im pretty confident for Business Law. okay bu yao zi kua, later i score badly. chey~ touch wood.

These 4 days, i have been studying and studying, i think it's always like that la, for poly students we study straight before mst the week or day itself. haha. but i study till super tired that yesterday and today i had my afternoon to evening naps. HAHA.

I have confident in all my papers i did, except for today CBM. manzxz, i remember all the sub point, but my elaboration... nvm, i done it all already, & i did study, so yeah.

LAST PAPER & THEN IT'S FREEDOM. like real... i have 5 projects to do during my 2 weeks holiday. i think i will head back to school everyday. Grace grace gracee...

Got to know how to manage my time well!

Dearest young ones (all 3 years younger and more) are going to head down to SP tmr for lunch! Kar Cow Jy Kit Dylan Bryan and i forgot who are coming down to SP, and then im going to study with them after tt. haha, when i got no more papers. then PM at Jieying's house.

Havent been so detailed in my goings in my blog alrdy. heehee.

im just excited for holiday! :D at least i pray i will get some quality rest :D

ON THE OTHER HAND.

i realise im anti-social on msn! I said hi to kit on msn, & she said:

KIT FAYE♥ says:

*u first time talk to me sia

♫ - XINYING ☺ says:

*huh first time talk to you as in???

KIT FAYE♥ says:

*first time taking the first step of saying hi first

♫ - XINYING ☺ says:

*OH serious??

*hahaha. where got!!!

*i go see past convos!

KIT FAYE♥ says:

*hahas you go see larhhs !!

*if im not wrong larhhs this is the first time.

♫ - XINYING ☺ says:

*HAHAHA i still checking sia!!!

KIT FAYE♥ says:

*hahas

*i doubt u will ever find !!

So you got to be honoured if i actually talk to you on msn first cause usually i just lua infront of the computer.

Heee, but im gonna say HI to kit more on msn, if not she say i never talk to her! hahaha.

HI KIT!

DONT BE SIAN, I LOVE YOU!

First times

I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS SO FUNNY LAST TIME. was reading my old posts and then i saw this joke! HEEE~

What bird can write??

PENGUIN! :D

quite funny leh. hahaha. i take it as you're laughing even when i cannot see you! haha.

I realise i joined church in April 2008 not May. & now im officially 2 year 2 months. Time flies when you're in church, really. Like looking forward to every Saturday service then cgm and then Monday comes & then it happens again.

Reading those first few times post, like i was really excited that kind. & the first few times, jasmin recently posted these old old pictures. EPIC.

First time fellowship! With Jasmin, Stanley, Val!
VERY FIRST TIME to W459, combine WYZ meeting at RW. March 2008
First CGM at Boonz's hs, and then fellowship at PS for movie.
Very first svc with W459! Dr Kim Sang Hee!!! :D

Thank God i went from glory to glory. THIS ARE NOT MY RECENT PICTURES :D & thank God after 2008, i had so many first times.

I know in 2010, 2011 and down the road, im going to have my so many first times. because God is a creative and innovative God, and He's a God of new things! :D

"i think i have alot of first time yesterday. lol.. after prayer meeting went to 4th floor. used the com, than alittle hungry went to buy snacks. so i insert $1, and chose C7, it dropped and it got stucked. so i hit the machine a little bit la, than another packet drop down and hit the packet that is stuck and I GOT 2 PACKET! i feel super super bless okay! thank you God! because of this, i was really like super happy la! so 1 packet to me another jasmin! God never shortchange you! so true..."

Just me as a new friend, not bad, i will rate this kind of new friend quite serious alrdy. & to be like serious as a new friend, it's really because of encounters with God, not because i made good friends in church on the first day.

Thank God for my very first cgm, thank you Rae. experience & encounters since that day changed my life. CHC changed my life. Pst Kong changed my life. God changed my life.

i didnt straight away become who i am today, after going to church for one day, im not being psycho-ed into all these feelings, but it's because it touched my heart. This has been like my biggest decision so far in my life & my most serious one cause im not a born-in-christian-family. I won't regret the choices i made, and the things i stand up for. & I believe if im not in church, i might just break down & suffer from low self-esteem. Can't see right!!!

CHC my family, the place i will spend a long long time in. No matter what. (:

Psychology

I'm kinda studying psychology in my Dip, not the whole basics and thoroughly that kind, but at least i know the characteristic and behavior.

& As i keep reading and reading, i start to realise what kind of a person i am. The small and the little thing and how come i'm feeling this way and kind. & i found the weaknesses in me but i also have the solution to change tt weakness.

As we get older, we get more responsibilities.

But what should our response be?

1) Grumble & ask why not that older person do it, why me?

or

2) Learn to grow up & accept this change.

Maturity is measured by the capacity of responsibilities we can hold.

Being faithful in the little first, and more will be added to us. But if we can't even handle the little, and we grumble, how then can we handle much more? It's just part of growing up. I cannot give you a multi-million project before a hundred dollar project is successful.

& for me, this 2010, i gone thru alot of different emotions like a molding period. I'm not perfect, i'm not the perfect friend, sister or the daughter, i'm not the perfect whatever i am. Worse thing, because there's no channel to let out these emotions, i keep everything to myself, negative thoughts come.

Sometimes we know it's not because we dont wanna share our feelings, but it's if we share, do people understand us or not, or we get the right response we want from that person.

But i come to realise, these emotions are what God is giving to me first. God says we're overcomers, but if we don't overcome anything, we cant be overcomers. So this is just one step towards being faithful with a cheerful spirit. I got so much more to be faithful in, before God can give me more.

Philippians 3:13 - 14

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Press on!

& Thank You F. (: thanks for loving me.

i sing of the things that you've done

God answers prayers and desires of our heart.

(my toe just cramp. painnnn.)

Anyway, ya.. Sometimes we won't know things until we truly experience it ourselves and then we believe it.

Got so so many good testimonies to share & it's really coolz, at least to me la.

Now i really know, God can bring blessing thru me! :D

Anw....

Sometimes when people share their revelations with you, you might find it familiar, like you got it before & also feel like 'Hey tt revelation i got before what, if i get it first means i'm clearer than you in this." Maybe it's true, But you never know when this revelation of theirs could become a rhema word for you! Or maybe something fresh comes out & you learn something more.

Tt's why i choose to listen instead of shutting down whenever i hear revelations(small or big ones)! If God can speak to you, He can speak thru you! :D We should start listening more than before!

& if you wanna share a revelation, share it boldly! Cause God gives a word in a season for a reason! :D

When u care to share, it shows how much you love.

& when u care to listen, it shows how much you love too.

L.O.V.E.

So do you care to love?

out of my hands

My heart can never comprehend
Love crucified the Man
Was open hands were nailed for me
And now I live each moment serving only You
Jesus my Lord

Out of my hand
Back to your heart
I give my all to Thee
Words aren't enough
For me to start
To say what You meant to me

Sometimes things happens so quickly that you can't even react fast to it, and then it's over. Over as in negatively over. You try so hard to get things back to original, but you realise, you can't. You try and try again and again, but it seems useless.

You start to cry and get so depressed. You look at this hands of yours, you think it's useless. You start to think everything is negative, and feel like it's all useless. No one understands your situation, but you tried to be strong, so hard, in front of everyone you know and dont. But at night, you start crying out for someone to be there.

Many of us used to be like this, or still like this. But during AC, God kept asking me to look at my hands, this hands of mine which i hated before. He said, this hands of yours, i am going to use mightily, you're not alone, i am there with you. & in just one night, He answered all my questions i have been crying out at some nights.

God: Why do you think you're alone when I'm here?
Me: Cause you're not physically here..
God: I am, i am not a dead but a living God, i create miracles.

Similarly, this hands of yours, God is able to use it so mightily. Even if you don't believe in Him, God has a way for you.

Reason why I'm in CHC, one of my friend asked me recently, why go to jurong for church, because i found love there, i found people who appreciated me, something i never found before 2 plus years ago. I'm not obsess with anything, & even if i am, im not obsess with church, but with the love i found there.

I'm not perfect, yet they love me. I dont expect people to be there for me, yet He came and touched me, some of my friends came and encourage me. & now, even when CHC is going thru this, i'm not going to just walk away, but i'm in it with my family, standing in Unity!

Studying for my exams & just felt like blogging again. i will update lesser than before. haha. It's time to get back to my notes.
byeee~

AC PICS

WEEEEEEEEEEEE~
Eileen!!
Karrr!
pretty flowers!

Hah! just thinking maybe i should just stick to writing of diary?

idk la. super fickle minded!

Everything will be okay i know it. i lost my voice yest and thank God part of it came back! tmr got to sing for audition. jyjy! LIKE YOU KNOW SERIOUSLY, for yesterday i wanted to talk i cannot talk. the misery of not being able to talk. =/ hahaha!

so many things happened in AC

Physically - I lost my voice, hand cracked, eye bags, went for blood donation

but

Spiritually - SUPER BLESSED.

bye (:

For a long time. i think im going for a break! :D

I'm still a happy person no matter what!!! :D