2010

When i look into the skies above, 
Wonder how my life have changed this 2010, 
Wonder how Your love came to me, 
I was so amazed.

4 more days to 2010....
This year i went thru quite alot of things i personally feel.
Additional stuff and stuff leaving my life, both good and bad..
New friendships, closer friendships, people whom i can share stuff with, friendship that got closer even more after conflicts and stuff..
Doing more for the zone, trying to rise up even more this year.. Leading P&W in zone meetings, more fasting and praying..
Going on TV show again, more time w family.. Blessings thruout the whole year, that amount up to alot..
Alot of breaking and molding, but i know it's still not enough..

So much stuff, but im believing 2011 would be a better one.
Can't wait for 2011, and am still believe my April 2011 is gonna be a very special month. (:
I hold on to Your promise. (:

Committing and surrendering is 2 different words.
My promise land is on the way.

My life your song

As the year is coming to an end,
i realise there's much to reflect on.

New goals, new resolution and new things coming.

Always love this verse..

Isa 43:19
"Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert..

If that is the music i got to face this upcoming 2011, God i'm alright, more breaking, more molding, i'm fine. I'm not gonna have any bad attitude, but a new wineskin to contain all the new wine. All i ask... Is for You to be with me. Nothing matters, except for You.


New thing... 

Merry merry Christmas

So many things happened these few days. Like woah.
Had the best Christmas ever... (:

24 Dec midnight, we sent dearest Kit off.
Dearest Kittt i will miss you! Have fun over there and i will see you real soon!! :D

Having less then half hour sleep, i went school for project :( THEN CHRISTMAS DRAMA! So touched by the drama... then COUNTDOWN at Esplanade with KEL zone people which is awesome! and then late late dinner with mum and jy.

25 DEC! great way to start my Christmas, to be in the house of God. (:
caught something outside of the story, i really want my 2011 to be so awesome. something different, something more.. more than this 2010. 2010 is great, 2011 will be more. new things.. greater things..

Headed off for special mission after svc w Joel and met Angel and Chung.
& thank Joel for sharing so much! great friend and brother! :D then 4 of us spent 4 5 hours tgt "romantically" under a hut in the rain about everything. but all for a good cause.(:

CONGRATS RAE & EDWIN!!!

still so so so happy for them! Like woohooo, words can't describe, but it has been like 2 years plus but it all seem so short. IM HAPPY FOR MY DEAR LEADERS. The ones who brought me up and built me further. Thank you Edwin and Rae. So so so much and thanks for letting me help out. So so so honoured!! :D
AHHHHHHH so happy tt i want everyone to get married like now. IF YOU'RE READING, PLS GET MARRIED NOW, OR ASK ME FOR HELP IN PROPOSAL? :D

Maybe i should totally go into this matchmaking agency thingy or wedding thingy, since i have strong discerning over this kind of stuff. i kinda rock in this :D hahaha joking!

Im still so so happy. Privilege to sit on the same cab as them ytd home. Thank God for His awesome hands of protection. on the express road, this car suddenly just slide and turn 180 degrees facing us, THANK GOD our cab driver wasn't driving very very fast, and we didn't bang into the car that slided, if not i wont know where im at now. Thank God for protection and of cause for Edwin and Rae's spiritual covering, 2 great leaders in the cab, of course nothing bad will happen to me! THANK YOU EDWIN AND RAE! :D

Just so happy for Edwin and Raeeee :D:D

Went for sleepover w my dearest Spastics. Love them so so much, sorry guys for like being so busy, but thanks for still loving me <3 we talked till we slept, so funny. the ones where i can be like the kiddish me. love my friends.

Awesome Christmas, w happening stuff OH AND I SHOOK HANDS WITH PK! Merry Christmas present! God bless Pastor! :D

Now im on my lazy sunday mode. but i got to do my project like soon. feel like slacking, but no xy..
PROJECT WORK TMR ALSO. God... Help me...

Monday - project
Tuesday - Appreciation stuff
Wed - Spastic's day
Thursday - Chalet
Friday - Appreciation party / Chalet
Sat - Chalet / Svc / NEW YEAR

This is my end of my year.
So much to feel... i'm gonna love my 2011.

Brokenness. A word to think about more... in 2011.

When you smile

Had a long day today.
Project was omgosh, so tiring, or maybe all of us were just tired... yup, and thank God for just my own soul time at Starbucks, writing my goal card for 2011 and a new word for 2011.

New wineskin for new wine..
Not really a new word, but a word in season, solving all my doubts.
Thank you God.

Really thankful for my time at Starbucks and so timely..
Headed to get a few things for Christmas, and then time with @happydose. Crazy girl but thankful for her! Everyone needs a place to rant nonsense and thank God for happydose to hear my nonsense and not get affected by everything. Seriously as i look back on 2010, things changed, especially my friendship with her, thank God and amazed at how things changed. Thank you Jasmin!!!

Kito is leaving soon, omg.. :(
KIT I WILL MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCHHH!!!

2010 changed so much, and just now i was just writing down, i was just getting use to 2010, getting used to poly life, and soon, everything is coming to an end soon, just when i'm starting my new adapted life. But isn't it like that, once we get used to something, we got to move on, cause it just means our capacity enlarged, and it's time for another enlargement.

Luke 5:39 - And no one, having drunk old wine, immediately desires new; for he says, ‘The old is better.’”
This is not gonna be my attitude! Stepping out, stepping out, stepping out.

I set my new goals and resolutions for 2011, and i'm gonna do it!! Better than 2010, 2011 is gonna be a very awesome year! :D Glory to glory.

Was just thinking about this for the past few days after REAL


"What others can, we can't"


What others can, I can't.

& Jasmin blogged it, wow, we flowwww yo!

2011, i speak to you, You're gonna be a great year of Breakthroughs!
:D Last 10 days of 2010! Ending it well!!

Obed-Edom

I wanna be like Obed-Edom.
So much more...

"...... and the Lord blessed Obed-Edom Xinying and all his her household."

The love for His house that he have, i want to have.
Servanthood heart. and the love for His presence.

REAL ended, but Xinying's new life have just began. (:

For you alone

My heart is just filled with Thankfulness.

REAL is over, after all the practising and fellowship and straining and stretching.
Really i am just so thankful God is able to use someone like me, someone who is so not worthy and everything.

The presence of God, the presence of God.
When i stood on the stage just to serve, my heart was in awe. All glory to Him. Thank you Jesus for the opportunity.

I saw how people worship, i saw people's hunger, i saw their cry. I look up, i saw the lights, and it reminds me of Him. I had this vision of the sea and river flowing before Cynthia preached today, my heart was so in awe while she was preaching, that i really wanted to just tear.

In times when i was not feeling myself this year, He was there, just to comfort me, reassure me, lov me. Yet i somehow grief the Holy Spirit in some ways at time. I was faithless, yet He's faithful.

My heartcry for 2011, More of You, more of You.
One thing i dont want to stop doing, to keep on serving Him. Because i know when i serve, God is there to expand me greater. My cry, i want to serve, and never stop. Jesus, i thank You.


You are the peace that guards my heart...
Father, I love You, 
& we worship You this day.

REAL Day 1

My resolution

One of my resolution this year was to be a true worshiper.
At the beginning of the year, when i wrote that down, i meant to sing truthfully what the song says, and just to sing and play the guitar nicely. I don't even know why i decided to write tt down. haha.

But along the way, God started to reveal what a true worshiper meant.
Someone who sings that even when the music and melody is stripped away, the voice, talents and everything gone, what is left is just a heart. and if your heart is right, that's it.

True worshipper doesnt mean you have to have a good ultra nice voice, cause all of all won't even pass this test. but just a heart, willing to love the one. For He search much deeper within, through the ways things appear, looking into our heart.

We sang 'Heart of Worship' today, one of my childhood songs, and Kelvin shared about true worshipper which made me thought of my resolution that makes me realise, God is so REAL as REAL approaches. How to know whether you're a true worshipper? For me, it's when i'm placed on stage, am i there to impress or to bring down the presence.. It's when i forsake all i'm doing, just to cling on to Him, to pull down and not singing the right note, blend and whatsoever, but just to rely on the HS.

Surrendering all, and all.
I want to be a true worshipper, and my resolution is coming to pass.
Even though i dont know it is, He moves and moves, till 11 months later, i came to realise, i'm a better worshipper now. But i'm still not satisfied. Move in me God.
Still very thankful for the chances to serve on stage.

Tmr's REAL alrdy, move in the Muso God, in all the sessions.(:

I'm literally living REAL now.
Did design stuff today for 4 cgs, collect thing for REAL pack, muso pract and came home doing REAL stuff.
Why am i so into REAL, not cause of the benefits and rewards i will get, but the end result of Him being shown to all. (; REAL God.

freeedoommmm

Exams are over,
REAL IS IN 3 DAYS TIME.

Gonna be very busy but im happy with it that way :D
Having like bad headaches recently. weirdo.

REAL REAL REAL REAL REAL!!! :D

DESIGN, MUSO.
no planning but im helping with abit of logistics! :D
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. REAL IS GONNA BE AWESOME!

why do people nose bleed?

Seriously seriously whyyyyy
i macham bleeding everywhere. not good. cause im like low on iron, and then im bleeding.
FATHER I PRAY NOTHING'S WRONG. AMEN!

okay as long as it doesnt bleed again, im alright. nothing's very wrong.
okay and they say online, low iron do cause nose bleed. maybe im still low on iron. sianzxz.

Last paper tmr, and seriously i dont feel like studying it. HOW NOW BROWN COW.
okay my prayer came to pass.(:

ahhhhhh after paper tmr, xyz is coming home to sleep and maybe out at night?
kk let's see.
BYE!

when im stress and not stress

 not stress

stress

PIMPLES OUTBREAKKKKKK AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
tts why i blur everything. :(

In Your hands

(YANNNI AND EILEEN FTW!)

REAL is coming in another 8 more days.
11.11pm now! God bless REAL conference!

Okay, been busy with muso and i really thank God for everyone of them, for the fellowship, the ice that were broken between most of us.

2 papers down and good so far. Didnt read this certain question and i just anyhow do, and when i checked, THANK GOD, it was right, at least i didnt lost my 6 marks totally. (:

Had this random prayer i made, and 2 week later, ytd, it was kinda answered and it was like an impossible prayer la. I shall blog about it when it really come to pass.

Everyone loves being the melody, singing the melody, cause it's the main thing and have all the glory and limelight, but i come to realise, singing the parts, the beat, rhythm all that is alright with me. As long as it is still part of the song. Not meaning it in a literal way, but a metaphor.

Even if i dont get any reward in the end, i still thank God i'm still contributing and being part of the plan. :D

Weeee, okay, must study for my T&D. Seriously so much to study, JIAYOU XY!
3 more to go!

Your heart

Things changes,
People changes,
Place changes,
But one thing doesn't.

Your love & Your love.
That's the thing i'm still finding.

Show me Your heart.

Seems like..

sometimes because you're at a particular place where the people are not there, things changes. But another point, because you're at the place you are at, you also gain something cause of the people who are there.

Perspective perspective.
Reward doesn't come from people, reward and promotion comes from Him.

Time and things proven again, I'm still in His plan.
Jiayou Xy, Jiayou everyone! :D

I love my family. I think everyone in my family looks so so much better than me. This whole time everyone's been telling me how pretty Jy and Dajie is. Happy to be surrounded by pretty and handsome people!
Gossip girls just shows me how impt family is.
We can always learn something, anytime, anywhere. (:

Okay 5 papers for mst. what am i even doing here.
kbyeeee!