When i look into the skies above,
Wonder how my life have changed this 2010,
Wonder how Your love came to me,
I was so amazed.
4 more days to 2010....
This year i went thru quite alot of things i personally feel.
Additional stuff and stuff leaving my life, both good and bad..
New friendships, closer friendships, people whom i can share stuff with, friendship that got closer even more after conflicts and stuff..
Doing more for the zone, trying to rise up even more this year.. Leading P&W in zone meetings, more fasting and praying..
Going on TV show again, more time w family.. Blessings thruout the whole year, that amount up to alot..
Alot of breaking and molding, but i know it's still not enough..
So much stuff, but im believing 2011 would be a better one.
Can't wait for 2011, and am still believe my April 2011 is gonna be a very special month. (:
I hold on to Your promise. (:
Committing and surrendering is 2 different words.
My promise land is on the way.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
My life your song
As the year is coming to an end,
i realise there's much to reflect on.
New goals, new resolution and new things coming.
Always love this verse..
Isa 43:19
"Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert..
If that is the music i got to face this upcoming 2011, God i'm alright, more breaking, more molding, i'm fine. I'm not gonna have any bad attitude, but a new wineskin to contain all the new wine. All i ask... Is for You to be with me. Nothing matters, except for You.
New thing...
i realise there's much to reflect on.
New goals, new resolution and new things coming.
Always love this verse..
Isa 43:19
"Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert..
If that is the music i got to face this upcoming 2011, God i'm alright, more breaking, more molding, i'm fine. I'm not gonna have any bad attitude, but a new wineskin to contain all the new wine. All i ask... Is for You to be with me. Nothing matters, except for You.
New thing...
Merry merry Christmas
So many things happened these few days. Like woah.
Had the best Christmas ever... (:
24 Dec midnight, we sent dearest Kit off.
Dearest Kittt i will miss you! Have fun over there and i will see you real soon!! :D
Having less then half hour sleep, i went school for project :( THEN CHRISTMAS DRAMA! So touched by the drama... then COUNTDOWN at Esplanade with KEL zone people which is awesome! and then late late dinner with mum and jy.
25 DEC! great way to start my Christmas, to be in the house of God. (:
caught something outside of the story, i really want my 2011 to be so awesome. something different, something more.. more than this 2010. 2010 is great, 2011 will be more. new things.. greater things..
Headed off for special mission after svc w Joel and met Angel and Chung.
& thank Joel for sharing so much! great friend and brother! :D then 4 of us spent 4 5 hours tgt "romantically" under a hut in the rain about everything. but all for a good cause.(:
CONGRATS RAE & EDWIN!!!
still so so so happy for them! Like woohooo, words can't describe, but it has been like 2 years plus but it all seem so short. IM HAPPY FOR MY DEAR LEADERS. The ones who brought me up and built me further. Thank you Edwin and Rae. So so so much and thanks for letting me help out. So so so honoured!! :D
AHHHHHHH so happy tt i want everyone to get married like now. IF YOU'RE READING, PLS GET MARRIED NOW, OR ASK ME FOR HELP IN PROPOSAL? :D
Maybe i should totally go into this matchmaking agency thingy or wedding thingy, since i have strong discerning over this kind of stuff. i kinda rock in this :D hahaha joking!
Im still so so happy. Privilege to sit on the same cab as them ytd home. Thank God for His awesome hands of protection. on the express road, this car suddenly just slide and turn 180 degrees facing us, THANK GOD our cab driver wasn't driving very very fast, and we didn't bang into the car that slided, if not i wont know where im at now. Thank God for protection and of cause for Edwin and Rae's spiritual covering, 2 great leaders in the cab, of course nothing bad will happen to me! THANK YOU EDWIN AND RAE! :D
Just so happy for Edwin and Raeeee :D:D
Went for sleepover w my dearest Spastics. Love them so so much, sorry guys for like being so busy, but thanks for still loving me <3 we talked till we slept, so funny. the ones where i can be like the kiddish me. love my friends.
Awesome Christmas, w happening stuff OH AND I SHOOK HANDS WITH PK! Merry Christmas present! God bless Pastor! :D
Now im on my lazy sunday mode. but i got to do my project like soon. feel like slacking, but no xy..
PROJECT WORK TMR ALSO. God... Help me...
Monday - project
Tuesday - Appreciation stuff
Wed - Spastic's day
Thursday - Chalet
Friday - Appreciation party / Chalet
Sat - Chalet / Svc / NEW YEAR
This is my end of my year.
So much to feel... i'm gonna love my 2011.
Brokenness. A word to think about more... in 2011.
Had the best Christmas ever... (:
24 Dec midnight, we sent dearest Kit off.
Dearest Kittt i will miss you! Have fun over there and i will see you real soon!! :D
Having less then half hour sleep, i went school for project :( THEN CHRISTMAS DRAMA! So touched by the drama... then COUNTDOWN at Esplanade with KEL zone people which is awesome! and then late late dinner with mum and jy.
25 DEC! great way to start my Christmas, to be in the house of God. (:
caught something outside of the story, i really want my 2011 to be so awesome. something different, something more.. more than this 2010. 2010 is great, 2011 will be more. new things.. greater things..
Headed off for special mission after svc w Joel and met Angel and Chung.
& thank Joel for sharing so much! great friend and brother! :D then 4 of us spent 4 5 hours tgt "romantically" under a hut in the rain about everything. but all for a good cause.(:
CONGRATS RAE & EDWIN!!!
still so so so happy for them! Like woohooo, words can't describe, but it has been like 2 years plus but it all seem so short. IM HAPPY FOR MY DEAR LEADERS. The ones who brought me up and built me further. Thank you Edwin and Rae. So so so much and thanks for letting me help out. So so so honoured!! :D
AHHHHHHH so happy tt i want everyone to get married like now. IF YOU'RE READING, PLS GET MARRIED NOW, OR ASK ME FOR HELP IN PROPOSAL? :D
Maybe i should totally go into this matchmaking agency thingy or wedding thingy, since i have strong discerning over this kind of stuff. i kinda rock in this :D hahaha joking!
Im still so so happy. Privilege to sit on the same cab as them ytd home. Thank God for His awesome hands of protection. on the express road, this car suddenly just slide and turn 180 degrees facing us, THANK GOD our cab driver wasn't driving very very fast, and we didn't bang into the car that slided, if not i wont know where im at now. Thank God for protection and of cause for Edwin and Rae's spiritual covering, 2 great leaders in the cab, of course nothing bad will happen to me! THANK YOU EDWIN AND RAE! :D
Just so happy for Edwin and Raeeee :D:D
Went for sleepover w my dearest Spastics. Love them so so much, sorry guys for like being so busy, but thanks for still loving me <3 we talked till we slept, so funny. the ones where i can be like the kiddish me. love my friends.
Awesome Christmas, w happening stuff OH AND I SHOOK HANDS WITH PK! Merry Christmas present! God bless Pastor! :D
Now im on my lazy sunday mode. but i got to do my project like soon. feel like slacking, but no xy..
PROJECT WORK TMR ALSO. God... Help me...
Monday - project
Tuesday - Appreciation stuff
Wed - Spastic's day
Thursday - Chalet
Friday - Appreciation party / Chalet
Sat - Chalet / Svc / NEW YEAR
This is my end of my year.
So much to feel... i'm gonna love my 2011.
Brokenness. A word to think about more... in 2011.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
When you smile
Had a long day today.
Project was omgosh, so tiring, or maybe all of us were just tired... yup, and thank God for just my own soul time at Starbucks, writing my goal card for 2011 and a new word for 2011.
New wineskin for new wine..
Not really a new word, but a word in season, solving all my doubts.
Thank you God.
Really thankful for my time at Starbucks and so timely..
Headed to get a few things for Christmas, and then time with @happydose. Crazy girl but thankful for her! Everyone needs a place to rant nonsense and thank God for happydose to hear my nonsense and not get affected by everything. Seriously as i look back on 2010, things changed, especially my friendship with her, thank God and amazed at how things changed. Thank you Jasmin!!!
Kito is leaving soon, omg.. :(
KIT I WILL MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCHHH!!!
2010 changed so much, and just now i was just writing down, i was just getting use to 2010, getting used to poly life, and soon, everything is coming to an end soon, just when i'm starting my new adapted life. But isn't it like that, once we get used to something, we got to move on, cause it just means our capacity enlarged, and it's time for another enlargement.
Luke 5:39 - And no one, having drunk old wine, immediately desires new; for he says, ‘The old is better.’”
This is not gonna be my attitude! Stepping out, stepping out, stepping out.
I set my new goals and resolutions for 2011, and i'm gonna do it!! Better than 2010, 2011 is gonna be a very awesome year! :D Glory to glory.
Was just thinking about this for the past few days after REAL
"What others can, we can't"
What others can, I can't.
& Jasmin blogged it, wow, we flowwww yo!
2011, i speak to you, You're gonna be a great year of Breakthroughs!
:D Last 10 days of 2010! Ending it well!!
Project was omgosh, so tiring, or maybe all of us were just tired... yup, and thank God for just my own soul time at Starbucks, writing my goal card for 2011 and a new word for 2011.
New wineskin for new wine..
Not really a new word, but a word in season, solving all my doubts.
Thank you God.
Really thankful for my time at Starbucks and so timely..
Headed to get a few things for Christmas, and then time with @happydose. Crazy girl but thankful for her! Everyone needs a place to rant nonsense and thank God for happydose to hear my nonsense and not get affected by everything. Seriously as i look back on 2010, things changed, especially my friendship with her, thank God and amazed at how things changed. Thank you Jasmin!!!
Kito is leaving soon, omg.. :(
KIT I WILL MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCHHH!!!
2010 changed so much, and just now i was just writing down, i was just getting use to 2010, getting used to poly life, and soon, everything is coming to an end soon, just when i'm starting my new adapted life. But isn't it like that, once we get used to something, we got to move on, cause it just means our capacity enlarged, and it's time for another enlargement.
Luke 5:39 - And no one, having drunk old wine, immediately desires new; for he says, ‘The old is better.’”
This is not gonna be my attitude! Stepping out, stepping out, stepping out.
I set my new goals and resolutions for 2011, and i'm gonna do it!! Better than 2010, 2011 is gonna be a very awesome year! :D Glory to glory.
Was just thinking about this for the past few days after REAL
"What others can, we can't"
What others can, I can't.
& Jasmin blogged it, wow, we flowwww yo!
2011, i speak to you, You're gonna be a great year of Breakthroughs!
:D Last 10 days of 2010! Ending it well!!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Obed-Edom
I wanna be like Obed-Edom.
So much more...
"...... and the Lord blessedObed-Edom Xinying and all his her household."
The love for His house that he have, i want to have.
Servanthood heart. and the love for His presence.
REAL ended, but Xinying's new life have just began. (:
So much more...
"...... and the Lord blessed
The love for His house that he have, i want to have.
Servanthood heart. and the love for His presence.
REAL ended, but Xinying's new life have just began. (:
Saturday, December 18, 2010
For you alone
My heart is just filled with Thankfulness.
REAL is over, after all the practising and fellowship and straining and stretching.
Really i am just so thankful God is able to use someone like me, someone who is so not worthy and everything.
The presence of God, the presence of God.
When i stood on the stage just to serve, my heart was in awe. All glory to Him. Thank you Jesus for the opportunity.
I saw how people worship, i saw people's hunger, i saw their cry. I look up, i saw the lights, and it reminds me of Him. I had this vision of the sea and river flowing before Cynthia preached today, my heart was so in awe while she was preaching, that i really wanted to just tear.
In times when i was not feeling myself this year, He was there, just to comfort me, reassure me, lov me. Yet i somehow grief the Holy Spirit in some ways at time. I was faithless, yet He's faithful.
My heartcry for 2011, More of You, more of You.
One thing i dont want to stop doing, to keep on serving Him. Because i know when i serve, God is there to expand me greater. My cry, i want to serve, and never stop. Jesus, i thank You.
You are the peace that guards my heart...
Father, I love You,
& we worship You this day.
REAL is over, after all the practising and fellowship and straining and stretching.
Really i am just so thankful God is able to use someone like me, someone who is so not worthy and everything.
The presence of God, the presence of God.
When i stood on the stage just to serve, my heart was in awe. All glory to Him. Thank you Jesus for the opportunity.
I saw how people worship, i saw people's hunger, i saw their cry. I look up, i saw the lights, and it reminds me of Him. I had this vision of the sea and river flowing before Cynthia preached today, my heart was so in awe while she was preaching, that i really wanted to just tear.
In times when i was not feeling myself this year, He was there, just to comfort me, reassure me, lov me. Yet i somehow grief the Holy Spirit in some ways at time. I was faithless, yet He's faithful.
My heartcry for 2011, More of You, more of You.
One thing i dont want to stop doing, to keep on serving Him. Because i know when i serve, God is there to expand me greater. My cry, i want to serve, and never stop. Jesus, i thank You.
You are the peace that guards my heart...
Father, I love You,
& we worship You this day.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
My resolution
One of my resolution this year was to be a true worshiper.
At the beginning of the year, when i wrote that down, i meant to sing truthfully what the song says, and just to sing and play the guitar nicely. I don't even know why i decided to write tt down. haha.
But along the way, God started to reveal what a true worshiper meant.
Someone who sings that even when the music and melody is stripped away, the voice, talents and everything gone, what is left is just a heart. and if your heart is right, that's it.
True worshipper doesnt mean you have to have a good ultra nice voice, cause all of all won't even pass this test. but just a heart, willing to love the one. For He search much deeper within, through the ways things appear, looking into our heart.
We sang 'Heart of Worship' today, one of my childhood songs, and Kelvin shared about true worshipper which made me thought of my resolution that makes me realise, God is so REAL as REAL approaches. How to know whether you're a true worshipper? For me, it's when i'm placed on stage, am i there to impress or to bring down the presence.. It's when i forsake all i'm doing, just to cling on to Him, to pull down and not singing the right note, blend and whatsoever, but just to rely on the HS.
Surrendering all, and all.
I want to be a true worshipper, and my resolution is coming to pass.
Even though i dont know it is, He moves and moves, till 11 months later, i came to realise, i'm a better worshipper now. But i'm still not satisfied. Move in me God.
Still very thankful for the chances to serve on stage.
Tmr's REAL alrdy, move in the Muso God, in all the sessions.(:
I'm literally living REAL now.
Did design stuff today for 4 cgs, collect thing for REAL pack, muso pract and came home doing REAL stuff.
Why am i so into REAL, not cause of the benefits and rewards i will get, but the end result of Him being shown to all. (; REAL God.
At the beginning of the year, when i wrote that down, i meant to sing truthfully what the song says, and just to sing and play the guitar nicely. I don't even know why i decided to write tt down. haha.
But along the way, God started to reveal what a true worshiper meant.
Someone who sings that even when the music and melody is stripped away, the voice, talents and everything gone, what is left is just a heart. and if your heart is right, that's it.
True worshipper doesnt mean you have to have a good ultra nice voice, cause all of all won't even pass this test. but just a heart, willing to love the one. For He search much deeper within, through the ways things appear, looking into our heart.
We sang 'Heart of Worship' today, one of my childhood songs, and Kelvin shared about true worshipper which made me thought of my resolution that makes me realise, God is so REAL as REAL approaches. How to know whether you're a true worshipper? For me, it's when i'm placed on stage, am i there to impress or to bring down the presence.. It's when i forsake all i'm doing, just to cling on to Him, to pull down and not singing the right note, blend and whatsoever, but just to rely on the HS.
Surrendering all, and all.
I want to be a true worshipper, and my resolution is coming to pass.
Even though i dont know it is, He moves and moves, till 11 months later, i came to realise, i'm a better worshipper now. But i'm still not satisfied. Move in me God.
Still very thankful for the chances to serve on stage.
Tmr's REAL alrdy, move in the Muso God, in all the sessions.(:
I'm literally living REAL now.
Did design stuff today for 4 cgs, collect thing for REAL pack, muso pract and came home doing REAL stuff.
Why am i so into REAL, not cause of the benefits and rewards i will get, but the end result of Him being shown to all. (; REAL God.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
freeedoommmm
Exams are over,
REAL IS IN 3 DAYS TIME.
Gonna be very busy but im happy with it that way :D
Having like bad headaches recently. weirdo.
REAL REAL REAL REAL REAL!!! :D
DESIGN, MUSO.
no planning but im helping with abit of logistics! :D
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. REAL IS GONNA BE AWESOME!
REAL IS IN 3 DAYS TIME.
Gonna be very busy but im happy with it that way :D
Having like bad headaches recently. weirdo.
REAL REAL REAL REAL REAL!!! :D
DESIGN, MUSO.
no planning but im helping with abit of logistics! :D
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. REAL IS GONNA BE AWESOME!
Friday, December 10, 2010
why do people nose bleed?
Seriously seriously whyyyyy
i macham bleeding everywhere. not good. cause im like low on iron, and then im bleeding.
FATHER I PRAY NOTHING'S WRONG. AMEN!
okay as long as it doesnt bleed again, im alright. nothing's very wrong.
okay and they say online, low iron do cause nose bleed. maybe im still low on iron. sianzxz.
Last paper tmr, and seriously i dont feel like studying it. HOW NOW BROWN COW.
okay my prayer came to pass.(:
ahhhhhh after paper tmr, xyz is coming home to sleep and maybe out at night?
kk let's see.
BYE!
i macham bleeding everywhere. not good. cause im like low on iron, and then im bleeding.
FATHER I PRAY NOTHING'S WRONG. AMEN!
okay as long as it doesnt bleed again, im alright. nothing's very wrong.
okay and they say online, low iron do cause nose bleed. maybe im still low on iron. sianzxz.
Last paper tmr, and seriously i dont feel like studying it. HOW NOW BROWN COW.
okay my prayer came to pass.(:
ahhhhhh after paper tmr, xyz is coming home to sleep and maybe out at night?
kk let's see.
BYE!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
In Your hands
(YANNNI AND EILEEN FTW!)
REAL is coming in another 8 more days.
11.11pm now! God bless REAL conference!
Okay, been busy with muso and i really thank God for everyone of them, for the fellowship, the ice that were broken between most of us.
2 papers down and good so far. Didnt read this certain question and i just anyhow do, and when i checked, THANK GOD, it was right, at least i didnt lost my 6 marks totally. (:
Had this random prayer i made, and 2 week later, ytd, it was kinda answered and it was like an impossible prayer la. I shall blog about it when it really come to pass.
Everyone loves being the melody, singing the melody, cause it's the main thing and have all the glory and limelight, but i come to realise, singing the parts, the beat, rhythm all that is alright with me. As long as it is still part of the song. Not meaning it in a literal way, but a metaphor.
Even if i dont get any reward in the end, i still thank God i'm still contributing and being part of the plan. :D
Weeee, okay, must study for my T&D. Seriously so much to study, JIAYOU XY!
3 more to go!
REAL is coming in another 8 more days.
11.11pm now! God bless REAL conference!
Okay, been busy with muso and i really thank God for everyone of them, for the fellowship, the ice that were broken between most of us.
2 papers down and good so far. Didnt read this certain question and i just anyhow do, and when i checked, THANK GOD, it was right, at least i didnt lost my 6 marks totally. (:
Had this random prayer i made, and 2 week later, ytd, it was kinda answered and it was like an impossible prayer la. I shall blog about it when it really come to pass.
Everyone loves being the melody, singing the melody, cause it's the main thing and have all the glory and limelight, but i come to realise, singing the parts, the beat, rhythm all that is alright with me. As long as it is still part of the song. Not meaning it in a literal way, but a metaphor.
Even if i dont get any reward in the end, i still thank God i'm still contributing and being part of the plan. :D
Weeee, okay, must study for my T&D. Seriously so much to study, JIAYOU XY!
3 more to go!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Your heart
Things changes,
People changes,
Place changes,
But one thing doesn't.
Your love & Your love.
That's the thing i'm still finding.
Show me Your heart.
People changes,
Place changes,
But one thing doesn't.
Your love & Your love.
That's the thing i'm still finding.
Show me Your heart.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Seems like..
sometimes because you're at a particular place where the people are not there, things changes. But another point, because you're at the place you are at, you also gain something cause of the people who are there.
Perspective perspective.
Reward doesn't come from people, reward and promotion comes from Him.
Time and things proven again, I'm still in His plan.
Jiayou Xy, Jiayou everyone! :D
I love my family. I think everyone in my family looks so so much better than me. This whole time everyone's been telling me how pretty Jy and Dajie is. Happy to be surrounded by pretty and handsome people!
Gossip girls just shows me how impt family is.
We can always learn something, anytime, anywhere. (:
Okay 5 papers for mst. what am i even doing here.
kbyeeee!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Show me
There is a place in Your heart,
I am longing to find
Won't You show me
There is a place i know
I can run to and hide
There is a place i know
I can run to and hide
Won't You show me Your heart
So much changed within this 2 years, just looking back on the 2 to 3 years, i realise this year is one of the hard chastening years, the year where i learn everything the hard way. But i learned something this year, that the hard way isn't the bad way, it's just another way.
Sometimes learning things the hard way makes you remember bout that certain incident so deeply that you wont commit it again, well you may beg to differ, but yeah, that's my opinion. hahaha but hard way still painful la.
The last day of Nov 2010, time passes and will never turn back again, there's only one 30 Nov 2010, and so are other days. & it's up to me to make my every day count, and i love every single of mine, even though some days i wake up having bad and negative thoughts.
Listening to "Show me" now makes me feel so thankful, my prayer since idk when, & though some times this kind of prayers makes you go thru chastening like wooo, but i thank God, and thank God.
Another thing I learn this year, before starting to blame God what is happening, start to reflect or think back what i have prayed about. I want to grow up, and to grow up, i need some stuff to happen, and this is it. & ya, i know my capacity increased ever since then. (:
Thankful for my friends, if i were to name out all, it will flood my blog. But thank you everyone!
Thank you Jasmin FOR BEING SO SPASTIC & BIMBOTIC ever since i know you!
& Thank you Sarahsarah for always being so encouraging!!! Loveee ya!
I love you guys.
When we abide in the presence of God, we find rest.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Joy comes from within
Had a very good cgm and muso pract today.
Always thank God for timely messages, even thought like i heard the sermon before, but still, the word came as a fresh thing. That's the thing about the spirit and message of God.
The difference between working people and people working for God is very very big.
Working people works for money and gets burn out and will always never be satisfied cause they want more but due to economy and company's assets, it is impossible to satisfy their increasing need.
But people working for God, the thing we want is just the presence of God. Non-Christian people might think this is freaky or whatever, but God have this non-limitation thing, that whenever we have this increasing hunger and need, He is able to meet it. We dont serve something tt have a limitation, but something so big and wide.
& Today i'm standing here,
being grateful, tired physically, but internally, super happy and joyyyyyyful.
Break this vask, and let the anointing flow.
Always thank God for timely messages, even thought like i heard the sermon before, but still, the word came as a fresh thing. That's the thing about the spirit and message of God.
The difference between working people and people working for God is very very big.
Working people works for money and gets burn out and will always never be satisfied cause they want more but due to economy and company's assets, it is impossible to satisfy their increasing need.
But people working for God, the thing we want is just the presence of God. Non-Christian people might think this is freaky or whatever, but God have this non-limitation thing, that whenever we have this increasing hunger and need, He is able to meet it. We dont serve something tt have a limitation, but something so big and wide.
& Today i'm standing here,
being grateful, tired physically, but internally, super happy and joyyyyyyful.
Break this vask, and let the anointing flow.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
For you alone deserve ALL
Summary:
#1 I snapped my fingers till i have a blister on my finger
#2 I can run in heels
#3 I learn a bit about sound
#4 Pract ended late but i'm happy to be able to catch both last bus and train
#5 This season i caught so so much
#6 I love the KEL muso team!
I got the joy that the world can't give to me.
Really thank God for every opportunity to be able to serve. Dont mind being tired, but as long as i have the refilling of the oil daily, it's more than enough.
Help me Jesus :D
OH YA,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LJY!!!!
#1 I snapped my fingers till i have a blister on my finger
#2 I can run in heels
#3 I learn a bit about sound
#4 Pract ended late but i'm happy to be able to catch both last bus and train
#5 This season i caught so so much
#6 I love the KEL muso team!
I got the joy that the world can't give to me.
Really thank God for every opportunity to be able to serve. Dont mind being tired, but as long as i have the refilling of the oil daily, it's more than enough.
Help me Jesus :D
OH YA,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LJY!!!!
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Mold me
Your Perfect Love, Hang on a cross,
You paid the price for my life.
I long to know, Jesus my Saviour.
Your grace for the imperfect, something we don't deserve, yet it comes so freely.
My seasons come and go, but one thing i know it will be permanent, that i must forever depend on the Holy Spirit. It's not just about expanding my capacity now, but more on the Holy Spirit.
People are able to serve, because they have the overflow of the spirit.
I need more guidance, instead on my own smartness and actions.
God doesn't need a perfect heart, but a heart that can be mold.
Mold me...
You paid the price for my life.
I long to know, Jesus my Saviour.
Your grace for the imperfect, something we don't deserve, yet it comes so freely.
My seasons come and go, but one thing i know it will be permanent, that i must forever depend on the Holy Spirit. It's not just about expanding my capacity now, but more on the Holy Spirit.
People are able to serve, because they have the overflow of the spirit.
I need more guidance, instead on my own smartness and actions.
God doesn't need a perfect heart, but a heart that can be mold.
Mold me...
Monday, November 22, 2010
Good attitude
I realise it's actually so important to have a good attitude.
A good attitude even when you're having a bad day.
A good attitude even when you're very busy.
A god attitude even when you're angry w people around you.
A good attitude even when you're super annoyed by passerby who banged you and you drop your stuff..
& many many things.
But in all, i give my best attitude.
It's difficult to fake a smile, but a natural smile comes easy. Gonna make it my nature to be HAPPY. even if im quiet, i know im happy.
I also learned, a balance, in life, in ministry, in family, in friendship is very important.
Something that i dont like, i shall not act it out to others. So if i hate seasonal stuff, i shall make the things i like ALL-season.
I will balance all my friends all, and still make them feel love. My family too. and more and more and more. Everyone plays a great importance in my life, & im thankful.
I like happy people, and im gonna be a ALL-season happy person! :D
XINYING IS A HAPPY GIRL.
All might be easy to type out, yet, difficult to do so at some point of time.
But GOD, give grace to imperfect people like ME. :D
This season is a season of growth, in thinking, in actions and in all.
As long as He sees it, im contented. (:
A good attitude even when you're having a bad day.
A good attitude even when you're very busy.
A god attitude even when you're angry w people around you.
A good attitude even when you're super annoyed by passerby who banged you and you drop your stuff..
& many many things.
But in all, i give my best attitude.
It's difficult to fake a smile, but a natural smile comes easy. Gonna make it my nature to be HAPPY. even if im quiet, i know im happy.
I also learned, a balance, in life, in ministry, in family, in friendship is very important.
Something that i dont like, i shall not act it out to others. So if i hate seasonal stuff, i shall make the things i like ALL-season.
I will balance all my friends all, and still make them feel love. My family too. and more and more and more. Everyone plays a great importance in my life, & im thankful.
I like happy people, and im gonna be a ALL-season happy person! :D
XINYING IS A HAPPY GIRL.
All might be easy to type out, yet, difficult to do so at some point of time.
But GOD, give grace to imperfect people like ME. :D
This season is a season of growth, in thinking, in actions and in all.
As long as He sees it, im contented. (:
One thing i need
Always love this song when Alison leads this.
God came into the room today when i was watching S4 w Jy.
Im still learning to have a good attitude in all times, even in fights, in conflicts and so much more. Guess God is just testing and till i pass that test, it will be gone. Good attitude.
Just thinking about these past few days, so many things happened, but i'm really very thankful for my dearest leader, Jieying. For all the advice, from lifting my workload and passing it to boonz, to encouraging me, to giving me valuable advice and all, i'm really thankful.
Maybe without her this year, Xy is not xy too. Thankful for all the chances to grow, and thankful for her always being there for me.
I always believe in this, as long as someone planted something in my life, i will be grateful. So i'm really very thankful for all the leaders above me, Rae, Jieying, Kelvin and the other Kel Leaders and some other individuals.
I changed since sec sch, i nv liked playing the ugly character. But it had to end up somehow someway. I need to reflect.
No matter what happens, i trust in you Jesus. My reward comes from you.
Another long and busy week, YET i will remain a JOYful spirit.
No more complains, but good attitude. Jy xy.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
At Your name
Jesus, Be glorified in every season of my life.
Even though im busy, but this is when God uses me.
I can do it and thru all things, i will be strengthen.
On a side note,
maybe i dont want REAL conference to come so soon?
But really, this season, i learned so much from the respective leaders, esp Edwin, Jodie, Huimei & Emily.
The way they work, they way they love God.
Much to learn, much to catch.
Expand my capacity God...
Finally my sabbath day, let me dye my hair for the REAL conference.
Red??? Purple?? Idk... let's see later on. :D
Pst Aries:
When facing e enemy...OVER-COME or he will say COME-OVER. @ svc 4”
Even though im busy, but this is when God uses me.
I can do it and thru all things, i will be strengthen.
On a side note,
maybe i dont want REAL conference to come so soon?
But really, this season, i learned so much from the respective leaders, esp Edwin, Jodie, Huimei & Emily.
The way they work, they way they love God.
Much to learn, much to catch.
Expand my capacity God...
Finally my sabbath day, let me dye my hair for the REAL conference.
Red??? Purple?? Idk... let's see later on. :D
Pst Aries:
When facing e enemy...OVER-COME or he will say COME-OVER. @ svc 4”
Friday, November 19, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Real
Was on the way to school today listening to all the P&W songs for REAL conference. His love just flow in, that i teared on the train. like some emo kid, but one of the song really touched me.
Even though i think im like having fever now, plus flu, i know God will heal me.
Cannot afford to be sick at this season!!! Grace and grace and grace.
Realise that this year i know so much more about the grace of His.
This is the time to be stronger. :D:D
Muso pract later on!
Grace and strength! Pray for Jodie people!!! & Edwin too.
They need more grace than i do!
Seaon of prayers, grace and breakthrough!
Never regretted helping in the REAL conference even though it's tiring.
Will only get stronger!!! :D Xinying is not as weak as anyone thinks she is. :D
Even though i think im like having fever now, plus flu, i know God will heal me.
Cannot afford to be sick at this season!!! Grace and grace and grace.
Realise that this year i know so much more about the grace of His.
This is the time to be stronger. :D:D
Muso pract later on!
Grace and strength! Pray for Jodie people!!! & Edwin too.
They need more grace than i do!
Seaon of prayers, grace and breakthrough!
Never regretted helping in the REAL conference even though it's tiring.
Will only get stronger!!! :D Xinying is not as weak as anyone thinks she is. :D
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Yes i want You to know, oh yes I
Getting busy this week, alot of stuff. Maybe after REAL conference is over, i would go for a get away session. Keep myself at home, lock myself alone, and have some really quiet time with God alone. That would be really enough.
Thomas tweeted "Those who sow in tears, reaped in joy." and it really just reminded me.
Yes those who sow in tears, will reap in joy.
My happiness don't come from people, it don't come from any comments, but it comes from God alone.
But encouragements are always welcome to keep me going.
Guys please do pray for me? To expand my capacity, for grace and mercy.
All i need now is nothing more, but really, prayers and encouragements.
Feeling tired, but that's not how im going to face my trials and tests, i'm facing it face to face, no more running wild. This time it's either i emerge stronger, or hide like an ass.
Jiayou Xy! :D
Just wondering too, that actually everyone's not perfect.
Always wonder, did any any one put themselves in my shoes before coming to doubt/question me. But no one place themselves in Jesus' shoes too. It's part of cross bearing. Jy Xy!
Just wondering too, that actually everyone's not perfect.
Always wonder, did any any one put themselves in my shoes before coming to doubt/question me. But no one place themselves in Jesus' shoes too. It's part of cross bearing. Jy Xy!
Sunday, November 14, 2010
love my life
NO MATTER WHAT SEASON IM IN, I LOVE MY LIFE.
Sorry to many people, i realise that when i get busier, i tend to accidentally 'dao' people, but it's not on purpose. i will try to balance more! so dont think xinying dont love you anymore. i will get use to this season first and then everything's back to normal, so i still love every single one of you.
it's not in my nature to be dao! :D
I LOVE and THANK God for every single one of you always.
a need to pray in everyday in my life. Thankfulness. ;D
oh & one night, daddy came back with a woman, his pretty worker so i volunteered to let her sleep in my room. she waited w daddy, i wanna put down the curtains(my need to do every night before i sleep at the main door), but he kept on clipping it back up. 3 4 times, he continued to did that, i was so irritated. Outside the window i see people playing w fire crackers and flying kites at night. then i told dad, so pretty right, suddenly it begin to rain, everyone ran in their blocks.
another female pretty worker of dad came, so volunteer again, sleep in my room. then dad and i talked and talked, then somehow this 2 women disappeared, then the door was open. daddy told me he was dead already and now a spirit and it's time to go. I felt saddness overwhelming me, i hugged him so tight so he won't go. i wanted to cry but i was in total shock.
Then i woke up, THANK GOD IT'S A DREAM.
My dreams are getting so symbolic nowadays, and so easy to remember some of the details. In the midst of all the dream, i was praying hard to God. I really dont remember thinking about this at all, is it a God-given dream or something God wanna say to me? Maybe it's time to love daddy so so much more Xy!
Sorry to many people, i realise that when i get busier, i tend to accidentally 'dao' people, but it's not on purpose. i will try to balance more! so dont think xinying dont love you anymore. i will get use to this season first and then everything's back to normal, so i still love every single one of you.
it's not in my nature to be dao! :D
I LOVE and THANK God for every single one of you always.
a need to pray in everyday in my life. Thankfulness. ;D
oh & one night, daddy came back with a woman, his pretty worker so i volunteered to let her sleep in my room. she waited w daddy, i wanna put down the curtains(my need to do every night before i sleep at the main door), but he kept on clipping it back up. 3 4 times, he continued to did that, i was so irritated. Outside the window i see people playing w fire crackers and flying kites at night. then i told dad, so pretty right, suddenly it begin to rain, everyone ran in their blocks.
another female pretty worker of dad came, so volunteer again, sleep in my room. then dad and i talked and talked, then somehow this 2 women disappeared, then the door was open. daddy told me he was dead already and now a spirit and it's time to go. I felt saddness overwhelming me, i hugged him so tight so he won't go. i wanted to cry but i was in total shock.
Then i woke up, THANK GOD IT'S A DREAM.
My dreams are getting so symbolic nowadays, and so easy to remember some of the details. In the midst of all the dream, i was praying hard to God. I really dont remember thinking about this at all, is it a God-given dream or something God wanna say to me? Maybe it's time to love daddy so so much more Xy!
i stand In Awe
So today during service i saw Jocelyn my senior's msg today about the HR Chapter committee thingy. Was suppose to check it on Friday 1pm but didnt had the chance. So i was like, okay... nvm la, nv get in nvm also.Then Weitao smsed and said committee meeting. & i was like im in committee?
OMG AND BEST THING, IS WOOOOO I SEE God's plan revealed to me before my eyes. Praying that if i get in and if that certain thing happen too, DEFINITELY God is telling me to do something, so i was just like God your will be done. AND WOOOOSH, it happened. So i see now. God is good.
I'm seeing my season changing and changing.
Really i thank God for PK who preached such a seasonal word.
& thank God for Jieying, for whatever she spoke to me ytd.
Season is in the midst of changing, and i thank God for the HS, my seasons are changing so fast nowadays, kinda weird, but definitely in the flow of God. I pray and i pray, Father, expand my capacity. For Real Conference, for HR Chapter, for school project works, for family, for my best Spastic friends, for my DG, for my Cg.
EXPAND in the name of Jesus.
Speak Grace to the mountain and it shall be move.
Speak Grace to the mountain and it shall be move.
Grace grace grace to all these.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
On the way to school now, kinda reluctant(cuz i have no sch today) but yeah, im on ny way now.. Its kinda amazing i pass the first interview of HR chapter and on to the final round. Whatever the outcome might be, i will give thanks :D
I realise i think the most on the train and since i have data plan, it helps me in my 'go anywhere can blog' thing. Haha.
I realise there very very little ppl who can stand my nonsensical typing on sms, and serious very irritating ones and i thank God!
Had a very great prayer PM w the leaders ytd, the fire and desire, something we shld catch. & whenever i look at Sun & PK, my heart is just filled w gratitude. Thankful for whatever i have now, even though i tend to compare the past & now. But i knw greater things are coming!
Thinking a few days back, listening to september by Daughtry..
Nothing to lose BUT everything to gain
Is the mindset i should have now. If i keep counting how much i have lost, or jow much i am going to lose, then i will forget or lose count of how much i have gain.
& Ppl always believe tt when they gain something, they woUld lose aomething, but not for me! I gt nothing to lose but everything to gain cuz whatever i have now, its not mine, but just a Steward. Prnciple of stewardship..
Still thinking & thinking on.. (bad english whatever haha)
This season is the renewal of the mind :D
Renewal yet the thankful heart still remains..
[i used like 20mins to type this on the iphone.. Gosh haha why is the aircon like not workingg!! :(]
I realise i think the most on the train and since i have data plan, it helps me in my 'go anywhere can blog' thing. Haha.
I realise there very very little ppl who can stand my nonsensical typing on sms, and serious very irritating ones and i thank God!
Had a very great prayer PM w the leaders ytd, the fire and desire, something we shld catch. & whenever i look at Sun & PK, my heart is just filled w gratitude. Thankful for whatever i have now, even though i tend to compare the past & now. But i knw greater things are coming!
Thinking a few days back, listening to september by Daughtry..
Nothing to lose BUT everything to gain
Is the mindset i should have now. If i keep counting how much i have lost, or jow much i am going to lose, then i will forget or lose count of how much i have gain.
& Ppl always believe tt when they gain something, they woUld lose aomething, but not for me! I gt nothing to lose but everything to gain cuz whatever i have now, its not mine, but just a Steward. Prnciple of stewardship..
Still thinking & thinking on.. (bad english whatever haha)
This season is the renewal of the mind :D
Renewal yet the thankful heart still remains..
[i used like 20mins to type this on the iphone.. Gosh haha why is the aircon like not workingg!! :(]
How great You are
You are deserving, of all the praises Lord
My hear is yearning to be in your presence once more
Deep inside my heart is burning
I want to give you more
And You're the only one that I adore
How great You are
How great You are
You are the mighty king
And You've come to reign in me
How great You are
How great You are
I give You all the praises of my heart
Great LM today.
Prayer prayer prayer.
@konghee
"I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat" (W. Churchill). Jesus Christ, take my life and make it Yours, Lord ...
禱告, 因為我渺小
One of the first few worship songs Jas sent me.
& when i listen back, i found out more revelations in tt song, something during my 'younger' days i nv realise.
As a period pass by, i found out so many things He revealed. Period by period, seasons by seasons. God works in seasons and im amaze by it.
Entering into a new season soon, and i got to quickly identify it soon.
JY Xyz! :D
My hear is yearning to be in your presence once more
Deep inside my heart is burning
I want to give you more
And You're the only one that I adore
How great You are
How great You are
You are the mighty king
And You've come to reign in me
How great You are
How great You are
I give You all the praises of my heart
Great LM today.
Prayer prayer prayer.
@konghee
"I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat" (W. Churchill). Jesus Christ, take my life and make it Yours, Lord ...
禱告, 因為我渺小
One of the first few worship songs Jas sent me.
& when i listen back, i found out more revelations in tt song, something during my 'younger' days i nv realise.
As a period pass by, i found out so many things He revealed. Period by period, seasons by seasons. God works in seasons and im amaze by it.
Entering into a new season soon, and i got to quickly identify it soon.
JY Xyz! :D
Monday, November 8, 2010
You're everything i need
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| Picture taken by Kito! |
Love unfailing truth unchanging
I depend on You
Faithful Father peace forever
I will rest in You
Unshakable my hope remains
Lord I believe in You
You are strength for those in need
You are defender of the weak
You are everything we need
You are our God You are our God
God of mercy I will live in praise of all You've done
God eternal by Your power I will overcome
None greater none higher
All praise to God our Saviour
Unchanging unfailing
All praise to You our Saviour
Always love how songs can always deliver one's feeling through it's melody, it's lyrics, it's rhythm, it's tempo. That why i love music. I always feel there's a reason why i'm named xinying, even though idk how i got my name. but yeah. God works.
It's just a weird flow i am in now. But it takes awhile for everyone to realise what kind of flow they are in their life, and to work in that flow. But by His power, i will overcome everything that's coming my way. Thank you Jesus. (:
Love my family, and nothing insignificant can take away me from my family.
no formula
It's not about the formula about seeking God, but the time with Him. Little to little, glory to glory. - Joyce Meyer
I thank God for who He is, and for His love.
Without Him, no Xy.
He place the holiness in the spirit, and wants us to develop them. & in this walk w Him, we slowly develop it, and change to be a better person, to be more whole, more completed.
Love Joyce Meyer's videos.
In all my life, Be glorified,
With Christ in me No longer I
So take my all Consuming fire,
Your light in me I will let it shine.
I thank God for who He is, and for His love.
Without Him, no Xy.
He place the holiness in the spirit, and wants us to develop them. & in this walk w Him, we slowly develop it, and change to be a better person, to be more whole, more completed.
Love Joyce Meyer's videos.
In all my life, Be glorified,
With Christ in me No longer I
So take my all Consuming fire,
Your light in me I will let it shine.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
(:
Ever wonder how to be in the world,
yet not of the world?
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God's here w me. Definitely. (:
Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Thought of this verse in the afternoon, and God showed me this verse in Pst Joyce Meyer's video. Twice in a day, something to think about. (:
God didnt give me the way to get out of it, but the strength and grace to get through it. :D
Touch of God ytd, and He spoke. & it's time.
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yet not of the world?
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God's here w me. Definitely. (:
Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Thought of this verse in the afternoon, and God showed me this verse in Pst Joyce Meyer's video. Twice in a day, something to think about. (:
God didnt give me the way to get out of it, but the strength and grace to get through it. :D
Touch of God ytd, and He spoke. & it's time.
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Friday, November 5, 2010
When i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change
Cause You're amazing, just the way you are...
Had a great day with my cellgroup today!
Every single one of them! Really thankful for this cute little Thomas, pei me go dhoby ghaut and realise it's a public holiday, and the shop wasnt open. haha.
This year is really one of the year i received alot alot of blessings.
Like yeah i always believed in the principle of sowing and reaping, but this year is really the year i see the word coming to life.
There's always this period of believing in this specific word and then this certain word will then come to life. and i see it happening this year, and i'm still believing in His words. (:
Love the people around me!
Like what PK tweeted!
@konghee: The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate" (O. Winfrey). Give thanks ...”
2010 is ending soon, and as i look back, xinying you yi dian dian zhang da le. not trying to hao lian, but i seriously have a little la. Thankful for Him! always always there. :D
God is goood! :D
All the pictures w my awesome friends recently!
Love them! :D
Had a great day with my cellgroup today!
Every single one of them! Really thankful for this cute little Thomas, pei me go dhoby ghaut and realise it's a public holiday, and the shop wasnt open. haha.
This year is really one of the year i received alot alot of blessings.
Like yeah i always believed in the principle of sowing and reaping, but this year is really the year i see the word coming to life.
There's always this period of believing in this specific word and then this certain word will then come to life. and i see it happening this year, and i'm still believing in His words. (:
Love the people around me!
Like what PK tweeted!
@konghee: The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate" (O. Winfrey). Give thanks ...”
2010 is ending soon, and as i look back, xinying you yi dian dian zhang da le. not trying to hao lian, but i seriously have a little la. Thankful for Him! always always there. :D
God is goood! :D
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| My dearest dearest leader Jieying! |
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| my hair looks quite smooth. heehee, need to dye it soon la. look so old! |
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| i love kito! |
Love them! :D
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