Show me

There is a place in Your heart, 

I am longing to find

Won't You show me
There is a place i know
I can run to and hide

Won't You show me Your heart

So much changed within this 2 years, just looking back on the 2 to 3 years, i realise this year is one of the hard chastening years, the year where i learn everything the hard way. But i learned something this year, that the hard way isn't the bad way, it's just another way.

Sometimes learning things the hard way makes you remember bout that certain incident so deeply that you wont commit it again, well you may beg to differ, but yeah, that's my opinion. hahaha but hard way still painful la.

The last day of Nov 2010, time passes and will never turn back again, there's only one 30 Nov 2010, and so are other days. & it's up to me to make my every day count, and i love every single of mine, even though some days i wake up having bad and negative thoughts.

Listening to "Show me" now makes me feel so thankful, my prayer since idk when, & though some times this kind of prayers makes you go thru chastening like wooo, but i thank God, and thank God.

Another thing I learn this year, before starting to blame God what is happening, start to reflect or think back what i have prayed about. I want to grow up, and to grow up, i need some stuff to happen, and this is it. & ya, i know my capacity increased ever since then. (:

Thankful for my friends, if i were to name out all, it will flood my blog. But thank you everyone!
Thank you Jasmin FOR BEING SO SPASTIC & BIMBOTIC ever since i know you!
& Thank you Sarahsarah for always being so encouraging!!! Loveee ya!
I love you guys.


When we abide in the presence of God, we find rest.

Joy comes from within

Had a very good cgm and muso pract today.
Always thank God for timely messages, even thought like i heard the sermon before, but still, the word came as a fresh thing. That's the thing about the spirit and message of God.

The difference between working people and people working for God is very very big.
Working people works for money and gets burn out and will always never be satisfied cause they want more but due to economy and company's assets, it is impossible to satisfy their increasing need.

But people working for God, the thing we want is just the presence of God. Non-Christian people might think this is freaky or whatever, but God have this non-limitation thing, that whenever we have this increasing hunger and need, He is able to meet it. We dont serve something tt have a limitation, but something so big and wide.

& Today i'm standing here,
being grateful, tired physically, but internally, super happy and joyyyyyyful.

Break this vask, and let the anointing flow.

For you alone deserve ALL

Summary:
#1 I snapped my fingers till i have a blister on my finger
#2 I can run in heels
#3 I learn a bit about sound
#4 Pract ended late but i'm happy to be able to catch both last bus and train
#5 This season i caught so so much
#6 I love the KEL muso team!

I got the joy that the world can't give to me.
Really thank God for every opportunity to be able to serve. Dont mind being tired, but as long as i have the refilling of the oil daily, it's more than enough.

Help me Jesus :D

OH YA,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LJY!!!!

Mold me

Your Perfect Love, Hang on a cross,
You paid the price for my life.
I long to know, Jesus my Saviour.


Your grace for the imperfect, something we don't deserve, yet it comes so freely.
My seasons come and go, but one thing i know it will be permanent, that i must forever depend on the Holy Spirit. It's not just about expanding my capacity now, but more on the Holy Spirit.

People are able to serve, because they have the overflow of the spirit.
I need more guidance, instead on my own smartness and actions.
God doesn't need a perfect heart, but a heart that can be mold.
Mold me...

Good attitude

I realise it's actually so important to have a good attitude.

A good attitude even when you're having a bad day.
A good attitude even when you're very busy.
A god attitude even when you're angry w people around you.
A good attitude even when you're super annoyed by passerby who banged you and you drop your stuff..

& many many things.

But in all, i give my best attitude.
It's difficult to fake a smile, but a natural smile comes easy. Gonna make it my nature to be HAPPY. even if im quiet, i know im happy.

I also learned, a balance, in life, in ministry, in family, in friendship is very important.
Something that i dont like, i shall not act it out to others. So if i hate seasonal stuff, i shall make the things i like ALL-season.

I will balance all my friends all, and still make them feel love. My family too. and more and more and more. Everyone plays a great importance in my life, & im thankful.

I like happy people, and im gonna be a ALL-season happy person! :D
XINYING IS A HAPPY GIRL.

All might be easy to type out, yet, difficult to do so at some point of time.
But GOD, give grace to imperfect people like ME. :D
This season is a season of growth, in thinking, in actions and in all.
As long as He sees it, im contented. (:

One thing i need

Always love this song when Alison leads this.
God came into the room today when i was watching S4 w Jy.

Im still learning to have a good attitude in all times, even in fights, in conflicts and so much more. Guess God is just testing and till i pass that test, it will be gone. Good attitude.

Just thinking about these past few days, so many things happened, but i'm really very thankful for my dearest leader, Jieying. For all the advice, from lifting my workload and passing it to boonz, to encouraging me, to giving me valuable advice and all, i'm really thankful.

Maybe without her this year, Xy is not xy too. Thankful for all the chances to grow, and thankful for her always being there for me.

I always believe in this, as long as someone planted something in my life, i will be grateful. So i'm really very thankful for all the leaders above me, Rae, Jieying, Kelvin and the other Kel Leaders and some other individuals.

I changed since sec sch, i nv liked playing the ugly character. But it had to end up somehow someway. I need to reflect.

No matter what happens, i trust in you Jesus. My reward comes from you.
Another long and busy week, YET i will remain a JOYful spirit.
No more complains, but good attitude. Jy xy.

At Your name

Jesus, Be glorified in every season of my life. 

Even though im busy, but this is when God uses me.
I can do it and thru all things, i will be strengthen.

On a side note,
maybe i dont want REAL conference to come so soon?
But really, this season, i learned so much from the respective leaders, esp Edwin, Jodie, Huimei & Emily.


The way they work, they way they love God.
Much to learn, much to catch.

Expand my capacity God...

Finally my sabbath day, let me dye my hair for the REAL conference.
Red??? Purple?? Idk... let's see later on. :D

Pst Aries:
When facing e enemy...OVER-COME or he will say COME-OVER. @ svc 4”

The start of something new

Muso!
I love this team of people. (:
We got much to learn! Jiayou every single one of you!

Real

Was on the way to school today listening to all the P&W songs for REAL conference. His love just flow in, that i teared on the train. like some emo kid, but one of the song really touched me.

Even though i think im like having fever now, plus flu, i know God will heal me.
Cannot afford to be sick at this season!!! Grace and grace and grace.

Realise that this year i know so much more about the grace of His.
This is the time to be stronger. :D:D

Muso pract later on!
Grace and strength! Pray for Jodie people!!! & Edwin too.
They need more grace than i do!

Seaon of prayers, grace and breakthrough!
Never regretted helping in the REAL conference even though it's tiring.
Will only get stronger!!! :D Xinying is not as weak as anyone thinks she is. :D

Yes i want You to know, oh yes I

Getting busy this week, alot of stuff. Maybe after REAL conference is over, i would go for a get away session. Keep myself at home, lock myself alone, and have some really quiet time with God alone. That would be really enough.

Thomas tweeted "Those who sow in tears, reaped in joy." and it really just reminded me. 

Yes those who sow in tears, will reap in joy. 

My happiness don't come from people, it don't come from any comments, but it comes from God alone. 

But encouragements are always welcome to keep me going.  

Guys please do pray for me? To expand my capacity, for grace and mercy. 

All i need now is  nothing more, but really, prayers and encouragements. 

Feeling tired, but that's not how im going to face my trials and tests, i'm facing it face to face, no more running wild. This time it's either i emerge stronger, or hide like an ass. 

Jiayou Xy! :D

Just wondering too, that actually everyone's not perfect.
Always wonder, did any any one put themselves in my shoes before coming to doubt/question me. But no one place themselves in Jesus' shoes too. It's part of cross bearing. Jy Xy!

love my life

NO MATTER WHAT SEASON IM IN, I LOVE MY LIFE.

Sorry to many people, i realise that when i get busier, i tend to accidentally 'dao' people, but it's not on purpose. i will try to balance more! so dont think xinying dont love you anymore. i will get use to this season first and then everything's back to normal, so i still love every single one of you.

it's not in my nature to be dao! :D

I LOVE and THANK God for every single one of you always.
a need to pray in everyday in my life. Thankfulness. ;D

oh & one night, daddy came back with a woman, his pretty worker so i volunteered to let her sleep in my room. she waited w daddy, i wanna put down the curtains(my need to do every night before i sleep at the main door), but he kept on clipping it back up. 3 4 times, he continued to did that, i was so irritated. Outside the window i see people playing w fire crackers and flying kites at night. then i told dad, so pretty right, suddenly it begin to rain, everyone ran in their blocks.

another female pretty worker of dad came, so volunteer again, sleep in my room. then dad and i talked and talked, then somehow this 2 women disappeared, then the door was open. daddy told me he was dead already and now a spirit and it's time to go. I felt saddness overwhelming me, i hugged him so tight so he won't go. i wanted to cry but i was in total shock.

Then i woke up, THANK GOD IT'S A DREAM.
My dreams are getting so symbolic nowadays, and so easy to remember some of the details. In the midst of all the dream, i was praying hard to God. I really dont remember thinking about this at all, is it a God-given dream or something God wanna say to me? Maybe it's time to love daddy so so much more Xy!

i stand In Awe

So today during service i saw Jocelyn my senior's msg today about the HR Chapter committee thingy. Was suppose to check it on Friday 1pm but didnt had the chance. So i was like, okay... nvm la, nv get in nvm also.Then Weitao smsed and said committee meeting. & i was like im in committee?

OMG AND BEST THING, IS WOOOOO I SEE God's plan revealed to me before my eyes. Praying that if i get in and if that certain thing happen too, DEFINITELY God is telling me to do something, so i was just like God your will be done. AND WOOOOSH, it happened. So i see now. God is good.

I'm seeing my season changing and changing. 

Really i thank God for PK who preached such a seasonal word. 

& thank God for Jieying, for whatever she spoke to me ytd. 

Season is in the midst of changing, and i thank God for the HS, my seasons are changing so fast nowadays, kinda weird, but definitely in the flow of God. I pray and i pray, Father, expand my capacity. For Real Conference, for HR Chapter, for school project works, for family, for my best Spastic friends, for my DG, for my Cg.

EXPAND in the name of Jesus.
Speak Grace to the mountain and it shall be move. 

Grace grace grace to all these. 

Grace

Busy busy week,

BUT I shall speak GRACE to it!! :D

Jiayou Xyz!!!
Planning com, Muso com and Bday cards and presents and so much more.

Nothing to lose but everything to gain

On the way to school now, kinda reluctant(cuz i have no sch today) but yeah, im on ny way now.. Its kinda amazing i pass the first interview of HR chapter and on to the final round. Whatever the outcome might be, i will give thanks :D

I realise i think the most on the train and since i have data plan, it helps me in my 'go anywhere can blog' thing. Haha.

I realise there very very little ppl who can stand my nonsensical typing on sms, and serious very irritating ones and i thank God!

Had a very great prayer PM w the leaders ytd, the fire and desire, something we shld catch. & whenever i look at Sun & PK, my heart is just filled w gratitude. Thankful for whatever i have now, even though i tend to compare the past & now. But i knw greater things are coming!

Thinking a few days back, listening to september by Daughtry..
Nothing to lose BUT everything to gain
Is the mindset i should have now. If i keep counting how much i have lost, or jow much i am going to lose, then i will forget or lose count of how much i have gain.
& Ppl always believe tt when they gain something, they woUld lose aomething, but not for me! I gt nothing to lose but everything to gain cuz whatever i have now, its not mine, but just a Steward. Prnciple of stewardship..

Still thinking & thinking on.. (bad english whatever haha)
This season is the renewal of the mind :D

Renewal yet the thankful heart still remains..
[i used like 20mins to type this on the iphone.. Gosh haha why is the aircon like not workingg!! :(]

How great You are

You are deserving, of all the praises Lord
My hear is yearning to be in your presence once more
Deep inside my heart is burning
I want to give you more
And You're the only one that I adore


How great You are
How great You are
You are the mighty king
And You've come to reign in me
How great You are
How great You are
I give You all the praises of my heart

Great LM today.
Prayer prayer prayer.

@konghee
"I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat" (W. Churchill). Jesus Christ, take my life and make it Yours, Lord ...

禱告, 因為我渺小
One of the first few worship songs Jas sent me.
& when i listen back, i found out more revelations in tt song, something during my 'younger' days i nv realise.
As a period pass by, i found out so many things He revealed. Period by period, seasons by seasons. God works in seasons and im amaze by it.

Entering into a new season soon, and i got to quickly identify it soon.
JY  Xyz! :D

You're everything i need

Picture taken by Kito!

Love unfailing truth unchanging

I depend on You

Faithful Father peace forever

I will rest in You

Unshakable my hope remains

Lord I believe in You

You are strength for those in need

You are defender of the weak

You are everything we need

You are our God You are our God

God of mercy I will live in praise of all You've done

God eternal by Your power I will overcome

None greater none higher

All praise to God our Saviour

Unchanging unfailing

All praise to You our Saviour

Always love how songs can always deliver one's feeling through it's melody, it's lyrics, it's rhythm, it's tempo. That why i love music. I always feel there's a reason why i'm named xinying, even though idk how i got my name. but yeah. God works.

It's just a weird flow i am in now. But it takes awhile for everyone to realise what kind of flow they are in their life, and to work in that flow. But by His power, i will overcome everything that's coming my way. Thank you Jesus. (:

Love my family, and nothing insignificant can take away me from my family.

no formula

It's not about the formula about seeking God, but the time with Him. Little to little, glory to glory. - Joyce Meyer

I thank God for who He is, and for His love.
Without Him, no Xy.
He place the holiness in the spirit, and wants us to develop them. & in this walk w Him, we slowly develop it, and change to be a better person, to be more whole, more completed.

Love Joyce Meyer's videos.

In all my life, Be glorified,
With Christ in me No longer I
So take my all Consuming fire,
Your light in me I will let it shine.

(:

Ever wonder how to be in the world,
yet not of the world?

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God's here w me. Definitely. (:

Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.


Thought of this verse in the afternoon, and God showed me this verse in Pst Joyce Meyer's video. Twice in a day, something to think about. (:

God didnt give me the way to get out of it, but the strength and grace to get through it. :D
Touch of God ytd, and He spoke. & it's time.

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When i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change

Cause You're amazing, just the way you are...

Had a great day with my cellgroup today!
Every single one of them! Really thankful for this cute little Thomas, pei me go dhoby ghaut and realise it's a public holiday, and the shop wasnt open. haha.

This year is really one of the year i received alot alot of blessings.
Like yeah i always believed in the principle of sowing and reaping, but this year is really the year i see the word coming to life.

There's always this period of believing in this specific word and then this certain word will then come to life. and i see it happening this year, and i'm still believing in His words. (:

Love the people around me!

Like what PK tweeted!
@konghee: The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate" (O. Winfrey). Give thanks ...”

2010 is ending soon, and as i look back, xinying you yi dian dian zhang da le. not trying to hao lian, but i seriously have a little la. Thankful for Him! always always there. :D

God is goood! :D

My dearest dearest leader Jieying!

my hair looks quite smooth. heehee, need to dye it soon la. look so old!

i love kito!

All the pictures w my awesome friends recently!
Love them! :D

Daughtry - September

awesome songggggg!

& I WILL FLYYYYYYY

Helloooo!!
It's the 3rd day and it's all heading well! :D

Had a very very awesome BS today with Pst Jeremy, and even though it's like 2 hours of BS, it's really really a joy to just stay with him and listen all the awesome things Jesus done for us.

I really just love how God plans me for bible study. Like before every bible study starts, like example that week i'm gonna have Faith bs, then i will like have some bad stuff happening, and just nice the bible study is just in season to strengthen me and build me up. for CL, FT1, FT2 till now, and this season i'm reading on Psalm and just nice, when i was wondering about why David is writing those psalms, Pst Jer cfm my conclusion. which is so coolz.

I'm just so so blessed whenever i hear things that are in my season, like seriously God plans everything, and thank God i'm in His flow. Just so awesome to be in His flow. :D

& one more, was just thinking about positive/negative attitudes and today we talked about the Old and New man. It's always just a choice away to be happy. It's easy to feel negative, but a choice to be happy. I choose to be a happy girl! :D

& HELLO WEILIN!
THANKS FOR THE SWEET YOU BOUGHT FOR ME!! LOVE YA!

& had a GREAT time w Kit today! Thanks for today and all the awesome yet :( pics. we need to find a day when i have no pimple. hahahah. Love ya Kit!! You're like leaving soon, so let's treasure these few weeks left k!!!!!! :D:D

& Thank you @happydose and daddy for the ride home, so entertainedddd!! :D:D

& Thank God for Him, cause in Him, i know my purpose and i know my authority!!! :D

LML

I love my life. (: 

From the slightest things to the biggest things, all plays such a significant part in my life. 

For those who dk me, i'm actually pretty observance towards things i'm concern about, which is almost everything. I'm not a stalker but just observance. & every details in my life pieces up the beauty of it. 

The clouds, the stars, the night skies, from everything in the skies, to my imagination, and down to earth and people around me. I'm grateful for every single one of them. (:

I have my weaknesses but that's not gonna hinder me to another level of growth in my life. 

The greatest prayer is not to ask God for help, but to ask God to change me. 

weeeee, 2010 is coming to an end pretty soon, and it's gonna end very very well. 

& i come to realise, perception of whether a year is good is not about any situations that happen in the year, regardless of whether it is negative or positive, but it's up to one to determine whether it is good or not. 

Could you rather count your blessings or your misfortune?

I make a choice to be happy! I'm counting my stars, my blessings. (:

1 Nov, and 2010 is gonna end well!

What happens when i take pic w skinny people...

gossiping like tt.

and tada! i look fat in everyone. TIME TO START LOSING WEIGHT AGAIN. and dont gain them back.
okay, need to leave my hair long.. my current hairstyle makes my face look fat!

& i love my spasticssss!!!
the awesome group of people who goes retarded tgttt.
LOVEEEEE!

All the pictures are taken on the 15 of oct, the photoshoot.
weeeeee~