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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER LIM! :D

Idk if you will see this but, happy 24! All the best in your life and whatever you do. Your sister supports you in everything you do :D

& i think today is LZX's birthday also, so coolz.

& Iphone 4G coming out today? idk.

What a day with so many things happening. Gonna be a good day!

Today is a very very sleepy day, woke up late and head to school with my brother, and he keeps talking about which Uni i should go in, worse than my mama, but i know he wants me to have a bright future. Future seems so far, but actually it's very near. Local Uni, or SIM, 2 choices. what about no Uni? Nvm, think about it next year...

-So thank God my attendance was marked.

- Practise Psycho with Priya

- Went to Raffles for Mr Bean.

- Walked in the rain to where i wanna go

and everything took up to 1 hour plus. so sleepy, i pray i won't fall sick.

Waiting for Kit, and then spend time with her (:

& FOP. YAY, i need strength God.

So now i should do my RWPS. But i'm so sleepy.

I keep having weird dreams these few days. What you're truly thinking are portrayed in your dreams? Okay, then i think my thoughts are going crazy, circling in only one area. yoooo. i'm not emo-ing. haha. Time to breakthru!!!

Human's mind are like a structure, not secured, easily broken.

True?

FOP, breakthruuuu! I had my first breakthru 2 years ago at FOP. (:

Cave & Valley

Really blessed when i read people's blogs, it just spoke into my life. haha.

I think the vision of God is so cool.

2 weeks ago, God showed me this vision of this rock blocking my pathway to my next road, i try so hard so hard to push it one side and managed to see the other side. I thought i saw this valley & i will be going into it & i sink myself into that vision and thought it was what He wanted me to do.

But ytd, He showed me more. The valley is not a valley but a cave. When you walk in a valley you can get out cause there's light, but when you go into a cave, it's so dark you can't see light. He didn't want me to walk in there. He intended me to push the rock to block the opening of the cave, and behind that rock is another way. He provides with ways, but sometimes because of our own view, we skipped the another road He created.

Of cuz you wont know what the rock and cave means.

Haha, but God is so cool, He showed me everything last night.

So worth it to sleep at 4 plus to know where i'm heading. (:

Projects again.

RWPS & BLAW.

Last 2 project remaining and the most stressful ones.

15 pages of RWPS report by Sat/Sun & Blaw by next Friday.

Almost screamed at home just now, esp when jy played noisy music, cannot concentrate at all and bizhew telling me how stressful everything is and the deadline and boomz, stress, after a very long time.

Thursday - Spastics 29th

Friday - FOP

Saturday - Filming whole day + FOP maybe?

Sunday - 21th anniversary

Weee i need to find my time to do my project seriously and not shortchange my sleeping time, and why am i even here now?!!! where is my time flying to? God i pray for more time, exceeding the 24 hours.

Thank God for worship songs that calm me down, and instead of screaming around the house, i completed my Reflective journal and 5 6 pages of report. (:

Xyyyyyyyyy, it's time to give up.

Just give up that thoughts and be a good girl.

You can do it.

When i feel helpless about situation, the only reaction should be prayer, instead of worrying much. Everyday, i wanna change all my bad points slowly and slowly, cause sometimes i feel so imperfect that there's nothing good. Am i having the perfectionist disease? nah, xy will never have it. hah.

Broken & Contrite Spirit,

Having the lamb nature,

Attracts the HS.

JYJY.

freedom

"What am i really looking for?"

"You're looking for something that will make you happy. Choose it yourself, cause i know what makes you happy, will make me happy. I trust you."

The trust that everyone wants, the spirit of liberty.
That even if we do something wrong, someone is still waiting and staying beside us.

Everyone needs that someone to be there. (:

I got that someone.

korean songs

I'm falling in love with korean songs. lol, thanks to Bizhew!!!
This song super super touching. go hear! hahaha, best for people who just 'shi lian'. hahah.

Currently at RW, doing my blaw, but kinda have no motivation, gosh.. i need my motivation back! hahah.

On the way here, i was thinking about the vision i saw 2 weeks ago, and it completely matched my situation now, definitely it's all God's work. But yeah, i will go thru it, and conquer it.

Jieying told me emotions are good, Weiren in BS says emotions are good. But dont let them control you. So yeah, control my emotions, so they will be good slaves of mine, instead of my masters. yeahh!

Jieying tweeted:
@jieying_dawn I love all the little moments in life...and I'm glad I get to watch and capture them :)

Little moments changes my life. I love them and i take them down by pictures.
I got so much more to learn from everyone around me, esp my leaders. xy, it's time to move on, time to humble yourself, and not be at the same place. God is making a way for you!

You're not there yet, but it doesn't mean you will never be there. (:

& BINGRONG IS SUPER SUPER IRRITATINGGGGGGG!!!

yeah that's all.

byebye!

@ macs

The mac where you can use the com and drink something.

wooo, i think it's just nice to relax and not think about any things at all. Just time alone alone. long time since i did it alrdy!

I bought tickets at 6bucks! weee cheapest ticket in a very long time. 'Despicable Me' later on, like finally!!! yay.

This is just a very talk to myself post. heee.
ONEW IS MY NEW LOVE. :D
Bizhew just let me hear SHINee songs the whole day and i like 'Life' and 'Your Name' and Onew wrote Your Name. Simple lyrics yet so sweeet and nice!!! Any guys who wanna make girls their gf, sing them the songs they wrote.

okay maybe not. go learn korean first.
i was just joking la.

oh this is random, but dont judge me by how i type okay okay?
Beneath every picture, lies something deeper than what you can see :D this goes for everyoneeeeeee.

okay, shall enjoy my milkshake and wait for the others to come :D

how awesome is your name

Sometimes all we need is not more knowledge to make us a better person. We just need reminders to remind us what we should be.

School is alright so far, love relations class was super funny looking at the guys present about love. LOL seriously.

Dajie accompanied me to dover today cuz she's working there now, woo, if everyday she can pei me to school, how awesome. & i thought it will be a good day today, until something happen again. Maybe it's time to think deeper than the surface.

Haha, catvhing Despicable Me ltr, gonna be awesome i guess!
Grace to the rest of the day!

Running to Your arms

This was last year somewhere in July. All of us changedd!

Watched The Killers just now, wanted to watch in the cinema that time but no one wanted to go, and too busy. haha, i seem so free when actually i got blaw and rwps on hand. xy what are you doing?

Haha, went to school for 1 lecture when i thought there were 3, but spent my time w bizhew at JP, so not tt bad. just now on the train back, i wanna sleep but not very peaceful. i feel sleepy alrdy.

Gonna sleep now!

Transformation takes time.

& things are changing even when we dont know it is changing

Just got reminded, when we get scolding for what we done wrong, that chastening. but if we get scolding for things we have not done wrong, that's a test of attitude.

School's gonna be awesome tmr! :D

Inception

From tumblr: @sarahtay! hahaha

You're waiting for a train,

a train that will take you far away.

You know where you hope this train will take you,

but you don’t know for sure.

But it doesn't matter..

tears

想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后

We cry almost every time we lose something precious to us.
But i realise, crying is just a process of growing up, tears makes us stronger! Idk why 2009 and 2010 are like crying years, but after crying like a baby for these 2 years, maybe 2011 will be a better year? cause a baby will grow up!

I lost much, i gain alot too.
Life is simple, but idk why i like to look in a complicated way.

Maybe it's just time to simplify my thoughts, maybe it's because i'm not doing maths anymore, that's why i multiply more than i divide. okay no link!!! hahahah.

Divide my thoughts, so when i divide them, i can see things in a more simple way, then i will know what God is doing in my life.

Time to prayy!! :D


范逸臣's 不说出的温柔

(Heard it yst at Xinwang & it caught me.)

"是我你好吗
没什么事
只是想知道你好不好
这是我最后一次打给你了
希望你好好照顾自己"

Like emo sioh the on top lyrics, it's just random seriously.
He sing until so got feel loh! Maybe it's time for chinese songs after a long long time! (:

thankyew bingrong for sticky!
thank yew jasmin for you! in reply to your blog post, if you guy i will consider you! heehee! but you must master writing songs and be wen rou! almost hit every of my criterias! hahaha. but chey, you're my good goodie frienddd!!!

P.S: no more koi cute guy, i was kidding bout it in the first place anywayyys.

Create in me, a new heart

Time to grow up, and grow out of so many things.
Xy, time to let your word be your bond so much more.

It's actually surprising how people can change so much, either good or bad, in just either a short or long period of time.
I have this friend, who use to be quite jialiat, but now changed because he/she went to church and was transformed. & yst during worship, i saw all the leaders being captured on screen, they too went thru so much to be able to be where they are, not for glory nor for fame. but just a pure heart to serve.

This heart, i wanna learn.
David's heart, a heart after God.

I wanna transform too.

Inception makes me think so much, especially what one person can plant into one's mind.

Whatever we say or do or act actually affects one person's thoughts, and an idea will spread across the whole mind like cancer affecting the person actions.

That's the low level explanation of the movie, the movie is so deep that i dont mind watching it the 2nd time.

Maybe it's time to be still and let God fight for me.

It's night time.

Not gonna be..

A DOUBLE-MINDED PERSON.

& Take the wrong step of faith.

Gonna ask where's the right way, instead of my own feelings and emotions.

Wisdom, praying prayers.

Replacement?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULINEEE!!!

So surprise you actually read my blog, and hope you're reading this now!!

Thanks for being my singing buddy all these years, since primary school when we play our pingpong, to secondary school FPX on psc nite to Hildan Superstar to performing for founder's day singing hymms, all these singing memories in school, with you! :D So glad you're always so on with singing tgt with me!

Keep on believing in your dream! I believe in you!!!
Thanks for always standing all my nonsense! Love you so much!!! :D

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Last week Deanna's bd at Highlanders!:D

I had a very very awesome time w my Spastics today, and it has been such a long time since i spent my whole day w them. Really, even though most of the time we're slacking and waiting for Pauline to finish her piano, i just like the time when they are just around around. just physically around. so comforting! hahaha.

Had lunch at the N something, and then everyone ate finish their meal and then dessert was coming up, and i was like omg i havent finish my chicken CHICKEN, and the waiter serving us, burst out laughing and said sorry. & whole table echoed after his laugh.

1) Spaz wasn't laughing at me, cause they're used to it.
2) They are laughing at the waiter who laughed at me.
3) What a life, even people who don't know me, laugh at me. that explains the stares from people when i'm outside. hahaha!

& then i was like paiseh. seriously. & he came to clear my dish, "so can i clear your chicken CHICKEN?" just -.-!

Had a good time today really! & then surprise paupau aft her class, and then L4D-ed. i was smart, i didn't play, but idk why i still got my headache and puking symptoms. No fighting things infront of me, explains why i dont like fighting shows with lots of blood. fighting w/o blood im fine :D

Really very happy today, thanks Spaz, everyone of you & Happy Birthday paulinee!

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Was thinking about this today,
Nothing can actually replace the time you spent with anyone.
Maybe on this random day you went out with someone, the memory will always be there, and no matter what you do, it is a fact it happened before. So i came to a conclusion, replacement for certain things are bull-shit.

No one will replace anyone for his/her place.

& i don't believe in subsitutions, you're there once, you will be there forever, unless some things changes la (there's still exceptions, depends). But i'm a rather faithful/loyal person, you're there before, forever there.

Substitutions are not allowed xy.
That's why, i wanna let my friends know, you guys will never be replaced or anything.

You're buried deep in my heart :D

失去了不能从来

我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
却忘了告诉你失去的不能从重来

5566'a 我难过！

MVP qing ren is actually my first idol drama loh, partly because of it, i like basketball! hahaha, omg talking bout bball, WHEN AM I ACTUALLY GONNA PLAY BBALL!!! :(

What a awesome day, i actually wore quite nice to school today, skirt w heels, i think first time nicer than going to church. hahaha! i think presentation wasn't tt bad. today i kinda surprise some of my friends? so this shows, dont look down on people who wear shorts to school, they can dress up too! but back to my shorts tmr. heehee. :D

headed to @happydose's place there the macs to eat. missed my stop, took a bus back and fell on the bus, gosh. ps sia.. ate, listen old songs. & then aft all tt when i wanted to go home, she randomly, impromptu-ly said, let's go ECP to run and i was wearing like the above, and then i changed to run.

Proud of myself, 3.6km of running/jogging. good good, keep it up, got to lose weight.

Had a coolz revelation, and thanks Jas! I love the breeze of ECP, always wanted to go there since idk when, finally back there, and woohooo. vivo and ECP are gonna be my favourite place and hangout!

ALL MY PRESENTATIONS THIS WEEK ENDED. Wow, thank God!!!
eye bagggssss

dearest friends i hang out with in school. <3 though sometimes we can't click superly well, but that's what friends are for.

失去了不能从来

Don't lose your wallet, cause it wont really come back. Don't miss the chance you have, or it wont come back. Dont lose your friendship w one person, or it wont come back. So many things you can actually lose, and it really depends on what you want, you don't want something, you can easily lose it and let go.

What do you want to lose actually?
Sometimes it's better to actually better to lose something to gain something bigger. example losing your face, you get to maybe save a friendship that you're actually gonna lose. It's just choices we got to make.

All goes down to what we want actually.

Our decision, what do we want.

Precious

I knew my chalks would come in use some times... hahaha. didn't waste my money~

Life is so precious. Now we have it, next moment, we might not have it.

Always wonder what would it be like, if this world is without me. haha, but guess i will never know, and nah, i wont go kill myself now. I will only go to heaven when Jesus wants me to.

Ever asked this question that what will happen when i die, and my friends said "less one retarded, irritating friend", hahaha but i know... they dont mean it, they love me :D heehee.

Life is so fragile, but as long as we don't die with regrets, that's the best thing alrdy.
So i should change my policy in life, to not live with any regrets, anything i wanna do, just do it. nah, shall consider it again.

I still like my song, it will be one of the songs in my playlist for the next few weeks.

Faith is the word now. coolz, like it when bs links with my life one way or the other. (:

God is good.

I'm happy my projects are coming to an end soon!
But i got to write a 15 page report for RWPS, presentation for it 2 weeks ltr, and psychology counselling trial 2 weeks ltr. but.... RS, CBM and PM tmr are all down! weee~

JYJY!

Leap of Faith

Leap of Faith

Verse #1
Walking up the mountains
Crawling through the valleys
You are there with me
When I’m feeling lost
You fill my heart with songs
Jesus You’re my strength
To carry on

Chorus#
Jesus You’re my Shelter
You’re all that I desire
With You around, we’re never afraid
We’ll take a leap of faith,
To face the coming race
Catching the flame
We’ll never be the same.

Verse #2
You cause my heart to open
Overflowing your presence
Giving Grace to me
Entering your beauty
In the holy of holies
Never want to leave
This secret place

Bridge#
One thing I ask,
To stay with You
Forever and ever

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My season song, when i was thinking what song to write, i came down to 3 objectives:

- Closer to HS

- Able to breakthrough

- Reliant on Him more

Just my season song, something that God did during this period of time. Lyrics might be simple, but all from the deepest of my heart. Leap of Faith came from sentosa, when i took the flying fox. I started the song with just one verse, and then it progressed on with Leap of Faith. My season word, leap of faith, cause whenever, whatever i do something, it takes faith to do it.

Everyone would agree w themselves that my life is one of the life you wouldn't want to live at all. You won't want to be a day of me, cause everything is terrible. But as long as we take a leap of faith, jumping down that high 'flying fox' will not be scary, but actually quite exciting. I'm gonna face everything i face with Faith.

If you wanna hear, let me know, i'm super willing to send you. haha.

Thank you Sarah, you're always so supportive to hear my songs! Love you alot~ :D

Most imptly, the song is by inspiration of Him.

I dont mind going thru last week again. okay im crazy, im joking, i dont want.

TYJ.

i like...

我喜欢温柔的人，
会写歌的人，
会唱歌的人，
喜欢音乐的人，

和会打篮球的人。

If you're the following above please contact me.
HAHAHAHA, just joking. I'm not desperate sia, just talking about it with Bizhew only cause we were listening to korean songs.

Cant believe im hearing Shinee! lol! but I like their voices, and the songs they write themselves one leh.. talented and all, i like talented people, all kinds of talent, someone like me.... cheyyyy~ JUST JOKING, i not bhb :D

I feel really super set free after yesterday, like seriously a burden is gone, something heavy on my heart is finally gone. Like thank God, things that makes me heavy is slowly going away. Not like for the past week, i was literally sighing the whole way, can ask bizhew and manwei. sighhh, but it's gone :D

weeeee, really quite free now, i'm gonna conquer all my projects and other small things God wants me to deal with.

Anyway, all of us got to learn to give up on things. let go...
Today i make a choice to give up..... my nails, cause if i have to play my guitar and record my song, i got to cut my nails. but yeah, for a song, i am willing to.
BYE NAILS when i get home.
Similarly for other parts of my life, i'm willing to give up on things now, for something bigger. & maybe in the future, then i will look for them again. After going a big round, it's back to the starting.

I'm super happy and back to my vision again,

dont lose it xinying! :D

Love is beautiful

Thank you my dear friend for being so honest about everything.

Really felt super set free by sharing everything, thanks for your courage and boldness to share, & really it's not your fault but mine. my childishness yo!

I really thank God for you, ever since you bought me to church, my life is never the same. We always wonder why in the first place you would ask me to go for the combine meeting & why i would say yes, but now i know, it's just His plan. Esp the file today, the things that happen last week, i think it's just part of His plan to let us be set free.

Today honestly from the depths of my heart, i wanna thank you sincerely, for always being there, loving me, encouraging me with loving notes, spending time with me, listening to me.

Today shall be the start of our renewed friendship,

& i know it's gonna be more awesome from now on, cause we set everything apart already, and nothing can stop us from sharing alrdy since the hardest are over. hahaha.

Diversity will make us united & breakthroughs are coming our way! (:

Restoration, Renewal, Revival & Abundance.

Love you dear friend (:

God told me that love changes everything, because He first love, i love Him.
Love makes the world go round. I will rmb today!
God you're just amazing awesome.

new songgg

Walking up the mountains

Crawling through the valleys

You were there with me

I think i give too much info on my blog sometimes, that is not very good. :(

Step blogging so much xinying! Maybe i will stop awhile again, aiyah, you can't trust me on this. forget it.. hahaha.

Anyway, projects are ending but i realise the ending of the projects are the most stressful part, presentations and preparation. I'm not good at talking, proper stuff, but i'm good at impromptu stuff, cause it's when the HS leads me. Quite stressful sia.. i need extra grace!!

Oh yeah, one thing. I'm really thankful for the HS, and God heard my prayers. Many of times, i asked Him to lead me in things i cannot see and for quite many times, He did help me, esp in times of restoring relationships. 2 situations that really 'woah' me, was with Boon & Joshua, my very very awesome brothers and dearest friends. Not gonna share what happened exactly, but during the 2 nights, God just told me to talk to them, apologise to them for some stuff, and i just talk even when sometimes it just seems unnecessary to anybody.

For boon, woah, it kinda restored our relationship, and build our friendship,

& for Joshua, i think it was random but he was actually thinking of our friendship(good way) too at the same time and boom, hit.

(DONT STUN, every relationships got loopholes, it's never perfect okay!)

I like it when HS acts in such a way that we do not know why we should do it.

Because i obeyed, He worked. But sometimes i don't dare to do some things the HS prompt me to do. Xy, obedienceee!

Leap of Faith, leap of faith...

I wrote a new song, & i'm calling it leap of faith :D

heehee, for now i completed the melody and lyrics, but i'm gonna make it better first, any songs written in just a impromptu time can be led by HS, but it could also be because i just wanna finish it fast. but no... i wanna make it my song to Him, my season song!

weee, song up soon. (:

One more thing, God gave us the power to solve the problem, but the problem is not solved yet, until we face the problem. So i think i'm gonna obey and face it, if not i will still be stuck. stuck. stuck.

& i havent changed, never change.
Just moving on, but deep inside i'm still the same. (:

Leap of Faith

Today i took a leap of faith.

I took Sentosa's the big big flying fox. wooo, super fun.

So the story's like this, we went sentosa this morning to film for the cook show, i dont know what cook show that sponsors us to sentosa to play and have fun but wow awesome!

I was actually very very scared to take the flying fox, but Jingying seems very relax about it and was like 'eh you scared anot? I NOT SCARED LEH HAHAHAH'. and then all of us except brother was like scared esp dajie.

On the way to my 'Leap of Faith', i was actually fearful about the whole thing, what if i die while jumping, but i realise everything is in God's hand, my life in His hands what, so i prayed. then i see many many people's character towards taking the ride.

The one that touched me most is actually 2 young girls who backed out and cried, okay can't really blame them la, because they are young. But this reminds me, sometimes because we're young in our faith, we don't dare to do things are that 'big' for us and wasted the resources God provide and didn't face the obstacle. so yeah, they wasted the money and went down. :(

After seeing this, my fear went away and this time Jingying got scared. hahaha and screamed all the way down when i relax only. except i scream cause i was in pain, the thing super tight sioh!!

Leap of faith, this is what i should do whenever i face any situations.

Because my God is greater than anything! Just like just now, Jy didn't want to help me with the bed, (cause we moving room) then i took a leap of faith and took my bed on the double deck, and bring down to lvl 1 and change bedsheet. woooo~

I'm strong, but it's Him who made me strong!

Though heart still kinda heavy, but i know in my new room, i'm gonna pray off everything! :D

Just so you know

No matter what my dear friends,
Xinying will never walk out on you.

Cause You guys are the treasures of my life, something that can't be replaced.

Today i made a decision to love so much more,
and yesterday to focus so much more on the right things now.

So dearest Spaz, W524, my family, Kit, Eileen, Chung & friends who love me,
I will never walk out on you because you love me as i am, and edify me whenever you can.

So I'm here for you, whenever you need me (:
Just as you are for me.

My Word My Bond. (:

Saviour, He can move the mountains

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

What a very awesome day (weird phrasing i know).

Started out with Kit, thanks Kit, for being my sister, always there for me! :D had a good time w her, even though we're suppose to go running. hahaha, fail sia! KIT BETTER RUN NEXT WEEK, NO EXCUSEEE!!

Then a very good service. During worship, i saw my breakthru, after 3 4 months of being stuck, really, God showed me my vision that continued on, and He speak so many things i cannot remember all, but words of comfort and of breakthrus. One that touched me, even before the word, "Xy, when you cry, i'm there crying too, with tissue papers. I feel for you, you're not alone. Trust me." (Don't ask me why got tissue papers, maybe God is hinting me, the next time i cry, remember my tissues. HAHA!)

The word was so awesome, & PK at the end said, let God fill your emptiness, and suddenly, i was searching for that emptiness, but i didn't know what it was, i tried to search and then tears roll down. I know He was filling that part of me that was missing, now it's back i know. (:

This week was really quite a hard week for me, & my members know it, Spaz too. When i look back, actually i think i'm kinda childish, this means i grow up hor?? but i really thank God, He placed such awesome people in my life that I can share with them, yet at the same time i know i can trust them.

Just so blessed today, like something in my spirit break thru, and after hearing all my mbrs open up just now, i just feel, PK's msg did something for my cg, tt our unity will grow to another level, and also loving Jieying so much more.

I'm letting it go, no more turning back, and no more running wild.

It's time to love my God and obey His words that He spoke, after learning it the hard way.

Thanks for an awesome night guys,

Thank you God,

Thank you Deanna for asking me to have fun in church today!! :D

Love is the greatest of all.

1 Cor 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

When i was a child....

This week is the week i receive most rebukes from God.

While i was thinking about this thing on the train to meet my dearest Spastics, i saw this scene.

This man came up the train, saw an empty seat, but he was carrying a luggage, and the train suddenly jerked, and he kicked this quite old woman sitting at the priority seat. & suddenly that woman got so attitude-ish, and TSK him and clean her foot. i was quite stun, then after like 2 3 mins, that woman stood up and walked grumbly to the another side of the train's priority seat.

The man looked and had a "whatever" look.

For me, i felt that woman a little childish and it hit me. I am equally childish thinking about this certain thing and God just shoot me "Ain't you equally childish too?" and i stun for awhile.

yeah, & this verse came to me,

When i was a CHILD, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a MAN, I put away childish things.

So i'm gonna put away with the childish things and start speaking, understanding and thinking as a Grown-up. I need to grow up! :D

One of the weeks that i received the most rebukes.

But it made me realise, how much i should be happy with, nothing can be compared to how much joy i can have spending time with my Spastics and my cg W524. Thanks guys, i really love you all! I'm just so thankful for your love, esp the Spaz, thanks for keeping and loving me. & Thank you Jieying.

LOVE LOVE

TODAY IS GONNA BE A VERY AWESOME DAY,

CAUSE IT'S MY BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY!

I LOVE YOU DEANNA GAN DI DI!

Words can't express how much you mean to be, thanks for always being there to love me even when i pangseh you guys at times. you're always just a floor away from me, thanks darling! I miss those times we walk home tgt from sec school! we should do it again!!! when we're both free. haha, i will free myself up for you guys soon, we needa catch up so so much. i love you gan! thanks for not giving up! (:

Take all of me

Today was really a very very good day.

I had fun with Bizhew and Manwei, went crazy with them since like dont know when we did it, or we did it before anot. Listen to them and all. Really good fun. Thanks girls, love ya! (:

Came home, decided to go for a run, drag Jingying along, and we walked one big round, talking about what's happening in our lives. Then ran, then fitness corner to continue our talk for 2 hours. I realise my dear girl grow up already. Thanks Jy, for listening to everything and sharing w me your revelation that blessed me. I'm just waiting for you to grow up, really. So when we move into our new room, let's pray and share even more. Thanks girl.

Today i come to a decision.

I wanna remove this hindrance. I wanna move on. Better to let go then me keep thinking of it right? i wanna search for an answer, not a question again. byez.

Thanks Chung, when Jy said i was not okay, you just called and ask me.

This is what i call a friend who promise me to be there, and he's really there, His word his bond. Thanks Chung.

Thanksgiving day sioh... hahaha.

Teehee, on a brighter note, I'm okay.

Life is still good. (: God is still with me, He still calls me as His own.

My breakthru is here, as long as i breakthru this hindrance. '

Food for thought: Unhappiness towards a person can change into hatred over a period of time.

Quite true hor? So let's not cause any unhappiness!

P.S.: Dejavu typing this post and this scene on my bed hearing the things by my sisters. wooooo~ I'm in God's will! :D

HS

Lord I give you my heart

I give you my soul

I live for you alone

Every breathe that i take

Every moment i'm awake

Lord have your way in me

Love drives people to do something they won't expect themselves to do.

Love drives people, and it's important where we place our love at.

Love makes the world go round.

Love is a motivator.

This season, more of the HS, even though i might not be in flow with the others, i am in flow with my own season, cause everyone have their own seasons. But i got to rmb, HS needs to be in every season of our lives.

More of You,

Less of me.

Really thankful God remembers me, for every bs i go thru, He puts me right in that season to be in, the right word to suit my situations and all so that i can best learn the word and put in into my spirit. (:

ILYF.

AND IT ALL TURNED INTO LIGHT. :D

It's You

It's You who makes me strong
It's You whom I belong
It's You that I desire.

Total reliance on Him, so that even people hurt you or leave you again, you know that He won't leave you.
This way, you know you're not alone. Reliance reliance, this must grow stronger yo.

But im believing, im conquering this fear. (:
haha no emo-ing. Just thinking yo, life is good, life is great.
After reflecting on some parts of what i'm thinking, actually the solutions lies in my hand. Comeon... i can solve them. Some things, don't think about it, some things, take action and on and on...

Projects are coming to an end very very soon. :D

I like sleeping early cause it makes me happier the next day. Slept at 8 plus and i haolian to my older sister this morning when she complaining she's tired! hahaha!
I'm gonna try sleep at 10pm everyday if i even reach home that early. Bad habit, change it!

P.S. I still like the songs i wrote, time to write a new song maybe? but i got to cut my nails... :( okay still got time! haha guitar not with me now.

Flow

In love relationship class just now, i learned something quite important.

We need commitment, initmacy(sharing of things, not physical intimacy) and passion in a relationship to make it work.

Like a triangle, one cannot be lower than the another, but all equal.

High commitment + High intimacy is just a companionship relationship, we need passion to continue this relationship.

Just like any other relationship, esp with God. Everyone is actually searching for a very deep relationship, where we can share almost every other thing in the world, without knowing that we will be judge upon what we say.

These few days are just days to reflect on, and think of more things. No wonder my mama say i look old, maybe im just born like this, and i'm like just brother lim, just that i don't emo as much as him. haha.

There's time and season for everything. & there's a right time and place to express ur emotions (whether good or bad) too. Sometimes i feel i'm quite bad at this area, so yeahhh, i should just learn how to do it, so my existence won't be a burden to others and to the atmosphere in future. :D

The last thing on earth i wanna do is be a burden to others.

Everyday should be a day where you start off feeling like you have already conquered a world, so nothing will be too hard for you! :D

& haha, it's so scary when twitter becomes indirect suaning area.

Secretttttt.

Heeeeeeeeee, i got it already. Both my flesh and spirit.

Sometimes we don't get joy cause there's things hindering us. Either emotionally, spiritually or mentally. Whatever it is, yeah.

It's really time to progress on, esp after worldcup, after it distracted me from all my sleep, tiring sioh. I got to throw away all distractions. Including things that i really really like alot, that's what i taught in the bs right xy? Cross-bearing takes sacrifices.

I had this dream just now and i was super happy, but when i woke up, i realise it's just a dream. & maybe this dream is just something i made out, and it won't happen. Who knows la. Maybe down the years i might read back this post and laugh it off. always happens!

Actually, if we think about this, when we zoom in closely in people's actions, sometimes they are doing things for you. Just for you, but because your eyes are too zoomed out, you miss everything. Come on, let's reflect again...

When we reflect & look back, things becomes clearer. Wanna double-check/confirm, ask the people around. hahaha. Zoom in zoom in..

PICTURES SPAM:

after a long time. let me high abit about pictures!! I MISS CHARMAINE!!! Her camera and her! But her moreeee!

When i post pics, im actually forcing you guys to look at my pictures indirectly. dont wanna see dont scroll down ahh! :D

My cg girls. Love themmm!
MISS JIEYING!
What we do on the train! LOL!

PHOTOSHOOT
dadddyyyyI should have a nicer camera!!! i look abit nicer than normal tt day, even though ugly + abit nicer still ugly. cheyyy edify myself abit, i very pretty. chey i bhb. nvm nvm, stop talking to yourself xy. go sleep.

nights~