Being secured

I guess i am really very very temperamental.. But guess i will come back here once in a while. :D

Was brought back to a book that i read 2 years back.
About being secured in Christ and knowing my position. Was thinking bout the same story about John the baptise and his disciples few days ago and Jieying shared it w me ytd.

Half a year.
I rebuilding and building it up. but the higher i go, the deeper the foundation. Back to the basics. Back to the ancient landmarks. Back to simplicity...

private

People who wants to find out what you're doing will go the extra mile to ask you "how you're doing". 

More than just tweeting, or facebooking and all... i really think social media is destroying this generation of communications. Yes it's good, but im gonna cut down and not relying on it so much. 

More than just typing it out, im putting all of it in actions. 

Showing love in a different way, and something more real... 

Doing something that i would like rather than something i dont like. 

This blog will once again be abandoned by me. ^^ 

Not that im emoing, but i dont trust social media. hahahaha. bye.

One year wiser.. w wisdom tooth

So true of the saying which goes,
"One year older,
One year wiser."

My wisdom tooth is coming out this year, IN MY BIRTHDAY WEEK.
So...
Wisdom tooth coming out -> Gum swollen -> face swollen -> affects eating -> Very hungry even with the most delicious food infront of me -> lose weight? i pray..

K so maybe i actually asked God that on my week i am gonna lose weight, so nv knew it would be like this.
So so so painful.

Just wanna blog this up. hahaha.
k bye!

Lights will guide you home

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones...

Today while washing clothes, okay my routine for 1 month plus... God spoke and said tell Mum i want to go SOT. and guess what, i was hesitating until mum said "if you keep on wait and wait and wait, you will never do it." Like woah, even God is speaking thru her somehow.

So.... i told her. "Mum i wanna go some course next year and i will pay it myself can?"
mum: what course?
me: some course ;)
mum: k i know what course it is alrdy.

Even though she didnt agree on the spot, she didnt reject me too. she just asked me to talk to my brother. somehow, i know i am so going there next year. God answers prayers. and for SOT, i've been praying since 2 years back. even without telling mum what course it was, she knew what i was asking for. This prayer will be answered!

This birthday present is coming true... I pray and i pray...
5 more days.... and im receiving my best birthday present ever. ^^

Embracing

If i dont embrace myself, 
Who will then embrace me for me? 

Start loving yourself.

New every morning...

Had avery rough day ytd cuz of miscommunications at work and kena got "chastening" at work. but the thing that my boss, Prof could actually smile at me after everything and say you need to work on communicating. Kinda encouraging aft feeling tt way, like she's encouraging me yet I was self-condemning myself. Thank God for grace...

Managed to surprise Jieying cuz is her birthday and yay we succeeded. and it brightens up my bad day. :D 

SOT for my Birthday present is more than enough!!
Working these 3 days, I handled more than enough cash(patient paying the doctor) that are able to pay for my SOT fees and I just realised today. I am gonna have more than enough $ for my sot! At least I have $340+ for this month's pay. Plus my internship and all, all will be good! I pray I have more than enough for SOT.

Still confessing for SOT!!!

Oh and goooood day spent w Angel.making me ready for SOT! Yeahhh.

Donkey

Was feeling so so extremely depressed over something today.
and i went on FB and read the story about the donkey shaking the sand off him and climbing out of the well.

If a donkey can actually be so smart and not depressed over being buried alive and thought of a better way of using those sands tt are supposed to kill it into something that bring makes it survive, xy can do it too.

WO KE YI. TADA.
suprisingly, this year im not even counting down to my bday. haha!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LEADER JIEYING. ;)

Instrument of God

Just like how a guitar is created to make music,
I am created to serve God.

Okay so tt was a sub-point of the whole thing i was gonna say.
Somehow or another, i became a cg guitarist. it's like a thing He spoke when cg multiplied like i could help out.. but nv do i know, when joshie go into army i got to take over praise as well. Like amazing how He moves..  Just practised the guitar for 2 hours to 3 just now thus, so late and im still awake.. But wherever God leads i will go..

2nd pt of the day...

Ezekiel 36:26
I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

Whenever new trials come, He starts removing the stones in our heart and slowly put back the flesh that the stones had been taking up in the space of our hearts. & with this, our heart gets even more fleshy and even newer that can be closer to the Spirit.. and new visions come becuz of the new Spirit.

But removing of stones is the painful part. But still i will hold on becuz of Gal 6:9.

So tired so tired nowadays, but I'm clinging on to the promise.
Bird-day in another 14 days? and this year the presents i want is not something money-ish wise. 3 wishes.
1) ____________ (Secret)
2) Family salvation
3) Go SOT next year w Mum's permission.

So anyone can bless me w SOT school fees that's good too ;)
$300/$3000 ---> saved 10% alrdy. Not bad for a start though. JIAYOU XY!

Okay.... No more reading & Let's see the very messy hair me.

 Sorry getting quite zilian nowadays. time to sleeeeeeep. NIGHTS :D

tired max but still alive and breathing

This week is housechores + going out + work +running bedok reservoir 3 times a week = deadbeat
i think im becoming more and more aunty. but oh well, i think i dont look like one.

NEED TO SLIM DOWN DESPERATELY.
oh well, slowly but surely if i continue running. Oh gosh then someone tell me why am i gaining weight. okay going on diet! yay

and i dont understand why im still alive here typing at 2.35am when im gonna go run at 8 ltr. gosh.

Just got to say God is so good to keep me alive.
and im so blessed! to keep receiving blessing in terms of financials. PTL! :D
keep it going, SOT im running to you.
Speak to my mountain and it shall be STILL. so you can stop running about and i can go there next year!

Brings life

1 Samuel 2:6-8

God brings death and God brings life,
brings down to the grave and raises up.


God brings poverty and God brings wealth;
he lowers, he also lifts up.

He puts poor people on their feet again;
he rekindles burned-out lives with fresh hope,
Restoring dignity and respect to their lives—
a place in the sun!
For the very structures of earth are God's;
he has laid out his operations on a firm foundation.

Words are set by Him. Structures that are being built by His Word that He had spoken. The Word that lays out His firm foundation and made operation taken place. He speaks, the earth comes forth.

If its the earth that is form by His words is such an wonderful creation, what's more for my life?

Brought down to the grave i may be, but i know i will be made alive with rekindled fire that burns my hope with passion again.

This is my season.
and the key to the breakthru of the next door is in my pocket.
The season of life coming alive!

Please remember

One day.... When you cut off your social network w/o any updates about your life and all it's left is just your phone, those people who really bother to give you calls and shorts messages are really truly the people who care..

PTL! Bro got the job! and it's quite good! With 20 days of annual leave per year, for those who study HR, it is way above the Employment Act. Happy for him.

& my grandpa actually told me this, "If you didnt go to church, i would actually love you alot."
hahaha yay, there is actually improvement after like coldness to me for years.. & i managed to talk to grandma more too. Aft she told me about her philosophy of going to church, i just decided to tell her something and i think it really made her think.

So God answered 2 of my prayers ytd, Bro got his job, and it didnt rained in the morning. :D

& This song had been ringing in my head since last week.
I really love Leann Rimes, old singer but i really think the older singers actually have more substances.



Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together

And at the end of the day, even if all else forgotten about you, He is just singing... "Please remember, please remember. I was there and always there... Please remember the time we are together."

Keep holding on...

So............ my 2nd new maid ran away again.
This time she ran because she thought a sardine fish which has red gavy and in red colour is some bloody bloody animal that we keep and cooked, and she thought the sea cucumber was some snake... o.m.g.

oh yeah, best part! i havent seen her face yet, and i went running in the morning, and she's gone. why the 2 maids run when i go running. i dont mind they go run with me so they wont run away..

okay, so time to update my life so i remember.
HOUSECHORES. + feeding jiejie cilla's cat, smokey and she bit me on the first day i took care of her. :/

Seriously house chores are very tiring... but oh well.
im holding on~ if you want to make a small chat with me, ask me how am i and i will tell you, im doing house chores everyday. BIG CHAT, you can talk to me about house chores and i will talk to you like an aunty. JUST joking. or you dont want to talk to me, it's fine!

Life is fine. Guess everyone's busy with their stuff and moving on.
I think i move on too fast. 18 --------> 45.
Wooots just joking.

At least i run 3 times every week.
I pray, dont let it rain tmr, and bro gets the job he is applying. Thank God he passed the first interview. Oh and woah, my mum actually asked me to pray for korkor to get the job. wooahhh. ^^

Please remember...
Cause I remember...

results

Got back my results just now midnight and am quite happy about it cuz at least the effort and hardwork put in by being better this sem paid off.

I got 1 A, 3 Bs, 1 C. its not the best results to get but it is alrdy for me. even though I know can actually do better cuz kinda slacked during exam period, and actually able to get another few more As, but I'm glad improved! my best results in my poly so far. hhha.

But will not stop only here!
Thank God for teaching me this big lesson in poly ^^

nice guys finish last

So......

I finally cut my hair shorter than usual in 10 years time. & i dye back my natural natural brown colour.
this picture dont look like me i know but ya, see me in real life if i let you see me.

Thank God my new maid is coming tmr. My hands are so so so dry from washing and hanging and ironing and cleaning. but thank God for this whole time experience though. Love spending time w mum even though she gets very naggy but still, lovessss.

Work tmr. kbye!

Rolling in the deep

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

Been doing house chores till i drop dead, like dead.
Appreciate all helpers and mums for doing house chores and all. and it's not really tt good to stay in a big house though. im dead beat...

In need of a good massage if anyone wanna volunteer. hahah just joking!

so...... these were the past week pictures where i am not a maid. 

Running tmr. Bedok reservoir again! yay to bedok reservoir being so close to my house!

Letters to God

"There is more to life than this..."

Watched Letters to God...

"Dear God, i think we did it. You told me not to be afraid, and i wasn't. I just wanted everyone to believe. Love, Tyler"

Dont want to spoil this show by typing out the whole plot but i am just so touched by this show that thru one boy's letter, his hope was spread to many. His life was a letter... A must show show even if you dont believe..

"You show that you are a letter from Christ... written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.- 2 Cor 3:3"

This life we live is not just mere talking and talking, but a life living its message. Even if i type the best things, speaks the best motivating stuff, yet not living them out, i am just an empty shell, an artificial person selling a look like it yet a fake product.

If i wanna be a real product, i got to live the right thing, right way, showing who i am as what i am saying. Never want to be an artificial..

Blessed by Pst Phil's book and this movie..

Rise up....

Just finished my work at Xinmin Primary! really think kids are so adorable except for a few.. but its like so awesome to be a teacher, you get to impact lives slowly slowly but surely.

Okay this weird but having a stomache now and I'm on the train and think I'm gonna explode! ahhhhh just joking. 

"Dreams that die, they come to life again..."

Served ytd in zone meeting. it seems that this time, there's this beakthru, and everything did there was something abit more than before. thank you Holy Spirit! 

Having family dinner later! gnna be so good! :D 

the genuine heart

was just thinking, we can see easily if a heart is genuine to you or not.. & also, if effort is put into a certain thing you are doing..

But what happens if you have actually more than one to be genuine to? or more than one stuff you have to put effort in to? will there be this balance or will you focus on one so much more than the other?

But learning how to balance actually one thing all humans have to learn to do... Learnin to balance is askill...

Anw, had fun w sarah jasmin ting gary gouwei stanley today esp those who remained at the bar aft tt. hearts poured out, sharing stuff. something hvent been ding for a long long time. thannks guys! :D

Awesome friends running in same directions of life. cheers!

cannot believe

Looking thru past pictures and i realise something, i cannot believe that i am really skinny inside those pictures because i was a hardcore photoshop-per, photoshopping all the pictures.

So my motivation now is that i am really prettier than before.
SO i am running w Pauline every three times a week this holiday.
WO KE YI DE! JIAYOU XY! :D

That is how it seems, you cannot believe a picture till you find out whats beneath.
Kinda my life principal. haha.
Bye!

So this is what happened at Edwin and Rae's wedding..
Both leader that inspired my life the most! But ironically, i dont have pic w both of them here YET hahhaa.
PHOTO SPAMMING

All ripped off from facebook but it's here for me to refer back on my life.
I kinda prefer how i blogged last time. more happening then how it is now. This blog is getting boring, why can't i just be myself.
SMILEEEEE :D

Time

Time proves so many things.

Time and time again, the same thing happens and sometimes, it's making me lose trust in this kinda thing and it starts to make myself so protective against such stuff. Things changes, and i know i cannot make any differences if that certain thing wanna change. BUT i am secure in Christ.

God knows it all, and i am blessed enough to know tt.

Things nowadays are so so different.
But i am contented to know if i do not change for the worse.
Well, perspective of worse is different in many people's eyes. But mine, is not to leave this secret place of mine and to move into the vision He have in stored for me.

Search my heart O Lord, 
Make it ever true... 
Search my heart O Lord, 
May i be like You...

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and so i was reading my old posts, and i am thankful for times when i wrote little small revelations on my blog. helps me, and i thank God.
In all times, i will praise. :D

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