Nothing much

When life goes gaga, i want to haha.

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Had been a grumpy week and i have to admit my attitude is the worse this week and i hate this week. mark down this week xy and never do it again.

Sorry to everyone, those i haven't been nice to.
That's not me, that's the bad xy. I'm returning to the nice xy with better attitude.
Change starts w self-humbling. Changes starts w me.

God, help me...
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be true

Be true to yourself...
It's where all things begins...

pure love

When everything is just so simple and perfect.
& when all bad things seem so far away..

I want that kind of simplicity.

care to get me eeyore?

Eeyore is hardly ever happy and when he is, he's still sardonic and a bit cynical. Ironically, he seems to enjoy being gloomy to some extent, but nevertheless, he seems genuinely appreciative of the efforts of his friends to cheer him up, for example, when Pooh and Piglet build The House at Pooh Corner for him, or when they give him birthday presents of a honey jar (empty) and a balloon (accidentally burst). His grumpiness might be attributed to the fact that his tail is affixed to his behind using a pushpin and has a tendency to fall off.
Eeyore is generally quite a reliable character; a person you can lean on in times of trouble. He can sometimes be quite insightful - in Winnie the Pooh's Most Grand Adventure, he was the first to understand that the group didn't have to go on a long and dangerous journey to become strong, smart or brave - they had it inside them all along.
Favourite quote: Thanks for noticin' me.

Not just of the cute looks, but the character he has.
What a weird comparison but, i kinda see the eeyore inside of me sometimes, maybe not the good points but the cynical part all tt..

I love eeyore. Anyone care to give me one, cause i gave it to my angel REYNA today!

My covenant with you

Here i am bowing down before You
Give my life to follow You Lord
Here i am reaching for Your presence
Clinging to that One thing
Even though all fades away..


And i will sing, of the promises You made to me
And i will keep the joy that You have given to me
Surrendering all my fears to You
Living to be closer to You Lord
Here i am

The last week of Jan and this whole Jan had been exciting.
Sum up everything and put everything into one song.
Havent been on one for a long time, cause a song have to be from one's heart, and this is from mine...

Have a break

I shall take a break... (:

You're the best thing that has happened to me

You say You want all of me
I wouldnt have it any other way
I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
I wana know, I wana know You today
And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take You away

Had a weird night yesterday.. but thank God all is well.
Went for LM tonight and heard PK spoke w his heart. So thankful for him and Sun, and thankful that i have the privilege to even join in LM since 2008. Thank God for all... & looking forward to a greater 2011.

Whenever something bigger happens in the spirit realm, i know another breakthrough is coming and i'm believing in it. and now i thank God mum believes me too. Bigger breakthrough in a certain area. idk what it is but i know i will know it soon.

"I shall not fear, for the Lord my God is with me'
Had been on repeat mode since last night.

Formal presentation tt day:

Above all

My body clock is abit screwed.. :(

Studying till now. Blame it on me, burning midnight oil.
I must study harder alrdy la. no slacking.. if i wanna get in uni.

Still, REMAIN POSITIVE.
Future seems so far yet it's actually just one year later where i have to decide if i wanna go uni or not. Leaving all in His hands, but of course i need to put in my effort too.

Shall wake up and study later on.
I pray it will be fruitful.
Mum's like back from work and i'm awake.
haha time to sleep. 2hours of nap just now and off to lalaland now for a while.

Poly life is not easy, who say it was?!
hahaha. sofa my bestfriend tonight!

more than enough

Seriously I'm treasuring all the moments spent with my family, my father, my mum, brother, sister and jy.

Spent my whole day in school doing project just now, not really whole day but since 4pm to like 8 plus? still.. like my whole day. hahaha. if im weren't in school, i will be slacking at home.  but oh well.. Why am i online? cause of presentation tmr.. :/ doing my script and just done w the ppt! jiayou xy!

But at least i spent the rest of my day w dearest family. (:

Heard this BEST NEWS of the year just now, and i pray it is true. only when it is true then i will blog it up and shout hallelujah! hohoho something tt i prayed so hard for, and really i pray it is true! :D

Just thinking, it's gonna be my very 3rd year in church this coming march/april. and we're moving to suntec, omg ya! like the exact day... weeee sounds good! no wonder it's special!

John 16:21-23
"When a woman gives birth, she has a hard time, there's no getting around it (THAT'S MEANS YOU GOT TO GO THRU IT!). But when the baby is born, there is joy in the birth. This new life in the world wipes out memory of the pain. The sadness you have right now is similar to that pain, but the coming joy is also similar. When I see you again, you'll be full of joy, and it will be a joy no one can rob from you. You'll no longer be so full of questions.

MY JOY~
Oh joy and joy...
Thinking more on the word "joy" recently..
It's never about the things happening around that makes us tired, but the condition of our heart. I'm gonna be JOYful! and it comes from within!

New "Xinying" with the new "joy" shall birth forth i pray! :D
The happiness thing is to be happy!

JOY

这喜乐也没有人能夺去。。。

My joy.. The joy can NEVER take away.
Soaking myself in the wine of the HS (:

smile

Sometimes i feel that people around us deserves a smile more often..

With all they are facing, just one smile could actually brighten their day. (:
Gonna smile more and face life w a SMILE :D


:D

this is my love story~

I think the good thing about what i have is really only my eyes. hoho. minus the eye bags. (:
(K this is random!)

"Let go of all" was what God spoke during worship today. Straight after service and fellowship, i was like super amaze by how God can change things.

Thoughts from this week:
"Getting tired of worrying, cuz i dont recognise tt it's of God. Cuz if i know He's in control, i dont have to worry." was what i blogged on Jan 21's post,
& Friday i was just thinking, what if i'm getting tired of fighting everything that's going on in my life, all the conflicts, politics and burdens and more..

& Today i got my answer...
God will fight for me.
He will and will never stop.

Read this verse ytd and tweeted it,
The LORD will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace. (Exodus 14:14 )
Nothing's too hard 4 Him! Dont complain, dont doubt but BELIEVE!
& today God threw it back into my face. hahaha.

2 words to sum up my week, "Worrying week" and Pst Phil's word was so timely...
& when i learn to stop worrying, i receive news! Breakthru for next week. :D
Whenever i recognise things are not mine but of God's, He will come and do something.
I surrender ALL.

I thank God in all things, good or bad, He's in control.
Lord of my life.

Things happens when you BELIEVE.
i reject myself from all unbelief! :D

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& i shouldn't get myself a iphone4 or a 4gen itouch, if not i will just camwhore everyday and post up zilian pictures which i havent been doing for a long time until the 4gen itouch and iphone4 had been appearing around me recently. FB all spammed w them! hahah.

Proj tmr in school, what a way to spend my sunday, but yeahhh. All is well. I had my deserved fun and rest today already! :D

GOD IS GOOD.
& i shall trust and believe even more.
Believing in the basic things, and simplest things actually is difficult sometimes when you just think about it. but nevertheless, i dont want to be lazy and tired of believing the simple truth. (:

what happens when i have itouch 4gen around..

Dearest Bizhew and Manwei are like my dearest friends in SP.
Okay no doubt conflicts happen, but i guess this may be the thing i will miss in poly.
At least, i thank God for them, for them to be there in poly w me.

Gonna be the last few weeks of Year 2, and lotsa projects. T&D have to be completed next week and ahhh, tight tight... I pray all goes well. Thank Mr Albert let us hand up our UCCD proj slightly later. (: He's nice.. & after not running for ages, i ran today, to hand up report and print report. tt feeling is actually quite good, at least you're running for a good cause. hahaha!

Life's good.

Cgm's good. Wanna be faithful. Faithfulness...
In where i am placed.

REAL

Somehow nowadays, i prefer to be the REAL me instead of hiding.
If i want to be retarded, i will do it. If i want to be quiet, i will do it. I want to say something, i will say it.
Maybe it's just the environment training me to be what im thinking nowadays..

But whatever i dare to do, i dare to account it.
I want the world to know the REAL me, instead of someone whom i'm trying to become.
Why should i care to be the someone others wants me to be?
I'm happy being who i am, and i don't have to care.

Attitude sia this post.
But main point, be who YOU TRULY ARE, rather than being someone whom you or others want you to be. You will be happier that way. (:

My position is secure in CHRIST, rather than who people tell or look at me.
& i rather be who He wants me to be, than what others wants me to be.

Sensitive

Everyone have this senstive area in their life about them that they don't want you to touch at all. & maybe, if you touch it, the gift of assess is gone.

Not saying this because of sch! (cuz u may think this is typed during school period. )

Always be sensitive to others, if not the friendship/relationship might be brolen very easily.

In another light, if you wanna touch on your friend's sensitive area, have wisdom on how to go w it. Have the right word built on it.. Or else, words do hurt. (:

CGM later on!! :D

Be like You

I sing a love song to You Lord
Everyday, every night
Tell of You goodness and mercy

Was reading Exodus tt day, & it pop out to me, Moses. God asked what is in his hands, and he said "a rod"..

& aft a few passages later, Moses recognises the rod as the "rod of God". He surrendered the only thing he had on his hands & thru tt rod, miracles happened and even the best magicians could not beat God's rod.

God i surrender. Not mine, but Yours.
Whatever in my hands, in my head, the talents, the thoughts and little details, Father God, all to You.

Getting tired of worrying, cuz i dont recognise tt it's of God. Cuz if i know He's in control, i dont have to worry.

Graceeeee.

you need a channel

Sometimes when you have no channels to let out everything,
you end up crying.

All of us need a channel.

i am who i am

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

Sometimes i don't understand why things can move so fast in one second and then tada, it changes.
Not that it's not good. but yeahh..

One place where i can truly be me..
There's no pretense.. One place where i can be who i truly am, where no one sees.
No one... except for Him alone.

Make me whole God.. (:
Maybe it's time to pick up a guitar and write a new song.


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Thinking.... that my life shouldn't be base on a few things..
but on ONE thing.


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Awesome Shar!! :D

Loving my life just the way it is.
Watched "Tan/Dan qing shou an" and i cried just now. So touching and sad when silimei and kingsley were not together. :/ but yay, they reconciled! :D

Thinking so much bout things around, and i'm getting peh chek sometimes. pehchek w my thoughts.. but all is well, cause i know my God is w me.

New thoughts, new conclusions, new revelations. (:

mother's love

These few weeks, okay past 2 weeks, i have been sick.
But to think about it, i'm not very sad about getting sick actually. Okay even though i scolded myself for running under the rain even when i'm sick and made me extra sick. But it's alright. Haha.

Even thought mum loves scolding me also, deep down i know, Mum cared for me. (":
2 weeks ago, when i thought she's gonna throw me at polyclinic again, she appear infront me w soya milk and bread, knowing i haven't ate my breakfast. & cause the queue was too long, she said she rather spend more money than wait for this polyclinic. At tt moment even though i didnt show it, i was super touched within.

& today and ytd, she actually 'scolded' me, to come home early, to take care, not to eat chips and so and so. Fierce yet deep inside a love.

Actually deep within everyone's heart, lies a little kid who wants their mum or dad to love. Even though they don't show their love 24/7, i know that there is some obvious signs that they still love the kid, and mum loves me. At the side of their eyes when they are scolding me words that hurt me, they feel bad(i believe so..) and signs of aging, the wrinkles beside their eyes cause they worry too much.

& i'm just tt little kid who wants mum and dad to love me.

& to end off,
I love my dad and mum.
& i thank God for them. :D