Won't You lead me, to the rock that is higher..

Today i say a prayer
Come and make me whole
When I'm overwhelm
Your Love reaches me.. 

So thankful for Pst Mike Connell this whole week.
Being set free and being able to pray for other people in SOT, felt a breakthru somewhere within, and i pray... Let the breakthrus for this whole season start.

Time really flies in SOT, i really dont want SOT to end so fast, because it's really a season where im so busy yet, i am happy in what im doing.

Time to truly truly embrace this whole season and treasure the time left. How i wish SOT could last forever, but time still moves on.. but Xy, dont get too busy till you forget what you're busy for...

& I am just so thankful to be able to head down to e beach (FINALLYYYY) just to spend time w the cg and get tan. Free blusher for the next few days, yay. no need for make up. & PC show w bro & jy, and dinner. happy me :D

Gonna be a busy month of chionging bible reading and book reviews and preaching test and camp and exam and lots of thing, BUT by His Grace, all things are possible.

Beneath my feet was once a valley, 
BUT NOW I Stand...

Moving on...

Romans 12:1-2
So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.

"Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking"

The only way to deal with your character problems, or troubles is not to overcome but have victory over it.

Reading Romans, and it talks so much about "Embracing".
Time to embrace what God is doing, and Him taking over. :)

And i will never run away, even if im the worse person on the world.
Sin vs Grace, grace wins hands down.
Thankful for this very fact. :)



& Liang Wen Yin's a very good singer. :D
Sometimes i just feel chinese songs have more emotions than english songs.
So thankful to be able to go to LWY & CWQ's music concert with Team 10. The fellowship and talks, thankful to be in Team 10! :D

To love...

Feeling so blessed recently. 

Like suddenly things turns out clear, i know where to walk in.

But i pray, every single step i walk, really is guided by Him. 

But for now, i feel pretty happy despite being tired. :)

Just finish the video for Priya, and it's 12.45am, totally forgot the time. 

But just love lying down on the bed, listening to soulful music. thinking about stuff, enjoying the peace. (:

God's ways are always higher than mine. 

At the end of the day, xy... remember... 

Place of total abandonment

 So i will sing,
 i love You God,
 I worship You...
 You never leave me God,
 So i say, I live for you.
(Song written by Gary!)

 Coming to a place of total abandonment is not easy...
 But to know it is not by own strength for total abandonment but by His strength... That is the point of change.

Total abandonment comes to the place of rest.
Rest of God is a dwelling place, an inheritance He wants to give us, a promise He's giving... and a place where He decides and choose to dwell...

Place of Rest...
Never easy to get there, but when i get there, i rest... and trust in You and love You..

Spirit of God...

4 days of Dr Robi was so tiring yet so inspiring, so good. :)

Nowadays i just cant find the words to fit in how i feel, lost for words or maybe i just need to increase my vocabs hahaha.

sick for the 2nd week alrdy, AND I WILL BE MADE WELL.

But thruout all i am so blessed, by the people around, so humbled by my team members when all of them are older and in some ways mature than me yet they listen and care for me & loved me. Dr Robi says to be thankful and really i am so thankful for everything now.

& Thankful for friends in SOT! Doubt they will see it, but thank you for making my life in sot exciting! Thank you Ivan, Sab, Tim, Paul, JD, Shihan, Weiling, LCM, Eunice, Olivia, Kweikee & Estherr and moreee. :)

With Spring 4th coming soon, TL duties, BV practs, CG stuff, and increasing things coming in, Jesus be e center of it all... Dr Robi cfmed almost all the stuff i was thinking for the past week and i was so amazed. TYJ for being here...

On to the next season of my life, busy it may be, but there are always compartments, always priorities to make space, make time for things. Wisdom and grace in this season. :)

Jesus, be the center....

Love the skies

priorities

Was thinking...

When a lot of things come running into my life..
It's really time to make priorities. & it really takes wisdom to make wise priorities.

& above all else..
He should be first.

Treasuring..

Trust is something so so fragile, that once its broken, it can never be pieced back together. Unless a miracle happen. hahaha.

So back to serious matter, just so scary to see how people be someone yet they are not that someone and then they become something scary. *if you can even follow what im talking about*

Oh God... I just pray, i dont have to wash clothes for another 2 months plus again. i really dont have the time to do so... k maybe its not so much able washing the clothes, but more of the impact..

Trust,
i say again... and will again..
one word,
yet deep meaning,
yet so impt,
and i can go on and on and on again..
Just so so precious.

Treasure the trust people give to you once he/she opens up. Dont break it, dont hurt it, dont damage it.
Treasure it...

Just like His grace..
Treasure it, dont break it, dont do anything to hurt it.

So many things to treasure.. But dont treasure and keep the foolish things.

Rainbows

What happens when actions don't match with the words. Which one will you look at?

Olivia shared something on Thurs and it really reminded me. When i can't see it, xy... Remember..  Be at peace, be at peace. Rainbow is my promise... Whatever placed in the sky have a purpose.

The key to the next doorway of breakthru is in my hands. Time to really step out of all this confusion and move on to the higher call.

Was thinking of "liberty, freedom" during worship on Thurs and Pst Ming cfm-ed the word of liberty. In the Spirit of God, there is no confusion, no whatever, but liberty, freedom. With the Spirit..

Sometimes i wonder how i can cope with work, school, the team and all.. and i realise, i really cannot do it well enough but rlly thank God for His grace so far. To work, to chiong here and there. & when im at the end of my ability, Abba Father will take His place.

I dont google for the answer for my problem.
The only answer i should get from is You..
Jesus, take the wheel...

Draw back

If it's getting way too confusing, it will be time to draw back.

If everything in the world can be simple and direct.
If i can see with my eyes, and hear with my ears at the same level He is.

Meanwhile, it's time to learn to flow even more..
To flow in the same rhythm.

In His time,
He makes all things beautiful..
In His time...

CROSSover

我願意為你　
我願意為你 我願意為你　
忘記我姓名 就算多一秒　
停留在你懷裡 失去世界也不可惜

Always had this wild dream since young... but oh well... i shall see where God leads.

When the 3 Taiwanese went up stage during service today, what truly touched me was the pure motive, pure heart behind that performance (other than their voices and guitar and keyboard *heart melts*). A heart to glorify, using their talents. & becuz of obedience, lives spring forth...

Even if it means discomfort, even if it means you got attacked right, left front, back.. 我願意為你..

Was thinking about depth-ness this morning.
Rather than just a superficial level of relationship, it is truly what had gone deep within that maintains the relationship. Not just only on the surface. but depths... Seek for depths, not just the things on the surface,

try to figure out what im saying if you dont understand. hahaha.

it's 4.11am btw, and im amazed im alive.
Back to my thoughts.

"Vision that moves away from myself..."

Preparation to REAL day of R&D

Bear with the spamming of pics.
Anyway this blog is for memory sake anyways...
PICTURES OF R&D wedding! Blessed to be under both this 2 leaders, but all pictures not posted up yet.. :( So bless

actually i do have small eyes. hahahaha.

Pretty Jieying who got married!

Pretty gals in W524!

BLESSED 

super act cute :p

Awesome company at the table...

the muso!

My pretty girls!

Eileen and Yannni. Blessed to have friends like them!

Genting peopleeeee

my camwhore partner for the day. GARY NEO

happy family! One of the future wedding im gonna attend. i shall wait and compare this pic w the future! i prayyyyyyyy. :)

Pictures in SOT so far...

Just for memory sake.. These are the pictures taken with my beloved team and friends. Thank God for every moment with them! :) Esp my team, to bear with my broken chinese, gosh.... if im them, i will be complaining, yet thank God they embrace. i count myself blessed.... (:

Many nights i pray..

Finally i can say bye or zai jian to M. orchestra for a while and get back part of my life. Really feel like super _________(cant find e word).

But it is a privilege to serve on Suntec stage. Look around the stage and hall today while i was playing and i realise e beauty. Love truly covers all.. So amazing at that moment the music plays and you hear e symphony of music and singimg blending and complementing one another. I guess heaven's gonna be super beautiful..

Okay, so i need somewhere to rant this.
Was carrying a tenor saxophone tt weights 6-8kg. 2.4kg laptop. 5kg of my heavy bag plus this smal paper bag. I was strugglimg so hard just to get back home. Soooooo heavy and i was seriously breaking, plus makeup & wearing a dress doesnt help at all.

Situations like this, i will pray for an angel to pop out to help me. But theres none, so i know i gotta do it. But what doesnt kills me make me stronger, go a little higher.

Just a 'heavy' trip home and i feel so much alrdy.
By Abba's love, 1 more week. All things are possible. His grace is sufficient.
Total reliance on You.. But of cuz w wisdom.

peaceeeeeee

One day, just one day.

i need my visit to the beach and listen to the breeze and waves... 

Just to chill.... 

W/o distractions from any other places, people or whatsoever. 

Always just good to have a getaway. 

and i think it's really cool just to travel alone overseas. 

NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6AM TMR. 

Xy go to sleep now. bye. bye. bye. bye. bye. bye. 

& old song....

Rely, trust, let God...

Relying..
Trusting..
Letting go..

"For He spoke, and it was done; He commanded, and it stood fast."

Elijah and his fervant, one prayer, thru Him. Amazing power brought out thru his mouth thru this Word.) I pray.... One day if i can, let this kind of anointing of spoken Word come to pass in my life. 

But into e tabernacle i will go, and go again. Aft all, even if i dont have it, at e end, nothing else shld matter more than Him. 

Trust God, let go, rely on Him. (: 

#todayword
#stillonawonderfuljourney
& if anyone's still reading this space, i have messy thoughts so yup, sorry!

True-ness

I totally have no idea why im here typing this post at 1.04am when im suppose to be sleeping.

but yeah, really just want to make it a point to write down a short thought or something so this SOT trip, i will remember some stuff in case my memory fails me.

Every single day in SOT is really truly a day of grace. Someone who used to sleep like a pig, (12 to 13 plus hours a day), and then just nua-ing at home doing nothing, a person who shut out of the world cause of internship.. & now being in SOT, then work till 8pm, then 4-5 hours of sleep everyday, surviving and not sleeping in class, starting to open to the world again. All i can say, God You are good. (:

"To be lost in Your presence, and worship You in the Beauty of Your Holiness..."
- I pray...

Break the yoke

"Break e yoke and let the anointing flow."
So privilege tt Pst Troy stopped and said these words to me.

Was brought back to this dark place when i see this little girl emoing one corner crying so hard and there was this fear. Just quite surprise to see tt scene again.

Another new week witb new challenges but i pray, Holy Spirit have Your way. You're greater than anything, every thoughts that seem "wrong", take it into captivity. No longer my ways, let Your will be done. (Something we repeatly say, but its never ciche cuz every single day, there is this need to crucify the flesh even more.

"i love my bed,
Its where i lay my head
I love my bed
It where i get my rest..."

Sing it in how awesome is this plCe tune. Hahaha i think im a pretty good composer :p

Time for lalaland.

Because of fear of trusting in people, some people tend to hide their "true self" up and allow tt mask to be who they want to be instead of being e person they truly are.

Thinking of acceptance recently, not e only thing I'm thinking but this is just so impt.

Acceptance by others is important, but acceptance from self is e most impt between e both.

Another thing.. One day Elise came to tell me something tt hit me hard, so true. God moves and He does it in a very amazing way..

"Don't let anything cover your Joy."

Time to truly reflect myself in e mirror and change to be the (wo)man He wants me to be.

Still... What a privilege to be in the HoG.. :)
A "Today" word.

brand new journey

Every step I take You will lead me
With You I walk this raging sea

Can't explain how bless I am to be in SOT despite ya.

Every word Pst Kong and Pst Kevin spoke this week was so wow. Haven't felt like this in a longgggg time.

Like what Pst Kevin said about discomfort.
Some of us tend to stay in discomfort and slowly becuz of no reaction, this discomfort turns to a comfort zone. But it's a dangerous comfort zone. But becuz we lack that ability to cry out and ask for help and have tt discernment to ask for change, we are stuck in tt so called comfort zone.

So thankful Pst Kev shared this.
It just reminds...

Gonna start work tmr.
Worthless things can go one side for me.

Good 4.0 GPA, SOT BV, TL, members tt bless me so much, and today, a new job at Church office. All I can say, God You are so good...