Determined again

This time is yet another time i am so determined to go exercise. Seriously, the last time was like maybe i forgot when where i ran 3 times a week and then it's gone within that one week cuz i had no time and reached home late.

Weee, thank God it's holiday and i have been running on alternate days and quite consistent with my daily sit ups. :D The most determined one so far. Fiona was like saying, "aiyah will be gone soon one la", BUT PLS XY DONT.

Gym-ed, Suana-ed, Swim-ed today! & i think got lose quite a few calories right? but i kinda gain them back when big sissy and I baked cookies just now. When dajie was telling me how much calories the cookie had, i screamed. not good. not good.

& yeah, we played pool!! :D Long time since we went to Gracew's hs and did all these wooo things. This is why i love holidays and i love spending time w my Spaz. Just crapping and all, and time will just go by. That's what friends are for.

Thanks for today my dearest friends, Fiona Deanna Gracew Glorianne and my dearest sisters and mother. (: omg!!! it's girl's day! :D Love you girls!!! made my day! :D

&& this is random but, Thank you all for reading my blog.

There's so many different views of people on my blog, but yeah, i keep this blog alive because i am alive and this is the way i live. haha, & thank you for not judging me on the way i blog. (:

More pics from Marina Barrage, thanks Joelynn! :D
JINGYING, thanks for attempting to be my admirer, i think it didn't work when i checked the IP add. i'm smart (:
girllsss
Kittt~
Favourite girl! i still dk what you trying to do in this piccccc!!!!
Yeeeliang.

So end of story, i'm starting my....

Diet + Exercise = Fat Fit.

It's the DEF plan!!! :D no more fats!!!

& in every plan there must be a G factor in it, so this plan will work out fine! :D
So it's the DEFG plan!!!! :D

jy xy!

To be led

When we are to be led by someone, we put our full trust in that person, without doubting that person will bring us to destruction or any other bad things.

Had a very good day today, with Priya, then soul time w myself, then fellowship w Eileen Yanni and Jasmin and the others. Then Sing River w Jas Sarah Ting Gouwei.

woooo~

I really like what Weiren shared today! Like how to be led by the HS even more, & thank God for his msg. Had an awesome worship session today and Weiren shared about something so relevant that really bless me alot and so in season.

Sometimes we feel like our life is heading no where, you try to look to the future but you blank out. But this is our life, God can turn a blank paper to a paper which is painted so beautifully. When Weiren was talking about this, all i could see was just a rainbow, beautifully painted and i know my future is secured in His hands.

I think today God just wanna let me know, i shouldn't be so bothered with what others think, cause this will only cause insecurities to arise. I have a great future ahead, and everything will pass away except for this awesome Father of mine, all i wanna do is just to be happy. & i know exactly how to do it. To trust and believe.

Thanks Priya for today and assuring me too (:

& Thank you Weiren for the awesome bs, so blessed,

& Thank you Father.

When you get what you want

It’s so fluffy, I’m gonna die!

It’s so fluffehhhhhh!

One Life, One Love

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life, I lay at Your altar

One love, I have with You

Touch me again

Fill me as You hold

My outstretched hands

One word, You know I will follow

One heart, broken to You

Use me again

Your mercies follow me

For all my days

The one of the first few worship songs i know how to play on the guitar. & this song reminds me of Inspire camp Stronger, 2008. When i dont know much of Him yet.

Worship songs have this special thing of bringing you back to your past memories, and all the things you said or done. All the promises will be reminded thru one song. Either from Him or promises you made.

Sometimes when i look back, i really thank God. Just now when i was just watching Unriddle, there was this part which says:

I wanted to quit my police job because i'm so tired of doing the same things again and again, catching criminals & then new criminals will come out again. But he gave me his metal and said "i'm loaning you this medal, & one day if you get this medal, return me mine. & only then you can stop and quit this job.

Got reminded of God, every time we wanna give up, God is there saying, don't give up, cause you havent reached the top yet. Only when i reached the place i'm suppose to be, then i can quit.

Until then, dont quit.

Jy everyone, jy xy.

P.S. I RAN 4km plus today!!! :D Weee and i finally feel the strain. Gonna be another good workout on Thurs! :D

Dreams that fly

Looking at our kite thats flying. i like~uneven tan that idk when it will be gone.
Dreams that fly~
our kite
Singapore, my home.
i likey this picture~Taking off..
So pretty~ Credits to Jasmin.
Fireworks. (:

Train home.


Thank you guys for the awesome day~
cow for everything including the way back to mrt (:
gary for teaching how to fly a kite!
Jingying i love you!
Yeeliang! Praise God someone found your wallet! :D
Joel for organising the kite flying session! :D
Joelynn for suggesting the kite flying thing in the first place! :D
Jasmin for your awesome camera and uploading and tagging every single one of them (:
Kit for talking to me and running even when you dont want too! :D

I love my friends. (:
Including Kar & Josh!! :D

Brighter

Some are brighter, some are dimmer.
& when others are brighter,
some chooses to just dim off.

Which one are you?

When everything changes

Things don't last forever, and everything changes.

But when everything changes, He won't change.

Okay, cherry tomatoes are making my ulcers hurt.

Having a movie marathon with Jy today. I seriously seriously love our room, heee.

Went Marina Barage today, flew a kite first time in my life, and there's a time to pull it, a time to let go. Just like life, time to pull things close to you in case it falls, and time to let go of things so that when it gets so tight it will just snap. I got to learn this, but of cuz, i need the wind (the flow of the HS) to do the pulling and letting go, if not it will be a total failure.

I love Singapore, and this is the place i'm gonna stay. Thank God for a peaceful and prosperous nation for us to be in, and i really just pray it will stay like this and even better.

I really like fireworks, and i like the kites in the skies just now. Just by staring at it, it makes my day. (: Thank God for everything.

Fireworks are pretty, it sparkles alot, but it wont be there forever. Just like a lot of things. So God i pray everything in my life wont be just like a firework anymore, i don't like a one time boomz thing, but something permanent.

I think i'm quite a demanding person, haha, but if you know what i'm after, you wont think i'm that demanding.

Gift of assess to one's life is really precious, but when people give them to you, do you know they are actually giving this gift to you? Are you observance enough? or do you just turn them down?

& sometimes i think im a very difficult person to get along with. hahah joke.

Thoughts thoughts thoughts.

Gonna have pictures up soon, Thank you Jas & Joelynn for posting them up, & thank you Joel Yeeliang Weisiang Kit Karuna Jingying Joshua Joelynn Gary Jasmin for the awesome day! :D

God bless you guys! (:

Random stuff

=> I cannot talk/ speak properly (Thanks Jy for reminding me)

=> I cannot tell people properly how i feel due to the above reason + bad vocab

=> I hate conflicts.

=> I dont like public speaking unless necessary.

=> Sometimes i decide to blend in the crowd, i learned to do it in poly. woohoo.

=> I got sun burn on my ear & i peel it and it hurts

=> I got sun burn on my neck and it hurts too

Heeee. Tt's why i think i express myself best on blog, but not really.

Cause people might twist my words and feel that i'm another type of person.

World is so complicated.

Simple world with simple minds, i want it that way. (:

I need to focus more on the positive nowadays,

Jy knows why. If not i will seriously go crazy.

My running plan officially starts since i forget when, but it's time. Even if my legs turns all to muscles, i must do it!!!! yeah. but i pray not too ugly. TyJ.

Inside out of my soul cries out

Time seems to pass so fast.

I seem to like the feeling of staying home so much more, and the thing of not going out makes me happy. I feel i'm getting more anti-social serious. Not a good thing huh.

Maybe one day the quiet thing will totally suit me. hahaha. i rock seriously. :D

Had cgm today (awesomeeee, combined w W327 @ Rayvin's place), fellowship, came home and went for my run. & came home and nua-ed, dad's quotation. and on and on.

This is why i like holiday really.

Time to reflect what happened in this 2010, it seems to pass so quickly that idk what happened, but one thing i know, i grew up. Grew up and out of so many things. maybe i grown a little worse, but maybe a little better. contradicting. People come in my life and left it. Digging back of the past, and then healing the past hurts, and so on.

Best thing this year is really i grown closer to Him, better than last year and i know the years ahead, i will be so much closer.

We always need this love check, to check if we're loving our friends, family, classmates, everyone around us more. Cause if we're loving them more regardless of what they are doing to make us angry or not, it means we're growing healthily in the HS.

Love is the indicator.

Love....

Love love love

I really thank God for this season, where i can learn to love, in all areas.

He answered my prayer and in abundance. what an awesome service today, all about hope being anchor for our soul. Rmb all the times Jieying spoke about this word, and God's presence will just come during worship.

God is good. (:

Just remember about everything that happened during the interview all the way till we lost by half mark. we didn't lose, but we won. We won something that money cannot buy us, we won the love we have for each other. Love just flow into my heart when i sang, i know His purpose. heee.

I got burned thru out this 2 days, but at least it burned out something else. Glad to see all the stars and made new friends with the crew. Showbiz is not a place i wanna be for sure, all the things behind scene, no patience, hate the make ups and totally no interest w mixing around there... hahah, but for a one time experience, i dont mind.

Thank you Kelvin our best ZS for calling after the whole of the competition! :D

Thank God for everything.

Well, definitely an adversity, and i chose to believe in something that leads to bad consequences, but thank God for the disputes that changed my thinking. What a word in season.

All things work out good for those who love Him.

Love herrr! Asha Gill! Awesome lady!!
never gonna tie this hair again.
on the best w pornsak, camera crews and sentosa worker and Rose and family~
THANK YOU SANDRA FOR LOVING US AND TAKING GOOD GOOD CAREEE OF US!
& Pornsak, awesome host and person! :D
Awesome woman too, fierce but veryy niceee! :D

& so manyy others like Rose, Kenny the director, Chris the camera man, Damian the production manager, Bryan the internship, and others.... Awesome people in this showbiz. at least good memories. Thank God for them! :D

Cookoff

I think this competition is really the will of God, if not He would have answered my prayers from the start. & just nice, Chris agreed to let me change the day of counselling session. Is this God's will or what..

Okay so i concluded, all things really work out for those who love Him.

& i know this season is a season of building and restoring.

So many things to build this time...

& i experience so many new things too.

Time to replenish more of my sleep, slept for 4hours just now, tmr 5am must wake up alrdy. gosh... okay all the best tmr. :D

Show me Your heart.

God asked Jeremiah,

"Jeremiah what can you see?"

Twice He asked & Jeremiah responded what He wanted him to see.

God asked Moses,

"Moses what can you see?"

Twice too, He asked & Moses responded what He wanted him to see.

& the results are the same, God explains to them what they have seen.

He showed them His heart.

One day He will ask me too...

"Xinying what can you see?"

I wanna see what He wants me to see :D

& how awesome is it for Him to call you by name, when there's like millions of other ppl like you.

Going thru the motion

Every tears we cry builds us up.

Heee, i think i went thru a tough month last month, and now i'm managing well. i guess, but i know after praying and letting everything out, it's so woohoo.

My month just offically started and I'm starting on a good month now, August is gonna be a good month, then sept, then my favourite Oct.

Tmr's the family cookoff thingy, we pass and win, we get in semi finals. part of me wanna get in, another part doesn't. but oh well, it's my family, and i want what God wants us to get. In the end, it's not about the fame, the prize, but the experience and memories my family get together, and i will never forget this period of time, coping with so many things, project, filming, friends birthday and outings, church, and then so many stuff happened. lol.

It's not about why i wanna stress myself with so many things, i have a choice to let them go, but i choose to hold on to them, cause they are impt stuff to me. :D

Well, i guess during this time i learned how to cope with disappointments alrdy, but i know i will be tested in this area again, i haven't pass His test with A yet.

Got to wake up at 5am the latest tmr, reaching sentosa at 6.30am. So many first times this year.

So to those feeling suck-ish about your life, i feel it too. Life sucks at time, but we got to still live it for another 50 years? We're not even halfway, and we havent go thru the most terrible parts yet. Embrace life and let's get stronger tgt. We can all do it.

I love you Fionaaaaaaaaa!

Hope you see this! :D

HOLIDAY IS NEAR, but i have to complete my blaw first.

JYJY everyone. (:

Every tear is also captured in the bottle, He collects them.

You have placed eternity into my heart

that i like,

the sky...

the stars...

the rainbows...

the rain...

the sun...

the clouds...

Cause every time i look up to the sky, these things signifies so many things in my life.

Skies is the limit, nothing is impossible.

tired

I'm done with RWPS report and the Love relations ppt!

gosh, so tired, and i have like blaw to go, maybe i should do it tmr instead or else i cannot wake up tmr.

These few days are so tiring that i wanna take a breathe but i can't. One comes after another.Sometimes i feel like running away, but i really can't. there's projects to complete. you run, come on, gg. Then when it's so tiring already, then comes another few more shoutings and screamings after a good and peaceful time, wanting to just spend the time to complete the projects.

But yeah, another phase of life to learn, i guess this is what He wants me to learn this year. Really, idk how to conquer it, but God will give me the grace, i dont want to hate life, i want to embrace life.

"Everyone goes through a period of unknown... you think you know so much but in the end do you really know. It is just like how much you want it yet you know there is no way you can achieve it. Sometimes wouldn't life be much simpler if we try to seek the inner peace within ourselves? Cast away everything, sit down quietly and reflect, what is it that we really want. The pace of our life just keeps moving, time will not wait for anyone. But why is it that we keep using time as a yardstick, to tell ourself that this is the time to do this, to do that, if we don't hurry we are going to be late. All these constraints only make us become more and more unaware of ourselves..."

quote quote from Brother Lim. inner peace... i just want peace.

Thank God for brother lim on saturday and today. I feel that in this family, my character is the most similar like him. Thanks Brother for telling you love me when everything is not going right, your encouragements and things you share. & just walking w me even if i don't talk. I know you're not going thru a great time either, so let's go thru this tgt. (: i was just telling God a hug is what i need and then brother lim just hug me and tell me he care for me, just so touched, by him and Him.

I wanna be stronger, tears wont bring me down,

and live life smiling even if it's painful.

cause i know there's always someone there to tell me to 加油！

Sometimes all i need is just 2 words.

One thing i desire

Nothing compares to the Promise i have in You.

21 years going strong.

3 years and going on.

Blessed to be change.

Changed to be a blessing.