Unbeautiful

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Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz im only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

This song like emo, BUT Lesley Roy sang it so nicelyyyyyy!
Awesomee! if only i could sing as nice as her. heee.

Cause it was You and Me

Had an awesome day yesterday even though i have been like sick for one whole week plus already, but it will be gone soon in Jesus name! :D

School was okay, business law lecture was cancelled, end school at 5pm and met Boonz and Gouwei. Went to play Wii at Moberly. Omg and it was the first time there okay, so sua ku, but it was so fun! played guitar hero!! then Zon joined us!

Had dinner w boonz gw joel and zon and then we went to acoustic guitar jam. Zon's like super awesome la, pei fu ttm! So we arranged our sequence already! jamming tmr again i think. awesomeee.

& i spend the night yesterday watching this young boy play guitar. HE'S SUPER GOOOD.

haha & i was thinking and thinking, that maybe sometimes im wrong, or my mindset is wrong.

If i keep complaining, i miss out the good things in the world, and that's a tunnel something, and Manify & minimise mindset i learned from psychology yesterday.

Got to zoom out and zoom in on the better things of the world!

Thank God for angels around me!

I see people who could be so so happy all the time, so im striving to be a happier person! Cause happy people live longer and nothing makes them fall! :D

The Joy of the Lord is my strength!

So im going to enjoy school till 5pm AND HOME. yay!

Purity

Matthew 5:8 (NLT)
God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God.

Shared this verse for offering today. really amazing how God speaks through one verse, and how He can help me come out with a msg. wooo~ i think a clear mind thinks better, so i shouldnt stay up late. & kinda woke up late today. haha.

Anyway, pure = no impurities, not polluted.
A pure heart, one who is clear about what it wants to do with an innocent heart.

& all i want is just a pure heart who loves, without any motives, without any questions, without any doubts, to just love.

Cause with motives, questions and doubts, it become impure.

A pure heart, that's what i long for.
So God is able to bless me, and with a pure heart, i can see Him. (:

everyone needs someone

Learned from my love relations class, that it's true, everyone needs someone to be there. We're weak.

When we're down, we need someone to cheer us up. When we're happy, we need to share the joy. When we're clueless, we need someone for advice. When we're alone, we need someone to be there and say "Hi you're not alone."

We need emotional support, not just physical or mental support.

When 2 people fight, who will end off winning i dont know, but who will end off feeling emotion dried out is the one who don't have any emotion support.

We need people to be there after fights to tell us, "hey, everything's fine, you have me".

Not just comments that hey ya that person is wrong and in the end, you're still alone.

Everyone needs someone, but when i dont have anyone,

please dont cast me aside God.

I need you.

do you know..

*i dont look tt bad when im sick, hoho glory of God. cheyyy~

helloo!!

Had an awesome time with my Spastics yesterday, missed them so much and havent seen them ever since like impression x! :( so sorry guys. Had a good catch up time in macs but ruined by a couple, too much show to show. Heehee. ask & i will share, too ahem. Haha.

Sometimes i really wish i was in TP, but nvm la, this is already my 2nd year, no use regretting also. Haha.

Caught the iron man 2 and that REYNA was being so mean the whole day, she told me we watching shuttle island, then i entered the room, and eh reyna wrong hall iszit? Then i look at the ticket, i realise reyna lied to me. REYNA, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH U KNOW then u treat me like this!! :( Heehee jjoking!

Actually i cant see what i typed, believe it will be abit messy and weird. Haha.

So many things happening but ya, all will be well!
Guess i wont head to yew tee today cuz i feel sick, been sick the whole week, not very good, fever flu headache pls all be gone!!

Im just typing and typing cuz im kinda bored. Haha, nvm byebye!!! :D

#701

Sick makes me feel sick, but im not very sick but sick.

heehee = my new word, my favorite new word.

Guess im staying home today to rest, PLS i pray for a good rest at home, really!

Today's Wed and i havent been in school on monday and tuesday for a short while, think my friends think i mia or even pon, but i never okay!!! i really need a rest.

I guess too much scoldings also not good hor, makes you super peh chek ttm.

Unity is so so so so (x100000000...) important.

Unity in a family, unity in a relationship, unity in cellgroup, unity in friendships, unity in class, unity in your cells so you wont be sick and basically everything else.

If there's unity, you wont feel that you will lose things easily, rather than one where there's no unity. Even when everything is so nice, but no unity, makes me feel i will lost it. I need unity in everywhere, everywhere that i can see, so that even when i close my eyes, i know it's there and i dont need to fear. heehee.

CAUSE YOU'RE EVERYWHERE TO MEEEEEE.

okay life updates, I THINK EVERYONE IS BORED READING MEANINGLESS WORDS ALL THE TIME. SORRY FOR MAKING YOU SUFFER UNDER THIS WEIRD LITTLE, NOT MAKING ANY SENSE BLOG.

Me boonz Gouwei Samuel and idk still have who are joining the Battle of Bands for SP! coolzo, i dont even think my school people know i can sing, cause i hardly voice out. i think they think that i have a terrible voice, seriously. Chewy's joining too! woohoo~ just coolz.

but Seriously, i will give up anything, everything just to see unity in the various things/aspects i want in my life. Even my life. heehee, like so serious, but ya. Maybe im not so impt and as long as i'm able to sacrifice, and it makes ppl happier, let it be.

I speak unity into these dry bones.

UNITY.

okay this is my boring life, i will try to make it exciting.

Just waittttttttttttttt.

CAUSE IT'S YOU AND ME AGAINST THE WORLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

-We're singing Everywhere & Against the world for audition.

- Meeting the Spaz tmr. :D

- I NEED REST

- I dislike flu and fever.

- UNITY

- BYE.

Happy 700th post!

When everything gets mixed together into a whole bowl of salad, but the combination's disgusting, do we still eat it, or throw it away?

Heard so much from mama today, not updated with family news, like you know straits time got social, economy and all, just dont have Lim family news, but today i update myself with Lim news. haha.

Suppose to be a rest day at home to recover from my illness, hah but not so of a rest day. so i decided to just stay in the room and caught 2 movies! "Dear John" and "The Proposal". niceeeee.

ALL THE TIME, people will say "Aiyah you wont understand, my problem is so big, much bigger than yours, you wont understand.", & think the other person dont have problems at all. A big problem still problem, small problem also problem.

Everyone have problems, either their life or with people. But in the end it's just how we deal with it, we play a part to solve that problem, if you dont even want to solve this problem in the first place, you won't be able to. Applies to everythinggggg. But God is much bigger than all the problem i have. I trust Him.

Sometimes i feel like im drifting away from so many things. Maybe my life boat too excited to swim/row awat when my boat havent sank yet.

Dajie kinda dyed my hair for me, and my hair is like super dry already. :( nvm i think colour nice. haha. school tmr!! :D

pampered

When everyone in the world is treating you very well and not scolding you and all, we land ourselves in a place where everything is too comfortable.

& sometimes when we're too comfortable, we think we're right all the times when we're not.

Time not to be too comfortable, cause it's time to learn my lesson of life and leave my comfort zone.

It's time to learn something newer and grow in my maturity.

Dont be a kid xy. Change my mindset!!

okay, i have like 5 people asking me to go sleep now.

Fever be gone! woo~

different attitude

Currently in church now, like since 10 plus like that.

I ENDED SCHOOL AT 9AM!!!!!! :(

Even though im abit bored but im not tt bored, cause hee, church is a nice church to be in. It's not just like any cca club room where you can slack there, but it alot more of love and more reasons. That's why i love this place so so much, that even when im alone, i think it cool.

This week seems super long yet super short, like super cool, tired physically yet not tired spiritually/mentally.

Have been praying about our promised land, and felt like all of the members are like the children of Israel now, having a leader like PK a.k.a Moses to lead us there. But one thing different we should be, we should have a different attitude from the children of Israel.

We are reliving History! forgot who told me that.

This week is an awesome week!

& I conquered this week with a breakthrough! :D

Even though idk what breakthrough it is, but i felt it. Gonna keep praying yo and breaking the layers of walls! Gonna carry on the good work with the essence of the HS and not by myself! :D

One more thing!!! Inspired by lectuer!

Things that repeats and repeats is not duplication but reinforcement.

beyond these walls

I think PM today was quite a breakthrough for me, like i kinda felt it. heee, idk what kind but just very relax.

Tmr's my 3rd day, im facing the fasting rejection symtoms, which is not very good. But yeah i will emerge strong after this 5 or 7 days. :D

Sometimes I think that some things are only temporary, that when people love you, it is temporary. Their love will kinda fade off one day after a while and they no longer love you and they don't talk to you after a period of time and decided to find others or even leave you. & like nothing will stay for long.

I believe like some of us think this way too.

But i came to know, His love is eternal, I dont need to fear, i dont need to be scared one day i will lose my best friend. Cause He gave His promise.

Things in the past caused us to have negative thoughts,
but His Words overwrites them and gave us Hope.

In Your Hands

currently in school now, finish gems and i think it's fun!
Except tt i got a shock and me and bizhew dont dare to enter the classroom cause we thought we entered the wrong class. There's like super alot of guys in Love Relations la.

Anyways, this week is the week of PM! So exciting but i cannot make it for morning's. Haha but it will be fun at jw evening one!! Pray & Fast!!

Others might not understand our passion but as long as we know whatt we're doing and it's right, this is what it matters.

In the end' it's not about what we get' but WHO we get. :)

Focus focus focus

i really really really like this picture alot.

Maybe cause of the rainbow. haha.

I remember the 1st opm, after Kelvin laid hands, i saw a pretty rainbow over the mountain.

So stars & rainbows are really really the promises of God in my life :D

hee, i pray mum & dad's trip overseas is going to be awesome & sweet, while they are gone, me and jy is going to take over their room. AND JY'S POSITION OF SLEEPING IS SO WEIRD. okay and i turn 360 degrees cause of her.

Yesterday during P&W, i realise something i got to do. School is starting tmr, start of SP pm. It's the starting of God's project! Wooo~

Promises of God, i press in.

Focus focus focus.

Who knows what will happen in the future, but our hands play a part in everything we do. We hold the future in our hands. So now focus on the right things, and future the others. God's in charge. (:

START OF MORNING PM TMR.
BREAKTHROUGH AGAIN!!!!!! :D

You

Just watched "How to train a Dragon", it's super coolz!

& this line hits me, "You don't have to be somebody person, just be yourself."

Hah, many times we try so hard to be some other person we're not, and in the end, while trying to do so, we screw up our own lives. What if we just live to be ourselves, the way we're happy with, without hurting ourselves, without pleasing people around us, wouldn't it be better?

One day someone will just like you for who you are, instead of who you're acting to be.

God-made things last, but man-made things will just fall after a period of time.

We should be who we are in the inside, rather than being who we aren't on the outside.

Went Jasmin's house today and had fun man. Sinful snacking day also la. haha.

Thanks for your filled-with-love dinner today! :D

Sometimes everything becomes a routine that if we don't do it a day, we will miss it. But does missing it means liking it? Depends. haha. :D

one day at st hilda's!

can't wait for svc manzxz. gonna be awesome.

P.S. I still need an answer. haha.

Joy

Had this woman talk with mum today. So glad she shares things with me. (:
I really look up to her so much. She sacrifice so much,tough but she continued walking. She's the strongest woman i know, really. But i know in her eyes, i see tt she's tired but she's still full of love. She's willing to accept all this sucky stuff and move on.

She says, love makes you hold on but on the other hand, because you love so much, it would let you let go of it.

She's the bestest mum i could ever find, and i should start treasuring her even more. Thank God for this God-given mum. & Thank God for answering this very prayer of mine. Time to play my part already. God move & I will move.

The Joy of the Lord is my strength, not gonna let the devil steal any joy from my face, i am made to be happy, to bring joy.

When I'm happy, i have strength.

So i'm gonna smile and face whatever crap i have in the future. :D

Had this very interesting time finding all the theology stuff and finding out the parables. I'm heading on to the NT soon, and read back all the things i wasn't serious in reading in the past. Amazing how God builds things.

Just chill, gonna be okay

Awesome chilling, nothing but just chilling.

Went school, thought i was being ps again at school but thank you Joel for coming down for lunch! then went off with Nadia and Sharina to help Mrs Loh! wooo, i like the cards i designedd!! :D

Then met Gouwei and headed to Dhoby for lunch/dinner at KFC, waited for others to come and headed to Timbre.

PK said once it's okay for Christians to drink but not to get drunk, hee, im not drunk (: We went timbre @ Old School and omg, the singer & guitarist ask me to go up the stage and sing & i did. SO PAISEH! nvm, what an experience manzxz!

Love the chilling, and love the talking, opened my whole mindset once again, sometimes it's just good to listen to what others say. I saw this tweet today, "Angels use our mouth to speak" or something like tt. Thanks Sarah & Eileen!! :D

Been a long time since i just let down and chill, and today was just a simple teenager life, who say we can't be normal people in the world? All of us are people in this weird little world, EXCEPT we have this AWESOME God with us.

Gonna let God take charge.

I already laid down all, and to mean lay down all, means even if bad things happen in future, i will still trust Him & let everything go by His plan.

I am weak BUT He gives me the strength to be strong.

BS L10 TMRRRRRRR. Time fliesssss~

Timbre!!
up this long stairs which is crazyyy!
awesome guitarist!!
girlsss!
love them!
niceeee~

All in All.

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

You're my All in All.

All in All.

Everything in Everything.

Had this super encouraging dream, a Godly man spoke to me in my dream. super encouraging really.

You always win all my matches.

Makes me doubt bout myself and do i really win? But yeah, I need to clear my doubts and start believing that i have a great future. Maybe this is my Rhema word for the season.

& i will Keep on keeping on like what Kenrick always say.

I like time on Mrts alone. So peaceful and even more peaceful when my phone a little quiet-er. One day if i am free, i would just spend my time alone at the beach, walking, enjoying the breeze, chilling and have a break from this busy & crazy world. (:

Talking bout it, i havent go my ECP alone yet. :( and holiday's ending.

& Sometimes all it takes is just one person to concern. Just one. and one will be happy enough.

But... it's okay. (:

That's why i got to learn,

You're more than enough for me.

at your name

At your name I know the heartache is over,
I know the rest tt I seek is at the cross.

U fit was amazing thanks to Huimei and Chowtee & the other wonderful leaders!!!
Good job DGs!! U guys were amazing esp during the all star match!

Every fall leds us higher, I should totally change my mindset! Everytime I fall, He would be there to pick me. Be strong!!

I prophesy to these dry bones, breath life.
Speak to the mountain and it shall be plain!!
I am weak but He is Strong!:D

Thanks JieYing and Rayvin for blessing! Love this lovely couple, God bless them.

& LOVE JIEYING ALOT, THANKS JIEYING! & THANK YOU GOD! :D

Fall

Today i had a very unglam fall, and i fell in front of the church cleaner and i guess i fell super unglamly. was in a skirt. ahhhh and heels.

I found out a bad habit yesterday and today i cfm it

Whenever i fall, i will start to stand up again and show that im okay, but it is only at the later part, i realise it hurts and start to regret.

Everyone needs a listening ear, but when will we ever get one?

Not emoing, hah.
Tmr's Ufit, first time doing something bigger and thank you Huimei for trusting me!

Need more of the HS.

& Im so happy, cause God is really for me. Gave HS bs yesterday and didnt managed to pray for xinyi for baptism of HS, and today PK gave an alter call for this baptism, and xy responded and yayyy!

Journey

Travelling time is like Waiting time. We got to wait and move at the same time to reach our next destination/transition.

Anyway been busy and also hearing lots of stuff from around me.

Life gets tough when we hit certain points, and when we hit that wall where we're suppose to break, it just feels so so hard to breakthrough that wall. & Sometimes we just feel like sticking to that wall, and lean on it, do whatever we can just to slack and not break it, because we're getting lazy & sian to break that wall we're suppose to walk through and stay that position for super long.

We just go with the flow.

Just felt that maybe instead of being lazy and sian, we can break through it. Break it with whatever strength we have, with the best that we can. At least we know this, even if this wall doesn't break, we tried our best to do something.

Ain't you tired of the walls? Break down the walls!

Who knows if you try it will.

Situation seems stupid, breakthrough with whatever strength you have.

People seems retarded, breakthrough by the love you can give to other.

Life seems useless, breakthrough by starting to find back the purpose you started with or better a new vision.

I guess we got to try first right?

& live with no regrets instead of sticking around. haha, JIA YOU! :D

Travelling time, we're moving and waiting to the next point of life.

Let's continue to move! :D

Anyways,

1) Went school for nothing today. But nvm, no use whining. haha. Thank God for tt teacher too, she's nice.

2) Headed back to Tamp, made cards, met Deborah, Ashley, Nicole, Char, Jy with Boon.

3) Headed home to do Ufit stuff.

4) Headed to Yew Tee with JY but on the way realise no BS guide. *panick*

5) Met Kenrick for BS guide, THANKKS RICKRICK!

6) Met Chung and Gary, talk talk and headed for BS.

7) I love the Holy Spirit BS!

8) Slack with suck thumb! LOL.

9) Talking session with JY, she never fails to surprise me. :D

10) HOME.

Need my rest.

ah lian on train.

Everything may falls but He doesn't

Today was super tiring yet fun!

Went out with Dearest Bizhew at Orchard, walked around to find far east and took super long. LOL. and went Causeway point to watch Movie. Date Night, super good!

Thanks Bizhew!

Came home and thought i could relax a little while, haha, but had to do stuff. Thanks Joel for helping so i could end off earlier. (:

Tmr gonnna be a Busy day again!
Meeting in SP, Go back SHSS, Bs at Yew Tee, meet chung and friends and HOME SWEET HOME.

& followed by a busy weekend, and then FOP week!
God expand my capacity!

OH and i had this dream, so real, so fairytale, but it became a little funny in the end. but the beginning was so nice, if dreams became real. I dont mind if this dream became real, except for one part i was smoking and lost my voice (SO RANDOM, it would nv happen).

On the other hand, things getting a little chaotic, more people knows already, hah, at least we can share the misery.

NONO, wrong mindset, i pray for a miracle to happen, i dont want everything to break. One of the shadow that haunt me since young, i pray it will be broken!!!

Not gonna let this shadow haunt me.

Even when the world is falling and fading away, i will still place my all at Your hands.

Goodnight world, im gonna break this sleep late thingy.
SCHOOL'S STARTING!!!!!