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我願意為你　
我願意為你 我願意為你　
忘記我姓名 就算多一秒　
停留在你懷裡 失去世界也不可惜

Always had this wild dream since young... but oh well... i shall see where God leads.

When the 3 Taiwanese went up stage during service today, what truly touched me was the pure motive, pure heart behind that performance (other than their voices and guitar and keyboard *heart melts*). A heart to glorify, using their talents. & becuz of obedience, lives spring forth...

Even if it means discomfort, even if it means you got attacked right, left front, back.. 我願意為你..

Was thinking about depth-ness this morning.
Rather than just a superficial level of relationship, it is truly what had gone deep within that maintains the relationship. Not just only on the surface. but depths... Seek for depths, not just the things on the surface,

try to figure out what im saying if you dont understand. hahaha.

it's 4.11am btw, and im amazed im alive.
Back to my thoughts.

"Vision that moves away from myself..."

Preparation to REAL day of R&D

Bear with the spamming of pics.
Anyway this blog is for memory sake anyways...
PICTURES OF R&D wedding! Blessed to be under both this 2 leaders, but all pictures not posted up yet.. :( So bless

actually i do have small eyes. hahahaha.

Pretty Jieying who got married!

Pretty gals in W524!

BLESSED 

super act cute :p

Awesome company at the table...

the muso!

My pretty girls!

Eileen and Yannni. Blessed to have friends like them!

Genting peopleeeee

my camwhore partner for the day. GARY NEO

happy family! One of the future wedding im gonna attend. i shall wait and compare this pic w the future! i prayyyyyyyy. :)

Pictures in SOT so far...

Just for memory sake.. These are the pictures taken with my beloved team and friends. Thank God for every moment with them! :) Esp my team, to bear with my broken chinese, gosh.... if im them, i will be complaining, yet thank God they embrace. i count myself blessed.... (:

Many nights i pray..

Finally i can say bye or zai jian to M. orchestra for a while and get back part of my life. Really feel like super _________(cant find e word).

But it is a privilege to serve on Suntec stage. Look around the stage and hall today while i was playing and i realise e beauty. Love truly covers all.. So amazing at that moment the music plays and you hear e symphony of music and singimg blending and complementing one another. I guess heaven's gonna be super beautiful..

Okay, so i need somewhere to rant this.
Was carrying a tenor saxophone tt weights 6-8kg. 2.4kg laptop. 5kg of my heavy bag plus this smal paper bag. I was strugglimg so hard just to get back home. Soooooo heavy and i was seriously breaking, plus makeup & wearing a dress doesnt help at all.

Situations like this, i will pray for an angel to pop out to help me. But theres none, so i know i gotta do it. But what doesnt kills me make me stronger, go a little higher.

Just a 'heavy' trip home and i feel so much alrdy.
By Abba's love, 1 more week. All things are possible. His grace is sufficient.
Total reliance on You.. But of cuz w wisdom.

peaceeeeeee

One day, just one day.

i need my visit to the beach and listen to the breeze and waves... 

Just to chill.... 

W/o distractions from any other places, people or whatsoever. 

Always just good to have a getaway. 

and i think it's really cool just to travel alone overseas. 

NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6AM TMR. 

Xy go to sleep now. bye. bye. bye. bye. bye. bye. 

& old song....

Rely, trust, let God...

Relying..
Trusting..
Letting go..

"For He spoke, and it was done; He commanded, and it stood fast."

Elijah and his fervant, one prayer, thru Him. Amazing power brought out thru his mouth thru this Word.) I pray.... One day if i can, let this kind of anointing of spoken Word come to pass in my life. 

But into e tabernacle i will go, and go again. Aft all, even if i dont have it, at e end, nothing else shld matter more than Him. 

Trust God, let go, rely on Him. (: 

#todayword
#stillonawonderfuljourney
& if anyone's still reading this space, i have messy thoughts so yup, sorry!

True-ness

I totally have no idea why im here typing this post at 1.04am when im suppose to be sleeping.

but yeah, really just want to make it a point to write down a short thought or something so this SOT trip, i will remember some stuff in case my memory fails me.

Every single day in SOT is really truly a day of grace. Someone who used to sleep like a pig, (12 to 13 plus hours a day), and then just nua-ing at home doing nothing, a person who shut out of the world cause of internship.. & now being in SOT, then work till 8pm, then 4-5 hours of sleep everyday, surviving and not sleeping in class, starting to open to the world again. All i can say, God You are good. (:

"To be lost in Your presence, and worship You in the Beauty of Your Holiness..."
- I pray...

Break the yoke

"Break e yoke and let the anointing flow."
So privilege tt Pst Troy stopped and said these words to me.

Was brought back to this dark place when i see this little girl emoing one corner crying so hard and there was this fear. Just quite surprise to see tt scene again.

Another new week witb new challenges but i pray, Holy Spirit have Your way. You're greater than anything, every thoughts that seem "wrong", take it into captivity. No longer my ways, let Your will be done. (Something we repeatly say, but its never ciche cuz every single day, there is this need to crucify the flesh even more.

"i love my bed,
Its where i lay my head
I love my bed
It where i get my rest..."

Sing it in how awesome is this plCe tune. Hahaha i think im a pretty good composer :p

Time for lalaland.

Because of fear of trusting in people, some people tend to hide their "true self" up and allow tt mask to be who they want to be instead of being e person they truly are.

Thinking of acceptance recently, not e only thing I'm thinking but this is just so impt.

Acceptance by others is important, but acceptance from self is e most impt between e both.

Another thing.. One day Elise came to tell me something tt hit me hard, so true. God moves and He does it in a very amazing way..

"Don't let anything cover your Joy."

Time to truly reflect myself in e mirror and change to be the (wo)man He wants me to be.

Still... What a privilege to be in the HoG.. :)
A "Today" word.

brand new journey

Every step I take You will lead me
With You I walk this raging sea

Can't explain how bless I am to be in SOT despite ya.

Every word Pst Kong and Pst Kevin spoke this week was so wow. Haven't felt like this in a longgggg time.

Like what Pst Kevin said about discomfort.
Some of us tend to stay in discomfort and slowly becuz of no reaction, this discomfort turns to a comfort zone. But it's a dangerous comfort zone. But becuz we lack that ability to cry out and ask for help and have tt discernment to ask for change, we are stuck in tt so called comfort zone.

So thankful Pst Kev shared this.
It just reminds...

Gonna start work tmr.
Worthless things can go one side for me.

Good 4.0 GPA, SOT BV, TL, members tt bless me so much, and today, a new job at Church office. All I can say, God You are so good...

Come come come to the river

Heart just filled to overflow today.

Very very awesome service with Pst Bill Johnson today. What an awesome word, and everything is so in season.

Just told the truth jin tian, and the reaction/respond wasnt tt bad i guess.
I believe God is good. He is and He will forever :D

Focus during this SOT.
Focus, because it's not easy to get into my dream.
OH AND I GOT IN SOT BV!


PTL. God is good.... Praying for His calling to truly reveal in my life... (:

God's grace

Rlly by His grace the whole day.

Started with a "Wah you look very tired" from Hongyun today and then suddenly it hit me. Why am i tired when i am to rejoice in the house of God. At that moment i realise i need to change to the start of the day.

P&W was so awesome. Praising God everyday is not a chore but really a delight. People say when students go to SOT, they tend to be flakey. but i pray let this love not turn into something hypocritical but a love that is true, becoming more like Christ Himself.

Back to today, the whole day i didnt feel sleepy, and theology is so fun. SOT BV audition and i was like woah, 50 plus to 70 people joined the audition. Didnt practise the key in such a high tone until we went in for first round audition and it was like SO HIGH. but there was this grace that covers and helped with my weakness of high key. At that moment all i can say is God is good...

Managed to go thru 2nd round without screwing parts and melody up, and really... All by His grace.

But now, aft this, it's time for a change of prayer.
Father, i pray you guard my heart above all. An empty vessel for you to move and not my own filled vessel moving for myself.

Speaking and confessing, my breakthru is coming!
& i know it is!

Privilege

What a privilege..
But yet a time of expansion.

Thank you Abba Father for the chance, and this SOT im gonna be so expanded!
GO TEAM 10! Go xyyyy!

I will rise

"& i will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow
No more pain"

SOT's tmr.. and i'm really excited yet, a fear inside in me.
Abba Father is gonna lead me through and I know it.

Good news is that im a TL, but bad news is Weiyang Emily Schuman Gary all is too. That means all of us will be separated. But it's really gonna be a time of stretching and expanding of capacity.

I know before the start of every new breakthru, the devil will come and pull me down. But no fever, no flu, no running nose is gonna take me down this SOT. i am gonna rise this 7 months.

I want to be different and i want to be changed into a different xy. No longer I but Christ...
This is someting i really am looking forward to and i am enjoy the rest of it.
Jesus, take the wheel and lead me only as u can.. (:

Genting shots & Group pictures

Really love this picture alot cause it shows my love for strawberries! Just for memory here, all the nice few pics and group shots and "DP potential pic" of everyone 

Really think some of these pictures are so nice and picture worthy to be especially my strawberrty and except my zilian pics! *BHB*
but good trip out of Singapore and how time flies... Last Monday was my first day there and now im home. okay actually i love home more. :p