You are good

Lion

Saw a face of a lion in a vision on Leader's meeting night.. and decided to google it.

LION--These distinctive living creatures evidently highlight specific godly qualities. First, there is the lion. A lion is used in the Bible as a symbol of courage, especially in the pursuit of justice and righteousness. (2 Samuel 17:10; Proverbs 28:1) Thus, the lion well represents the godly quality of courageous justice. (Deuteronomy 32:4; Psalm 89:14)

Courageous justice...
God You reign over us. :)

Courageous justice...

When the stage is bare tonight

Going through the motions doesn't please You, 
A flawless performance is nothing to You. 
I learned God-worship when my pride was shattered. 
Heart-shattered lives ready for love don't for a moment escape God's notice.
Ps 51:16-17(MSG)

Captivated

All time favourite worship song.
Above all else, let the most important thing take place in my life.

Random thought

Realise something, when i wanted it so much, i didnt get it.
But then, when i was half considering it and didnt really want it, i got it.

Sometimes, God, You work in a way i really dont understand, but thats why You are God :)

Reminds me of what Paul said  about what PK said about Dr Cho recently, don't come looking for me, i will look for you when the time is here.

Race of Life

This race of life is not a competition with others, but a competition with self. To keep going forward. 

Why should i bother and compare myself with others, about where they are going, what they are doing, when all i should bother about is, am i living the right way, am i reaching my fullest potential where He placed me at? 

This race is not a competition to see how fast people run, but about how far i can go. But the thing is that, never think that i have reached. 

Time to take a new step. Out... 

Something more...

It's You I adore..
And all I want
Is to sit at Your Feet
Nothing more...

Was listening to podcast just now and I realise, we may listen to the same message again and again, but every time we listen to it, there is something more again. Not just about the words, but it's really about the substances behind them. one day i will carry that certain substance. Not there yet, but really i pray, on the way..

Something i really exclaimed during Staff Devotion this Tuesday, God bring it to pass i pray. Dont wanna do this alone. But its time to rise up, in my spirit.

Rising up never really meant being a CGL, a worship leader etc, but rising up means to rise up in the spirit, able to contain more...

God orders it, He will pay for it.
Time to be wise in all my planning, but Jesus, You direct.. :)

"Worshipers are Trained-Born giant killers"
Pst Bill Johnson

The end of the chapter is the start of a new chapter

2 Samuel 22:21-25(MSG)
God made my life complete
when I placed all the pieces before him.
When I cleaned up my act,
he gave me a fresh start.
Indeed, I’ve kept alert to God’s ways;
I haven’t taken God for granted.
Every day I review the ways he works,
I try not to miss a trick.
I feel put back together,
and I’m watching my step.
God rewrote the text of my life
when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.

I really count myself very blessed to be able to work fulltime in church. Like if i were to really count, who gets to wok in church full time when you're only 19, and going 20, i dont see alot yet... i was given this opportunity, this chance to be able to serve.

Working in church's really not about the money, really not able being able to see those high profile ppl in church and all... but it's really able being able to be working in the Presence of God every day.

Really a privilege, really an honor.. :)

& Really, if i were to look back on this 19th chapter of my life, i couldnt ask for more..
Going through SOT, working in church, and finding a good friend.. God You are good, really good.

Entering into the next chapter of my life, and i pray... God you come into my life even more.. Rewrite my text of my life.. when i open my other pages of my book to your eyes... (:

24092012

Thank you for who you are :)

Start of a new journey & i know it's not gonna be easy for us to walk down tgt, but everything into our Father's hands. 

PS, i love you. 

Hahaha (inside joke)

I Adore You

Your perfect love hung on a cross
You paid the price For my life
I long to know... Jesus my Saviour.

7 months of SOT seems like a blink of an eye
Can't believe it's really over.

But at the end of it, Let me never forget Your Presence, never let me forget the Holy Spirit...

At the beginning, at the end, at the next beginning again,
Let me never lose sight...

Prayer...

Reserve the sound of your voice for other people. God hears only what's in your heart.

Prayer is real only when done with your whole heart.

Life as it is..

7 months of SOT's coming to an end in another 2 more weeks..
Bitter and sweet feeling for it to come to an end.. but i know the end of SOT is the beginning of something more..

Long but yet short 7 months, shows a glimpse of how life is going to be in the future. Bitter yet sweet, heartbreaks but sweet.. Dreams that died, dreams that resurrected.. Far away yet closer..

But at the end of it all, i know what i truly want.
Maturity is shown when you are given responsibility.. Sometimes i guess i need to grow up real quick, but sometimes i really dont want to grow up.. Sometimes i feel like i want to stay in my comfort zone, but sometimes i feel its not right to stay comfortable if i want to move on in life.

Where Your Presence is, i want to follow.. i want to go closer, deeper.

I want to do so much more after SOT.
SOT's just a break for me, but after this, its time to go full gear, time to do more.. Not by my own strength, own might, own talents, but by Your Spirit..

For other SOT students, these 7 months may be a time of serving, of breakthrus, of opportunities, but for me  its a time of rest, a time of restoration.

More of you God..
It's time to move on, move out of this comfort zone...

Looking forward to greater things even though i want to stay.
But where Your Cloud is, i will follow, i will move.
Go XY!

Your Love it knows no end

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try to fix you

Thinking of ways to phrase my words.
But everytime i try to type something, it doesn't seem right.

What happens when you have a very very heavy heart, and you just wanna smash it into million smaller pieces so it will just become lighter? dont like this feeling...

Going into a phrase of life and being shown new things doesn't mean God have changed. It just means, God is a good God and He wants to bring us to a brand new level.

Believing in this.
MOVE ON XY.
MOVE ON.....

but before this..
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Holding on...

Other can,
 I can't.

 Other have,
 i might not have,
 but i have something greater than that.

 Still i will hold on,
 to something greater,
 something stronger.

 Cause i'm more than this.
 with Him... (:

Something more, something more, something more than this....

Time

 Was thinking about Time yesterday...

 It's really not about the quantity of time that we have then we are able to be productive, but it is the quality.. 24 hours in the day and we find ourselves being limited. We can have lesser sleep to have more time but that's not the main point. the point is, what are we doing with our time that we have, is it quality-ly used.

& it's not about how long you known someone, but how much time you quality-ly used to know someone. & it's not about how long you have been in church, then it means you are of a "good quality" 

What determines a relationship is not about the quantity of time spent tgt, but quality time..

Quality = how many percent you put your effort in
Quality is not Quantity.

Feels like its back to business studying about some organisation. but really, everyone dont have alot of time.. but i really want to make full use of my time, quality-ly.

 quality-ly = a new word i made.

There's a fire that burns in me..

Back to quality time with You.
Making full use of the time that's passing by so quick..
Dont wanna waste it anymore.


Placing everything back on the Altar.. 

here and there

Red
Orange
Yellow
Green
Blue
Indigo
Violet

Sometimes i wonder why rainbow doesn't have purple... but i realise actually indigo and violet is somewhat purple, but its not purple. but i still like the shades of it. So its quite confusing to actually differentiate purple indigo and violet.

SOT's ending in another 2 more months, and i want it to end but dont really want it to end.
Soaking everyday in the presence of God, but yet somedays feeling so tired in class.
Friends i made them, but yet things i got to go through.. Balance... not bad not bad.
Weeks ago, Dr AR Bernard was just saying, we cannot say no one understands, because really He's our support system, He understands...

Breaking of this bottle, breaking of the oil. breaking of this stone, of this heart. sometimes i just wanna go thru all at once, but dont think i am that strong to go thru all at once. But seriously, its time to end SOT to head out to the world and do something greater.

SOT's really not the end, its just the beginning. Really cant wait yet reluctant...
Gosh, it's just a here and there thingy. something i want, yet i dont want.
GOT TO BE DECISIVE YO.

But above all...
I know He have a greater plan. (:

Okay, better leave office soon.


Give me hope
Give me Your hand
Lead me to the highest rock... 

I look to You..

 As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I'm lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I've been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong


I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

About to lose my breath
There's no more fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm gonna make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you
I look to you
And when all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

My levee's have broken, my walls have come
Crumbling down on me
The rain is falling, defeat is calling
I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle
I need you, shine on me

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength has gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

I look to you
I look to you




After all my strength is gone, in You i can be strong.. 

ALL IN 1 WEEK

THINGS TO COMPLETE:
Read:
Surprised by the HS
○You the Leader○
They shall Expel Demon○

Do Book Reviews:
Surprised by the HS○You the Leader○
They shall Expel Demon○
Write:10 Sermons ○

Mission Trip
Plannings for all the 5 Meetings:
Praise & Worship
Who's gonna preach
Drama
Visitation

WORK - 25 HOURS

GOD EXPAND MY CAPACITY I PRAY.

Not gonna fall sick, not gonna fall down the stairs again.
Little sleep but lots of grace.
AMEN.

Time to grab all my time now. STOP SLACKING XY.

Cause there's something in You

Very very nice song i heard while working in the Finance Dept.
& now sitting at new dept, having my own space, own personal time. Just so peaceful and nice..

Haven't been alone for a long time, sitting down, just thinking and breathing..
Just to breathe and catch up with my thought... makes me feel happier.

What you may see on the surface, might not be how it is.

Time to really catch up with myself.
& it may sound stupid, but it's true some of us can forget spending time with ourself and we get so caught up in doing things that we forgot what we truly want. & if we're too busy to even catch up with ourself, what makes you think you're catching up with God.

Time to catch up with myself, and catch up with God.. Back to walking with You. Not just standing or sitting, but to continue walking..