Actually i realise i have been very selfish.
i keep wanting something to happen yet i do not spend time to achieve my aim.
i keep wanting to have a closer friend, a closer relationship with God yet i do not spend alot alot of time with God and people. I actually expect people to come to me and go my way, how selfish can i be?
I feel so selfish, and i realise i have been like one person alone for like maybe out of 24 hours, 7 hours of sleep, alone. 4 hours of travelling, alone. more to count in, im alone. because of selfishness, it leads to many negative things.
I decided to change, really change. No longer selling fish, but i sell lesser fish. (trying to be funny, nvm.) But i must really change.
There's one complicated dream that has been haunting me for many years ever since i was a child, today during cgm, God showed me part of it's meaning, and the whole feeling of the dream was there, this dream had came back when i was sick last Monday and this morning, i finally know what feeling it was.
It was the feeling of doubt, unsureness, afraid.
There was one part where i was suppose to go through one part alone, yet this one person chose to stick to me, closely and i felt the fear, 'like get lost, dont follow me'. I still dont know who's that person sticking to me, but i think He is God, because when He was sticking to me, i felt like peace was with me.
i really hope God will slowly show me the dream once again and interpret the whole dream haunting me ever since like as year as 3 years old? Maybe one day when i really understand and sees the whole dream that is like for many years i have been thinking about it, then my super ultimate breakthrough is here. At least i solved level one.
I know surely, this place is where i should be standing, where i should be, because my dream says so.
You know, God might not be blessing you now, God might not be answering your prayers and you might not think He's real, but surely, if you have an encounter with Him, it will change you. You might think i'm bull-shitting you, but i am also not having a good life now, but im trusting Him with all that i have.
It's not about the destination, but the journey.
OMG ISAAC'S COMING BACK.
for almost everyday i see my members, everyday they will hear me go, i miss isaac man, and Isaac's coming back! see boss! im a faithful member.
gw: connect groups will shuffle again if iz comes back.
xyz: i want to be in isaac's connect group!!!!!!
gw: you're a cgc(connect group coordinator).
xyz: ya hor.
awesome presence in cgm today.
more than enough, you're
more than enough, you're
more than enough for me