Cgm today was really great.
Really love worship today, as we worship, and Jieying said, just let it out, dont keep it in, people don't know but God knows, He knows. & suddenly, rain started to pour outside, as if God was crying together with us. At that moment i just felt, every time we cry, God is also there together crying with us.
Every tear we cry, is precious in His eyes.
I saw a image today, I was standing in the middle of a street, with so many people walking so fast pass me, walking and didnt cared about me, and i felt so so lost, so lost, so alone. I walked in the streets, went in all the shops, just to find something, but i forgot what was it i was looking for. & suddenly, at the end of the streets, i saw one man, standing there and He walked towards me.
As He walked, i cried, He came to me, and removed that thick layers of masks, slowly, one by one. Suddenly i just felt like why do i have so many masks on my face. At the end, i just realise, all i wanted was just to be me. Just to be me, that simple person inside me.
Many times we put on masks to make us look stronger but deep inside us, we're weak, we're prone to hurts. We hate those feelings, so we tried to make ourselves stronger. People see us strong, but deep inside we know, we're not strong, we're not that person we try to be.
Mask makes us complicated.
Remove that mask/masks and be yourself, even though it might be difficult.
I'm trying too. Let's try harder.
Maybe Jesus could help you with it.