As i look back on this whole of 2010, seriously it felt like i went thru all kind of things. But in all these things, i thank God for them. Cause it made me grew, it cause me to realise all my weaker points about my character and what i'm afraid of and what i wanna strengthen.
Went from the smallest things, to the largest things and again repeating and all, new challenges, new obstacles to old ones that i went thru, but double of the challenges. Everything seems harder than before. But other than all these, i realise after every single obstacles, i felt a stronger peace in my heart that i lack in that certain area.
& this is the year i really prayed for God to change me in every aspect that i'm weak in, so i cannot blame Him for bringing me thru all these things that i don't like. It's only when i do things i don't like, it makes me remember how much it hurts and how so i won't do it again. & was just talking to Roxanne, & i kinda conclude, God answers this chastening prayers very quickly, maybe for me la you beg to differ. But of course, God has His own timetable, that's why i kind of waited for 4 months for a breakthru this year.
It hurts badly, but i thank God i pull thru it, and i pray for even greater tenacity to bounce back in the future. & really i dont wanna fall, dont want to fall.
All the base things, may i never lose it.
Prayer, fasting, worshiping, praising.
Jesus, You're the sweetest name of all.
Jesus, You always pick me up when i fall.
Just reminds me of my primary, where the actual story unofficially began, where i will be one of the loudest singer during hymm songs, and my friend will just shoot me, why are you even singing, you're not a christian & i would say, cause i like to sing and omgosh, can so rmb, she rolled her eyes at me. But now, if anyone ask me that, i would say, cause i mean every single word i say.
A long way back since i knew Him, but i rejected Him so many times till 3 years ago. Where the great destiny of my life began, till now, so many things i don't understand till this point of time but i will continue to trust, continue to seek, even when it's tough and i don't wanna walk on, jiayou xinying. He's there.