and it goes on and on

I like this picture but jy dont look nice. sorry my dear.

SPAIN WON, the only thing that kept me going today.

complicated complicated, someday i will know what every pieces and puzzles mean. Thinking too much is redundant, yet i fall into this trap. All i should do now is really just to turn to Him, even if i dont get the answer.

Dont like to be kept hanging and have no breakthrough.

So i shall swing harder, or another cut my string off.

I like how Spain fight, the team i supported since the starting of WC, they won! Holland played a good fight too. Even though at the end of the competition, only one will win, another the 'losers', they are actually not the 'losers', cause Holland won Brazil and all the other good teams. My heart feel for Holland when they looked so discouraged at the end, but i know! A setback won't take Holland down!

ANW, VILLA STILL ROCKS!

I am strong!!! :D
& i need my sleep, so tired!!

WORLDCUP LAST DAY!!

Had a very good day with my dearest family, having fun and all. Went for the photoshoot today with my 3 siblings, fun to describe everything, then dinner at T1, FISH.

Havent had a good time like this in a very very long time alrdy.

Okay, maybe getting in the cook show isn't that bad after all. (:

Spain vs Holland now and i really really want spain to win!!! SPAIN FOR THE WORLDCUP!!! :D

Currently @ Joel's hs watching w Eileen, Gary and Jasmin. Super exciting, pain will cfm cfm chop win! weeee~

Short post la, i pray i can survive school tmr :D

Fall on me now

Had a very awesome time in service and at timbre today with friends.

I totally understand the feeling of the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak, in another way.

Like sometimes i know complaining is wrong blah and all, but sometimes the flesh just starts to complain. So this shows, i should control and train both my spirit and flesh to be the same capacity to reach a certain level where it is on par so what my spirit says, my flesh does it.

Like when I'm tired, i will go rest, both flesh and spirit, and go reflect. Time to think about this..

Really needed the toilet today after Pst Mike finished preaching the word today, and i was like "God... i go toilet after word okay?" But then i realise i cannot go at a time like this, cause 1) my mbrs need me 2) i need God too. & thank God i didn't go toilet, cause if i went, this svc will be a normal svc for both me and my mbr. thank God!

Thank God, and thank God for Huimei and Rae. The awesome KEL zone leaders! :D

I respect people who go down actually, because they make a decision to put down everything / let go, and walk front to face their 'music'. & these people are who i call the 'strong ones', because they want to grab more. Nothing wrong wanting to grab more, cause at the end of the day, they are the one who is filled with the spirit of God, and those filled will learn more from the WOG and learn faster than those who are not filled.

People who go down, ain't weak. But they are strong! I'm strong, my members are strong! :D Wee thank God for strong people in W524! :D

Awesome time at Timbre with Heart Attack. Didn't know this Primary/Sec school game can come in hand when we've nothing to do.

God is good. (:

Bye W2, i put you behind for good, and i will only rmb your goodness. :D Ily but i still wanna see you! haha.

Way to cure insecurity in a person, affirm that person alot. Quite true, time to think about it too.

& i dont need how to care others see me, cause in their eyes i'm never what they want. but in God's eyes, i'm always in His plan. (: What God thinks matters most. His plans are more perfect then other's plan. true? haha.

GERMANY WILL WIN TODAYYY! 1-1 now.

Vapour in the wind

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

Still addicted to this song. wooo like nice! :D

I find joy in giving BS, like i learn more. :D

But i think the flow of God very coolz, when i started to think if i say that something, then the next point came in to aid the situation. weee :D

Giant with Mum & then went to get my bs book and then went down to yewtee, havent been faithful man, so my goal is to complete giving bs by august! i must be faithful! & i must rise up disciples and help my dearest jieying!

Reading Book of Acts again, and wooo, i feel like i learned so much more again, must re-read everything again. but confession, i havent finish my bible yet. Soon soon...

There's 3 levels of Relationship(of knowing a person)

[from the lowest to highest]

1. Natural or Physical level (surface level)

2. Soul or Personality level (knowing a person very well not just physical attraction)

3. Spiritual level (knowing a person inside out, not by just how he act, but by very thoughts too)

It's cool to have a person know you by spiritual level, but all these takes process, time together. :D Not just on the surface level but something deeper. I like deep people. haha.

I'm loving the WOG. :D

Anyone wanna lend me books? so i can absorb more?? :D I will love you alot! hahaha.

I should be a good girl and go school. yes yes. i will.

Love

The last time Pst Mike came, i bought a friend down for salvation.

He started laying hands, so i thought okay, new friend for laying hands, then he came to hug me and said "Jesus loves you" and laid hands. Even though in my head i was like, Pst not me, it's my friend! but the power was so strong, and at that time i didn't know why he said those 3 words to me but yeah, just cool to have a Pst hug you. anointed one somemore.

I didn't know how that day could helped me in my walk just this year, & why Pst want to say those simple 3 words that i alrdy know. but now i know. God is working in a far way earlier mode than me.

Love must be a feel thing not just a know thing.

"Jesus love you"

This 3 words, must be engraved deeper into me.

So i know why im enduring everything i am. :D

Jyjy! Gonna turn my argh things into weeeee things. :D

I'm Yours

SPAIN WONNNNNN!! :D

Anw, day started kinda argh again. I think i got to learn to get thru bad days, cause i knw it will be like this for this period, and if i dont learn, i will never be happy, and no happy days.

We got in the Top 8 for the cooking show and it means, im gonna miss sunday cgm for 2 weeks, and my projects stuff blah... oh man. i was super peh chek in class just now. super super pehchek. Simin told me i need another counselling class. haha!

but at least the champions wins a trip to Australia, this makes this a little better, so since we're in, let's win the first, so i can go to my dream place Australia, my sheepy place, my childhood dream to migrate there to have a greenland and field to play with the sheeps. Be a good Shepherd! Maybe God really wants me to go for this competition and face my past, even when i prayed let the interview fail. this shows God wont help you if you dont pray according to what He wants you to do.

Yeah, so i should just look on the brighter side on everything, then i wont be feeling irritated and all the bad feelings. Obedience!

Had a very good laugh today, can't remember the last time i had one. haha, kua zhang sioh! Thanks Eileen for accompanying me to my Singapore River today, riverwalk to read my bible & we suddenly realise so many things again!

Thanks Joel Jasmin Eileen Yuda Yugene for the good fellowship today! Made my day happier and all the high moments singing old songs, craps, durian and heart attack even though my hand hurts.

Little things are and gonna make me happy!

So that i will learn to be a happy person.

Meanwhile i will reflect on every single thing that happened during 2010, so i can improve myself, and things i have cause hurts to people and myself. My goal this year is to love even more, but i havent achieve it yet.

What a long post. haha, school tmr! time to sleep! :D

God is working every single day, & He knows my heart desires.

Thanks for placing people into my life! :D

I am a flower quickly fading

Who am I - Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Beautiful song. (:

Just happened to find it in my computer and randomly it played this song.
& then i searched the lyrics, & then i thought thru everything again, & then i realise, God is working again.

standing

Complains always go thru my brains, heart and mind and whatever there is. I'm getting a little too grumpy this few days or something. Until my emotions will just automatically shut down to the extent i don't talk. weeee. what an exciting scene to see me not talk.

Bad sign, but sometimes it feels so pressed on every sides. At least for me.

Thank God for Dorothy today, she was talking about her psychology, cause she's having a paper tmr, then she started telling me about stress. No one can be stress by projects, friends, situations and so on. In the end, it's just how YOU handle everything. You're the one causing stress upon yourself.

It's all about capacity, and i have to go thru all these to expand.

But sometimes, i'm lost and i don't want to carry on, but i know i can't. I got to be strong and lean on. HS is the what i'm learning now, i hope i can absorb more in the BS.

I just wanna be who i am. Can i?

But i know i got to grow up and out of it.

Got to have Daying's attitude, smile thru everything.

Even when no one understands but He understands. JY!

兄弟

兄弟们!!!

球场上谁给我们支援
兄弟！
球场上谁给我们信心
兄弟！
球场上谁给我们勇气
兄弟！
有了兄弟，决对无敌！

If only i'm a guy, woooo~ I can do so many things (okay i respect God's decision for making me a girl), but i can be like yuan da ying, the funniest guy around, cheerful one, never say die, shuai and he plays bball! My bball passion is not from this show only hor! I not so xian shi (practical).

But this show shows me what is unity and what is not giving up. In whole, i like W and Daying the character the most! Daying my kind of guy! haha! W my kind of girl! (nah im not les)

Today ends my lan qiu huo craze, cause im done with the show. :D

HOLLAND IN 1 HOUR's TIME.

SPAIN IN 25HOURS TIME!!!

This clearly shows who i'm supporting! hah!

Used to it?

Sometimes i feel so detached from stuff, that i think i got used to it. & when i get use to something, i tend not to do anything to it. Applies to everything in my life.

Guess i got to change this habit of mine, if not in the end, as a result of being detached from things...... then i complain. complaining is bad.

Sometimes when you get too used about something, you don't mind what's happening and you continue to let it happen.

Let's kill this "used it it" habit.
I got to change it if not there will be no growth.

I like Daying's "smile thru it" behaviour.
Difficult but at least life is better that way :D

weee. Class now actually.
byebye!

fear

要克服恐惧

不是逃避

而是贴近它

I think Daying very wei da!! Just for love, he's willing to sacrifice. WHY JIE ER NOT GAN DONG!!!!

i'm getting cheena. hahah, nvm, just for this season. HOLLAND MATCH LATERRR!!!! should sleep first before i catch the match. holland will win! :D

Bball

Watching lan qiu huo! yuan da ying cool ttm man. retarded but cutee!!! and Basketball super cool! Really miss those times playing bball with the bball peeps sioh. but i think all of us off form also.

So exciting and i think the story nice sioh even though some parts of flying really impossible in the game. I wanna be taller!!! can i? :D

The bball and soccer season! haha!

Brother dont wanna tell me who jie er choose in the end. so sad... :(

Peace by the river

I have a feeling i might have stomach flu.

So painful and i went to the toilet for like going 7 times already. oh man, painful ttm, plus fever.

But Thank God for strength throughout the day! Still able to make it for service and concentrate during Dr AR Benard's session. Had a good day fellowshipping too. Love my Cg man!

Eileen asked me what does peace link to?

I said, it reminds me of river.

True true, water flows down a river and no matter what, even when a stone hit the water, it will still continue to flow in the right direction the stream is flowing.

Thank God for His peace, and i know i will be healed. Go away stomach upset.

i got another joke, when you're stomach upset, what will it do?

CRY! hahaha, then you go toilet. okay, not funny.

Boonz, Joshua, Rae, Kit and more and more say i burn my brain. Okay i realise i become more crappy when im sick, and i dont look sick when im sick. irony~

Leading testimony tmr, im praying for wisdom! and for healing. so i can go for my cgm :D

wee~

You conquer the grave,

Now my debt is erase.

Thank you Jesus. I'm starting on my next lvl! :D

Good day

Gracew! i found this! & you found the school one! hahaha. all of us changed..

Well, today's a very good day, usually this happens after a very bad day, except today is really a very good day.

1) Woke up late but found out tutorial cancelled.

2) Dad offered to send me to Bedok.

3) Dad blessed me with $20.

4) I got 23.5/25 for my Psycho paper

5) I went shopping.

6) I went to eat wanton mee with kit, that person gave me extra wanton.

7) Saw like 2 mediacorp people, a guy and michelle chia.

8) Jieying ask me to take testimony for Sunday's cgm, my first time.... i can do it!

and on and on...

Anyway to just sum just, today's a very awesome day, except for those small little can't be bothered details, it won't bring me down!

Thanks Kit for being there the whole day yo! :D

Love ya!

Time to sleep!

Tired after settling stuff.

bye!~

Out of my hands

Saw the link on Twitter, and i watched and tears just flow when i'm in front of the house alter in my living room. God's presence can be anywhere. Just got reminded of what God promised me, and like what i read in "You the Leader" just now on the way home.

Today's a screwed up day cause of alot of things not just one, but good things still happen. So i'm just gonna focus on my good things. God's promises breaks limitations, and he just reminded me thru that song.

Good things today:
1) I have 18/30 for my RS which is cool, cause i heard quite alot of ppl failed, and i'm one of the highest? idk, but thank God.
2) I have good hair day!
3) Last lecture, Blaw is cancelled and i can go home early.
4) I was early for project meeting today.
5) When i needed a computer for proj, Zon sat next to me and my friend's table, and he lend me his macbook and tada! We can do our project thanks to him! :D
and more i know it!
PJ!

Just gonna keep counting my blessing/good things, instead of looking at the negative. Positivity FTW!

I should be in a good mood now.
yes! bye negativity, you're not allowed to be in my dictionary.

:D

I think this picture very nice :D

You danced awesomely Karrrr! :D

& woooooo i completed my BF!
Blessings are gonna come! Breakthrus too! :D

& omg,

Sissy Lim and Bro Lim just automatically signed me and Jy up for some weird family cooking show. Like helloooooo~ i dont wanna go on TV again & WE NEVER EVEN COOK BEFORE TGT!!! sianzxz, i hope we fail the interview or something, so we dont need to be on TV. really, i got phobia ever since tt hideous performance of PSC nite. okay im so bad! haha. :D

& just now,
AXS machine near my hs spoiled, so me and jy walked to central area just to pay for our BF. We just want to make it a point to pay by the end of june and it's June 30 today! :D ENDED.

This is random, but i love you sissy jy.

friends

Credits: Edmund's Facebook!

Woke up feeling sian. People make mistakes but sometimes people around instead of understanding, they start being super aggressive and start finding more faults.

We won't feel love when people around don't seem to be interested in your life. We won't feel love when people around who actually love but they don't show it. We won't feel love if people don't speak nicely to you.

We show love by being interested in people, when we show our care and concern, we understand their circumstances, we know how's they are feeling when they show certain expression and so many more. It takes so much to be a great lover.

Watched Toy Story 3 and it's a great show showing great friendship within.

Andy: One thing about Woody, he never never leaves you.

(No matter what, Woody did not let go.)

But would you care for somebody who doesn't care for you?

That takes love. Friendship is love. & loving is not easy, same for friendship.

One day i will achieve that & i will be an eraser not just a pencil. (:

You're the air that i breathe

9 mins to Portugal and SPAIN match!

SPAIN PLS WIN!!!!

LM today was really very good.

I think i'm at the relationship renewal right now, to see which relationship needs some adjustment of intimacy.

Sometimes i wanna find a place to shout it all out, but there's no where for me to do so, not even this blog. So i shld just be happy and keep everything and just tell Him everything.

Got to start with internal renewal, and i think im in the midst of it alrdy.

Im having weird dreams,

1st day, i dream i robbed a bank with Spaz.

2nd day, i dreamt i was being robbed of my laptop and bag.

3rd day, i dreamt ppl all around me saying i very enthu.

i guess it's all linked, just like Daniel's dream, all of them were visions. Maybe im thinking too much. oh welll, match is starting.

SPAIN GOAL.

VILLA GOAL, AND GET GOLDEN BOOT. YES!

If only

(candid expression when we're watching that super retarded old video!)

Hellloooo.

Today was the first day of school and woah, really very very tired. But thank God for His strength, i managed to pass the day and did my project work with classmates at the end of the day. I can see like the poly students all complaining about school, stress stress, tired ahhhh, all tt, but yeah, i should stop complaining. Complaining makes people lose their joy.

Tmr will be a better day. :D

Was just reading people old blog post and really, it's time that makes people grow up. & things that happen during that period of time, makes people grow up. & the people's blog that i was reading really is a person who loves God so much thru all they gone thru & now a mature person, i feel la. If i were to compare me and 5 years ago, definitely i look and am super different. & i know as time goes by, i will be a different xy, someone more responsible, and one who loves people so much more. At least, that's my goal.

The future looks blur now, but i know as i walk and walk, it will become clearer. (Walk walk in the light, walking in the light of the Lord~ PRIMARY SCHOOL HYMM!)

School school school.

& more.

等待是生命的一部分，好东西是值得等待的。
(it sounds better in chinese, so i typed it in chinese)

But sometimes i'm lazy to wait. omg i think people who know me will think im a lazy person, cause i always say i lazy. But im not lazy, i just like things to be done quick.

I dont like it when i have 2 equally impt things on hand and i have to make a choice. sianzxz.

bye :D

Pour out so freely

Thank you Jamie for this picture! :D Love this pic & jy just cover me away when i show her the pic. :( you dont love me anymore ljy! not my darlie sister!~

School is starting tmr, no more late late night worldcup except for matches really exciting.

Had a good time at cgm today, just reading my bible with the rest of my cg members, fellowshipping and all. Thank you Jieying for listening to every single one of the member's problem and praying for us, like counselling session but not really. Thanks Jieying for listening! :D I have a very awesome cgl & im proud of it!

Was reading Book of Daniel & more today and it caught me thinking.

(GERMANY GOAL. sidetrack sorry)

Daniel 6:23

Now the king was exceedingly glad for him, and commanded that they should take Daniel up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den, and no injury whatever was found on him, because he believed in his God.

Because he believed, he did not get injured.
Because he believed, angels came to protect him and shut the lion's mouth.

Because he believed, he followed the word and was found innocent before the king & God.

& because he believed, situation changed and became the opposite, the people who wants him dead, now is in the lion's mouth.

Just because he believed so many things happened.

What will happen if you just believe?

Got to start setting myself in the right position, and dont think that things that won't happen will happen, and start believing more in Him. As long as i don't believe in wrong things that gives me false hopes and discern the right thing, all is well. I need wisdom and by His words i will learn how to discern right and wrong.

Time to set myself in the right way, right lane.

5 days! i can do it. (: