3AM NOW.
and im just done w my FYP recommendation.
Really pray it is okay... tt determines my life of 4credits of this whole project and it's just doing an exam.
kk off to sleep!!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Assurance
Slept at 5am ytd cause of fyp slides and then i overslept max for class and miss 1 tutorial & lecture. Feeling so guilty already. :/ even though it was kinda sad tt we nv present today, im fine w it. can head off early anws. haha.
Feeling like a zombie? actually not tt bad, cause i had like 4 hours of sleep. the weather was so nice to just sleep in... i really want to sleep in like for 24 hours, but oh well. Projects first and i will get my 1 half month of sleep, lol i sound like a bear hibernating. (not computer ah)
Had lunch with dear Jieying just now.. So glad i could have lunch with her and catch up and just listen to her and everything. Now i am really just assured. This is really just a season, and it will pass, but my heart will never die unless i cause it to die.
Was just talking to Jieying about Job just now, and she said i describe Job as a emo person instead of a faith-filled man. but it was true that he's a very emo person. He complained and complained until he didn't even know what he was complaining about. Like you know complain about things that is so out of point until you left the first thing you ae complaining about.
eg. i lost my dog.. studies is tiring... i can't even stand properly ahh. Life sucks.
Example kinda fail but you get what i mean ;)
Job 38:2 "Why do you confuse the issue?
Why do you talk without knowing what you're talking about?
(HAH got proof, Job was complaining till he forgot what he was complaining bout)
Till one part, when Elihu, the son of barachel the Buzite, of the family of Ram spoke against the 3 "friends" of job, and i think he very the polite loh, never cut in and scold the 3 old men directly, but waited for them to finish talking. & when Elihu spoke, because of his spirit that cause Job to start seeing and hearing, God decided to reveal his omnipotence to Job. Just a guy with the right spirit, cause God to appear in a whirlwind.
Be of the right spirit!
& dont complain till you complain until you forgot the main pt till you emo like siao.
What i conclude is that complaining makes one emo no matter what, so be of the right spirit, dont complain over the slightest thing.
Feeling like a zombie? actually not tt bad, cause i had like 4 hours of sleep. the weather was so nice to just sleep in... i really want to sleep in like for 24 hours, but oh well. Projects first and i will get my 1 half month of sleep, lol i sound like a bear hibernating. (not computer ah)
Had lunch with dear Jieying just now.. So glad i could have lunch with her and catch up and just listen to her and everything. Now i am really just assured. This is really just a season, and it will pass, but my heart will never die unless i cause it to die.
Was just talking to Jieying about Job just now, and she said i describe Job as a emo person instead of a faith-filled man. but it was true that he's a very emo person. He complained and complained until he didn't even know what he was complaining about. Like you know complain about things that is so out of point until you left the first thing you ae complaining about.
eg. i lost my dog.. studies is tiring... i can't even stand properly ahh. Life sucks.
Example kinda fail but you get what i mean ;)
Job 38:2 "Why do you confuse the issue?
Why do you talk without knowing what you're talking about?
(HAH got proof, Job was complaining till he forgot what he was complaining bout)
Till one part, when Elihu, the son of barachel the Buzite, of the family of Ram spoke against the 3 "friends" of job, and i think he very the polite loh, never cut in and scold the 3 old men directly, but waited for them to finish talking. & when Elihu spoke, because of his spirit that cause Job to start seeing and hearing, God decided to reveal his omnipotence to Job. Just a guy with the right spirit, cause God to appear in a whirlwind.
Be of the right spirit!
& dont complain till you complain until you forgot the main pt till you emo like siao.
What i conclude is that complaining makes one emo no matter what, so be of the right spirit, dont complain over the slightest thing.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Jayesslee
"Failure in Disguise" (lyrics) -- Jayesslee
Have you ever felt like you were the only one on the road?
Have you ever wondered, "Where has everybody gone?"
Have you ever felt abandoned?
Have you ever felt alone?
Have you ever felt like just crying out for help?
And then did you wonder "Will they even understand?"
Have you ever felt a pain you could not bear?
But the world, it goes around just fine anyway.
Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up.
Have you ever felt like you just stepped over the line?
And then, did you just pretend that everything was fine?
Have you ever felt nobody knows who you are?
Have you ever felt like a failure in disguise?
Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
I won't give up.
Lyrics that understands,
Spirit that comforts..
Voices like angels.
I love Jayesslee!!
Have you ever felt like you were the only one on the road?
Have you ever wondered, "Where has everybody gone?"
Have you ever felt abandoned?
Have you ever felt alone?
Have you ever felt like just crying out for help?
And then did you wonder "Will they even understand?"
Have you ever felt a pain you could not bear?
But the world, it goes around just fine anyway.
Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up.
Have you ever felt like you just stepped over the line?
And then, did you just pretend that everything was fine?
Have you ever felt nobody knows who you are?
Have you ever felt like a failure in disguise?
Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
I won't give up.
Lyrics that understands,
Spirit that comforts..
Voices like angels.
I love Jayesslee!!
Monday, August 1, 2011
simple joy
Was just walking to Bedok mrt station just now, and saw this poster of Yeos pcket drink and saw my primary school favourite lemon barley.
This may be very kua zhang but saw a flashback back to primary school. when just one packet of lemon barley during recess just made me happy the whole day.
& then to think about i just drank one not long ago, but the same joy wasn't there...
As we grow older, we tend to have more things. we get more things, and our wants subconciously turn to our "needs".. we "need" more things now when in the past, just $1 of allowance can make us happy the whole day.
Just the simple joy in life..
Never be unsatisfied w the things in your life, cuz you were once so happy over little stuff in the past. Yeah things may change, economy changes, you're richer, get more allowance than you use to.. but what if one day its all gone..
At the day when it does...
I pray I choose to have tt simple joy. cuz this simple joy good enough to make m happy. & simple joy means having to be content w what I have now.
Eyes
it's pretty easy to say,
"when i meet w bad things, i am so able to conquer it"...
BUT when you truly meet with the bad things in life,
how are you gonna conquer it?
The more you walk life, the tougher the challenges get..
Basic theory of life and challenges all may know...
But it's about walking the walk of life.
It's not a habit to say "pray that... blah blah blah", but honestly, i really believe in the power of prayer. At least i know someone is listening and it may or may not come true.
& i pray i will never give up on this life.
To face my challenges and be stronger.
Live this life a sacrifice.
To open my eyes and ears, to listen and see, so one day i may be the instrument for ppl to open people's ears and eyes...
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Grace seeker
Up in the morning, need to do research.
Not complaining though, had my well deserved rest already, so no rights to complain!
Continue to do project now!
OH and i had the best presentation ytd during EIR. Maybe in some people's eyes it wasn't that good, but i felt it was just the most enjoyable one ever, like i can be like me. HAHAHA.
k research before my comp dies!
Not complaining though, had my well deserved rest already, so no rights to complain!
Continue to do project now!
OH and i had the best presentation ytd during EIR. Maybe in some people's eyes it wasn't that good, but i felt it was just the most enjoyable one ever, like i can be like me. HAHAHA.
k research before my comp dies!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
I believe..
Seems like a long time since i blogged.
Had been so busy w school projects and all. Just project meetings alone is tiring, but i thank God, for people who understands, who observes and speaks up. Had been just a little too over negative these past weeks, but i really thank God, im finally doing something.
But, all i want is to really just run past this 1 month... One whole month aint gonna be easy with all the presentations, all the exams and test. BUT i know, with His grace, it will be manageable..
Had been regretting why i actually got in this course and travel all the way to SP this whole week, guess it wasn't helping much for my emotions and thoughts. In fact, making me so tired, so unmotivated. BUT regardless what, i know the reason for me to get into this course is really to train myself up. It is always the toughest circumstances that builds people up. Good attitude good attitude.
This whole 3 years had been really a hard-pressed 3 years. When something tend to crop up, all sides tend to bounce up with problems ALTOGETHER. Everything.. If you say wah easy la, where got tough, i think one day you got to walk in my shoes. But well... I didnt know i had to go thru all these, but i did.
Everyone's test and trials and trainings are set differently, and they build up different characters.
I guess i got to mold myself even more..
Xy, 1 more month..
1 more month and it will be all over. & you will just be left w 6 weeks of 2 modules, and 3 months of internship. & I PRAY, good pay... or i could forfeit the pay just to have nicer colleagues. or can i have both God? i really want to go SOT next year and the pay will really help me alot..
oh well... One more month.
Xy have good expectancy that it will be good! jiayou!
oh & one more thingy thing.
People don't take me seriously when i speak i guess. It's not like im not trying hard to speak properly or whatsoever. Guess i really got this "dont take me seriously" face. idk... Oh well.
No matter what, i want to be a person who speaks "grace" into people's life. Someone who dont speak sarcastically but really with love. Regardless whether it is in SMS or whatsoever. Speak w love... Think before i speak. Because He speaks lovingly, so i shall do it too!
Had been so busy w school projects and all. Just project meetings alone is tiring, but i thank God, for people who understands, who observes and speaks up. Had been just a little too over negative these past weeks, but i really thank God, im finally doing something.
But, all i want is to really just run past this 1 month... One whole month aint gonna be easy with all the presentations, all the exams and test. BUT i know, with His grace, it will be manageable..
Had been regretting why i actually got in this course and travel all the way to SP this whole week, guess it wasn't helping much for my emotions and thoughts. In fact, making me so tired, so unmotivated. BUT regardless what, i know the reason for me to get into this course is really to train myself up. It is always the toughest circumstances that builds people up. Good attitude good attitude.
This whole 3 years had been really a hard-pressed 3 years. When something tend to crop up, all sides tend to bounce up with problems ALTOGETHER. Everything.. If you say wah easy la, where got tough, i think one day you got to walk in my shoes. But well... I didnt know i had to go thru all these, but i did.
Everyone's test and trials and trainings are set differently, and they build up different characters.
I guess i got to mold myself even more..
Xy, 1 more month..
1 more month and it will be all over. & you will just be left w 6 weeks of 2 modules, and 3 months of internship. & I PRAY, good pay... or i could forfeit the pay just to have nicer colleagues. or can i have both God? i really want to go SOT next year and the pay will really help me alot..
oh well... One more month.
Xy have good expectancy that it will be good! jiayou!
oh & one more thingy thing.
People don't take me seriously when i speak i guess. It's not like im not trying hard to speak properly or whatsoever. Guess i really got this "dont take me seriously" face. idk... Oh well.
No matter what, i want to be a person who speaks "grace" into people's life. Someone who dont speak sarcastically but really with love. Regardless whether it is in SMS or whatsoever. Speak w love... Think before i speak. Because He speaks lovingly, so i shall do it too!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Sought the Lord
Let us exalt His name together, forever
I sought the Lord, He heard me
And delivered me from my fears.
Let us exalt His name together, forever
0 sing His praises magnify the Lord
One of the songs Jingying had been singing, and it is ringing in my head...
I SOUGHT the Lord and He HEARD me and DELIVER me.
I sought the Lord, He heard me
And delivered me from my fears.
Let us exalt His name together, forever
0 sing His praises magnify the Lord
One of the songs Jingying had been singing, and it is ringing in my head...
I SOUGHT the Lord and He HEARD me and DELIVER me.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Show me...
Really just so so blessed today. Okay maybe just start w ytd. (:
Had cgm ytd. Was asked to lead Praise only, then okay, was practising with Joshua. Yay practise finish then i just told Joshua... "Josh, even though i not leading worship, let's just practise."
Straight aft this, Val told me Jieying looking for me, and i called Jieying. "I'm stuck in a jam, you lead worship for me k?" When i heard that, i was like, "WOW, okay Thank you Jieying!"
God works in such a miraculous way. Didn't expect to lead worship ytd, BUT He gave me this chance to just lead. I am thankful, so so thankful.
You know once, i was just so ashamed, so scared to call out the name of Jesus. I thought it was something stupid, something embarrassing.. Something that shouldn't be coming out of my mouth. But really... Through this whole period of time in my life... I learn, to call out the name of my dearest Abba Father.. My dearest brother, Jesus and my dearest friend and helper, Holy Spirit. All these 3 names are so dear to me.
What i am praying now is that, this names will slowly to reveal more to me who They are.
People may say i am spiritual, but seriously, i am not. I am not spiritual at all, but i am thankful and so grateful, that They are so willing to come into my life, as my Father, my Brother, my friend and helper. Someone so close, so dear that loves me.
In His presence, I find Grace..
This grace is so undeserving.. Something i don't deserve to.
Abba Father.. Have Your way in me.
Had cgm ytd. Was asked to lead Praise only, then okay, was practising with Joshua. Yay practise finish then i just told Joshua... "Josh, even though i not leading worship, let's just practise."
Straight aft this, Val told me Jieying looking for me, and i called Jieying. "I'm stuck in a jam, you lead worship for me k?" When i heard that, i was like, "WOW, okay Thank you Jieying!"
God works in such a miraculous way. Didn't expect to lead worship ytd, BUT He gave me this chance to just lead. I am thankful, so so thankful.
You know once, i was just so ashamed, so scared to call out the name of Jesus. I thought it was something stupid, something embarrassing.. Something that shouldn't be coming out of my mouth. But really... Through this whole period of time in my life... I learn, to call out the name of my dearest Abba Father.. My dearest brother, Jesus and my dearest friend and helper, Holy Spirit. All these 3 names are so dear to me.
What i am praying now is that, this names will slowly to reveal more to me who They are.
People may say i am spiritual, but seriously, i am not. I am not spiritual at all, but i am thankful and so grateful, that They are so willing to come into my life, as my Father, my Brother, my friend and helper. Someone so close, so dear that loves me.
In His presence, I find Grace..
This grace is so undeserving.. Something i don't deserve to.
Abba Father.. Have Your way in me.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
condemnation?
Self condemnation or discouragements from people?
Most of the times, words in your head speaks louder than what people are speaking to you.
Turn down the words in your head, and choose to stay happy and walk on.
Let your dreams is bigger than the words of condemnation, discouragement.
You are special. You are God's beloved.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
wonder how wonder why
sat for 3 4 hours doing nothing.
wonder if im an idiot or what, or that's what they think.
Maybe a change of environment is really good. with different people, different ways of thinking. oh well, i can only just pray... tt this few months or rather actually this last month to pass asap.
wonder if im an idiot or what, or that's what they think.
Maybe a change of environment is really good. with different people, different ways of thinking. oh well, i can only just pray... tt this few months or rather actually this last month to pass asap.
fire
A fire running on just merely wax
A fire running on oil that can be refilled again and againLet Your fire shut up in my bones.
One tt refills and refills without burning out
Monday, July 11, 2011
impact
Just made a stupid tweet, dk how to phrase it actually..
Xiao Shu passed away. Makes me feel that life is so so fragile. But saw this on my friend's fb, tt life even though like final destination, it is still in the hands of Abba father..
Was just thinking, the amount of tears you get in a funeral shows how much you have actually impacted some people's life.. Makes me think, am I am making any difference in ppl's life to make them cry in my funeral in the future? Not tt I want to make them cry, but am I really living a life of inspiration? Or living a life tt is worth living?
Well... Just don't want to live a life of regret. (:
& really be guided and inspire the ppl I ought to inspire. (:
Xiao Shu passed away. Makes me feel that life is so so fragile. But saw this on my friend's fb, tt life even though like final destination, it is still in the hands of Abba father..
Was just thinking, the amount of tears you get in a funeral shows how much you have actually impacted some people's life.. Makes me think, am I am making any difference in ppl's life to make them cry in my funeral in the future? Not tt I want to make them cry, but am I really living a life of inspiration? Or living a life tt is worth living?
Well... Just don't want to live a life of regret. (:
& really be guided and inspire the ppl I ought to inspire. (:
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Like a fire shut up in my bones....
Like a fire shut up in my bones
I want the world to know You are God
With a passion burning deep within
I want the world to know that You live
Let Your presence come and saturate
Every part of me, make me new
Let Your Spirit come and move within
Fill me once again 'cause I need more
Jesus I'm desperate for You
Jesus I'm hungry for You
Jesus I'm longing for You
'Cause Lord You are all I want
Come like a flood and saturate me now
You're all I want
Come like the wind and sweep throughout this place
You're all we want
This Love must be something bold...
Allowing you to step out, to really call out His Name and not be ashamed of it. Sometimes i used to be so afraid of.. But if i really love.. i know in His Name, there should not be any unshame-ness, fear.. but boldness...
I want the world to know You are God
With a passion burning deep within
I want the world to know that You live
Let Your presence come and saturate
Every part of me, make me new
Let Your Spirit come and move within
Fill me once again 'cause I need more
Jesus I'm desperate for You
Jesus I'm hungry for You
Jesus I'm longing for You
'Cause Lord You are all I want
Come like a flood and saturate me now
You're all I want
Come like the wind and sweep throughout this place
You're all we want
This Love must be something bold...
Allowing you to step out, to really call out His Name and not be ashamed of it. Sometimes i used to be so afraid of.. But if i really love.. i know in His Name, there should not be any unshame-ness, fear.. but boldness...
one of these few nights...
That very night just straight after CWBS while watching online, this burden came, and God just spoke, "are you willing to sit up and pray." was so tired, but while listening to PK preach... this stirring came and i sat up, prayed. something i nv responded and did before but i was glad, i did.
Something that was worth crying out for..
& He came so strong. (okay until my daddy came in the room ad asked what's happening. LOL)
tt was the 4th day.
Today the 7th day, this burden is here again.
The extent of how serious people are makes me doubt sometimes.
Many things makes me just doubt at times, the attitude of people treating other people, even the close ones. & how people should be initiating... & many many.
Honestly people change from time to time. Attitudes, friends, things they love, their goals, their purpose, and it may get a little scary sometimes. Well, all in all... all these of mine may change, but i really pray... Even if it changes, it will align to what God wants me to be.. & this week is really just attitude training ground.
Oh & was talking to auggy again, and he showed me Janice from Jayesslee's fb page and all i can see was Janice replying to everyone from CHC's wall msg to her and she replied to every single one of us. This kind of personal touch, despite being so busy and high on top is what makes people feel so treasured and love... (OKAY JUST REALISE ITS A FAKE ONE, but.... believe tt still, this personal touch is true..)
Praying one day, tt even IF i rise up, get super busy and all. I will never forget about this personal touch to all my different friends and members. and even now as well.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Holiness
The ultimate law of God's house is HOLINESS.
Amazing word preached tonight. while PK prayed for all of us just, and just before tt when he showed us the video of the Nigerians, when the church prayed, i feel... there was a need to breakthrough that atmosphere. Something that is not about loudness, not about how aggressive we are, but something within that comes out of it to fill up that atmosphere.
We are breaking thru, but there's still something more. & i know, the end of Ezekial only goes to show that our breakthru is coming.. it is! and it's is for glory that we are chosen to suffer for His kingdom cause we are handpicked to go into His most holy place.
Sense this 'suffering' thingy coming already, BUT all is well. cause i got Him in my life!
BREAKTHRU! 3rd day yo!!! :D
Amazing word preached tonight. while PK prayed for all of us just, and just before tt when he showed us the video of the Nigerians, when the church prayed, i feel... there was a need to breakthrough that atmosphere. Something that is not about loudness, not about how aggressive we are, but something within that comes out of it to fill up that atmosphere.
We are breaking thru, but there's still something more. & i know, the end of Ezekial only goes to show that our breakthru is coming.. it is! and it's is for glory that we are chosen to suffer for His kingdom cause we are handpicked to go into His most holy place.
Sense this 'suffering' thingy coming already, BUT all is well. cause i got Him in my life!
BREAKTHRU! 3rd day yo!!! :D
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
7 days
Started on my 7 days beverage fast.
I finished 1 day and today's the 2nd. I CAN DO ITTT :D:D
My breakthru is cominggg!
Like what PK preached, if i want my outrageous miracle, i got to do have outrageous faith. So i really have faith that this week is gonna be a great week, despite of the busy schedule, my God shall provide all my needs according to His riches in His glory. & those who wait upon the Lord shall receive strength!
Was thinking about the mini "stage ministry" i have..
From Chinese church hall to Children church hall to B4 Auditorium.. I am just thankful that He thinks i am up to it. Cuz it is not easy, not easy at all. Many times people think it's just good to stand on that big(to me) stage, but sometimes, when one is just being put up there, your life get expose. When you start worshipping and praising, it is just so obvious to see whether you are doing well or not, for you yourselves and people who are more mature below stage. Maybe just like what PK had shared before, many people can go up to sing, but ultimately God must guard their hearts, cause it is not about the talents, but all about God.
Even though i really wanted a chance to stand on Suntec stage to just serve for one time, it's okay if we didnt get into the Top 2. Am just thankful enough to be able to serve at JW and head to the semi finals of Live Jam.
First thing i really don't want to be seen as, or be like or to have is to really have a prideful heart, a competitive heart to want to do and get what i want. Above all else, i just want to follow in His pathway, guiding me to my every destiny. Praying for my calling recently... even though it's not specific, but i know my main calling is to worship my King of Kings, Lord of Lords. & most importantly, to guard my heart..
Something within changed recently... & i know, because whenever i have that thought, the tension was gone and instead peace came.. & i pray, the peace of God reigns in my life.... (:
I finished 1 day and today's the 2nd. I CAN DO ITTT :D:D
My breakthru is cominggg!
Like what PK preached, if i want my outrageous miracle, i got to do have outrageous faith. So i really have faith that this week is gonna be a great week, despite of the busy schedule, my God shall provide all my needs according to His riches in His glory. & those who wait upon the Lord shall receive strength!
Was thinking about the mini "stage ministry" i have..
From Chinese church hall to Children church hall to B4 Auditorium.. I am just thankful that He thinks i am up to it. Cuz it is not easy, not easy at all. Many times people think it's just good to stand on that big(to me) stage, but sometimes, when one is just being put up there, your life get expose. When you start worshipping and praising, it is just so obvious to see whether you are doing well or not, for you yourselves and people who are more mature below stage. Maybe just like what PK had shared before, many people can go up to sing, but ultimately God must guard their hearts, cause it is not about the talents, but all about God.
Even though i really wanted a chance to stand on Suntec stage to just serve for one time, it's okay if we didnt get into the Top 2. Am just thankful enough to be able to serve at JW and head to the semi finals of Live Jam.
First thing i really don't want to be seen as, or be like or to have is to really have a prideful heart, a competitive heart to want to do and get what i want. Above all else, i just want to follow in His pathway, guiding me to my every destiny. Praying for my calling recently... even though it's not specific, but i know my main calling is to worship my King of Kings, Lord of Lords. & most importantly, to guard my heart..
Something within changed recently... & i know, because whenever i have that thought, the tension was gone and instead peace came.. & i pray, the peace of God reigns in my life.... (:
Sunday, July 3, 2011
favor of men
There few day have been very interesting as well..
One day at work..
I lost my way, 1 guy came up and asked "you lost your way" and told me directions, asked another person for directions and he was nice... That day it was raining too... standing under the rain w/o an umbrella, this woman came to voluntarily shelter me w her umbrella across the road.
Was buying zi zha ytd, usually the aunty was super fierce, and surprisingly she was so nice when she spoke me, when she was a little fierce to the customer before me. Denise placed her wallet and phone on the table, forgot to take it. the aunty kept for her...
and more and more.
My boss was nice to me!
God is really good.
One day at work..
I lost my way, 1 guy came up and asked "you lost your way" and told me directions, asked another person for directions and he was nice... That day it was raining too... standing under the rain w/o an umbrella, this woman came to voluntarily shelter me w her umbrella across the road.
Was buying zi zha ytd, usually the aunty was super fierce, and surprisingly she was so nice when she spoke me, when she was a little fierce to the customer before me. Denise placed her wallet and phone on the table, forgot to take it. the aunty kept for her...
and more and more.
My boss was nice to me!
God is really good.
open my eyes
I know Your love is all that i needAnd i seek to know the ways of Your heart
Open my eyes O God
Open my heart to see
The wonders of the power of Your Name
My life and my salvation is in You...
Ytd's svc was so awesome. Had this bad dream. Woke up feeling so tired and rejected and just felt everything was wrong. Went to church alone cuz jy and ash was studying in church.
So was feeling just mixed, and then Cynthia sent me one picture of the EMERGE submission video, and it was like me inside, usually i would like "omg so unglam.." and whatsoever, but i was just :'|. & ya, the picture was so timely, so in time.
Went to queue, borrowed Kelvin's sunglasses and then was just saying about being a blind person, and then PK preached about blind man. Just so timely. Everything that PK preached just hit every single point in my heart. Thank you Pst..
By Your grace i'll live
By your grace i'll see
Even though it's a period of bad dreams, spiritual warfare and darkness, His glory will penetrate all darkness and light will shine. Victory is here! I will see what He is doing in state of grumbling.
Always believe in this, that people's surface is not who they are truly are, but not many people succeed in understanding it. They know it, but they dont understand it. Thus always going straight into judgement in state of having compassion. I seek to know the depths, not just the surface, and i pray... its not easy, but i can start doing it now.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Encouragements
Encouragements are actually so so essential to many people's lives.
Not sure about you though, but it is so so important to me. An encouragement actually makes me feel loved, feel so blessed, feels that someone actually care for me. & that is a thing i am always so ever thankful for. To be loved.
These 3 days of exams, okay wasn't tt bad to go thru, because i know every single moment, someone bothered to came to say 'Jiayou' to me or pray for me or confess over my life.
Thank you angels... For just all the encouragements in many many forms.
Just a thought... Random one.
Abba Father gave up His only Son to save the world.
Abraham could give up his only son because He asked him to give Isaac up.
2 different kind of sacrifices... More to think about.
Anw had a good day w Spastics. Even though it's short...
Deanna: "Anything recent?"
Me: "I got a new fridge!"
Deana: "Tell me that in the future..."
Cuz everyone's talking about their life happenings, like what's going on. But i really think having a new fridge is a big deal to me... No ice at home, and now a new fridge that can make ICE. WOOHOOO. this is joy!
Or maybe simplicity is just joy. (:
Take joy in simplicity... :D
Not sure about you though, but it is so so important to me. An encouragement actually makes me feel loved, feel so blessed, feels that someone actually care for me. & that is a thing i am always so ever thankful for. To be loved.
These 3 days of exams, okay wasn't tt bad to go thru, because i know every single moment, someone bothered to came to say 'Jiayou' to me or pray for me or confess over my life.
Thank you angels... For just all the encouragements in many many forms.
Just a thought... Random one.
Abba Father gave up His only Son to save the world.
Abraham could give up his only son because He asked him to give Isaac up.
2 different kind of sacrifices... More to think about.
Anw had a good day w Spastics. Even though it's short...
Deanna: "Anything recent?"
Me: "I got a new fridge!"
Deana: "Tell me that in the future..."
Cuz everyone's talking about their life happenings, like what's going on. But i really think having a new fridge is a big deal to me... No ice at home, and now a new fridge that can make ICE. WOOHOOO. this is joy!
Or maybe simplicity is just joy. (:
Take joy in simplicity... :D
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