When you believe

Restoration only comes when you believe it will!

Went to hospital to see Grandma today, and felt tt when we become old, it's kinda sad :( she was so happy to see us and said "i thought no one would come" in chinese and it kinda hit me. i promise i will take good good care of mum and dad in the future!

& kinda alot of thing happening. i think my family quite exciting, in a not very positive way, but still glad for my own family, it's doing well.

Pls dont let it go out of hand i pray.
Restoration happens only when you really, really want to regain what you have lost. - PK

Had a family day with Mum, Bro, Jy and then daddy! :D

Still thankful! :D
Awesome week! :D
God bless!

PICTURES IN IMPRESSIONS X (My pretty night!)jingying! :D
jasmin!
Garyy!!!
W524!!
People who came to support!
Spazzz!
& we met terry!!
ALUMNI!

Easter Sunday

Today is a good day cause more than 2000 years ago, He died and now He risen and is alive!! :D

This year's drama is really awesome!! Flying angels!!!

Currently at expo waiting for bk and the cg ppl to be back so we can eat!! Yayyyy!

Goood day! Going hospital later i guess.

IMPRESSIONS

2 years ago, on 4th April it was M.I.9, yesterday was Impression X!

Awesome man.

had lots of fun dancing screaming talking with the alumni, the fun the main band could nv experience! fun. performance was okayyz, rocks! peiling & peiyun saxophone solo was so sexy!!! i like~

i love flowers! thanks W524, Gracia, Fiona&Gracew, Glorianne, Jieying&Rayvin!

Thank you all 12 of you who came down to support us(Me Jy Char), Stanley, Jeremiah, Valerie, Jane, Chung, Gary, Kenrick, Joel, Kit, Weisiang, Asher, Jasmin! & Rayvin and Jieying for coming down after tt!! :D

& of course dearest Fiona, Gracew and Glorianne!

I miss band, maybe i should consider joining SP band hor? hahaha. joking.

I love today, cause
1) I have good hair day, of course, i blow dry it.
2) I had lunch with Gandidi.
3) I paint my nails purple b4 concert, but it's abit ruined but im fixing it.

4) Alumni was great!

5) Friends came to support.
6) I RECEIVE FLOWERSSS :D

7) :D JUST HAPPY & 7 things to be happy for!!
NUMBER OF PERFECTION! wooooo~

Pretty flower, walking down the street,
Pretty flower....

Best Gift

Yesterday i watched Prince of Egpyt, Today i watched Easter drama, and then i came home i watched Bruce Almighty.

All this stories were so boomz, story of Moses inspired me.

A man who lost everything when he knew his life is not the truth, he ran away from reality yet when God spoke to him, transformation took place, he decided to believe that an ordinary staff could part the red sea and faced his reality.

People can take your wealth away, people can take your friends away, people can even take your life away, but they can't take your faith (believe) away.

Miracles happen when you believe.

Then to Easter Drama. I see the miracles Jesus did through the drama. I love the last part most, which made me tear. When situation seem impossible for that husband and wife, miracle happened, and Jesus was the solution to it.

Jesus resurrected so that our problems could be resurrected too. (:

Then Bruce Almighty. Pls watch this movie! amazingggg.

Power of Miracles lies within yourself.

One of another line in the movie. You can start miracles within yourself! :D

& There was this part where Bruce almost died and God asked him in heaven.

God: Make a prayer from your heart not like Miss World (World peace).

Bruce: I wish for her(gf) to come back to me.. No, I wish that she could have happiness in her life, that she would find the right person who loves her..... so on.

The best gift to give your love one is to pray for him/her.

Not by what you want, but what he/she wants, what God wants. (:

I believe this season is the season of miracles.
Miracles, i need it to happen in my life.

I might not be in flow with you, but i want to be in flow with the HS. That's all it matters.

My season of my life. (: I like seasons, cause it shoes im still growing instead of being stuck.

IMPRESSIONS X tmr! I got a mini 2 note solo which is not very obvious! haha!

P.s: I like stories that inspires me.

There will be miracles

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayers so often prove(s) in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't (always happen) when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight throught the rain
(A small but still resilient voice
Says (hope is very near)

This song is so meaningful that when i was playing in band just now, i missed my beat to hear the girl sing. The song of the season for me. There can be miracles when i believe.

when darkness turns to light

it ends tonight, it ends tonight.

纸是包不住火.

I was kinda sad and it's not any April Fool joke.

She's taking it easier than i can. But who knows the tears.

You cannot do anything else but just, pray for me, be led by the spirit if you dont know. Haha, put your discerning to the test. That's much appreciated. But I'm currently not emoing, cause no use to also. (:

& for now, i should throw away all the stupid thoughts that i dont need to entertain now.

For now, ministry, friends, family and God. Just focus, and focus. :D

I'm gonna count every single little thing, till i get this promise of mine in my hands. (:

Angry Thoughts

I keep getting angry thoughts, like yesterday idk why i got so peh chek all a sudden for no reason and i scream at myself. LOL. Im weird.

Something's not right, got to do something. PRAY.

Went to meet Huimei and Gouwei to discuss about UFIT stuff. So cool, thank you leaders for giving the DG to do something again! (:

GUESS WHAT, i got to be in SP tmr for meeting at 9.30am, what am i doing here seriously? :(

& HAPPY APRIL FOOL, I GOT JACKED BY GRACE WOO, to think im concerned for you and i called and she laughed and said HAPPY APRIL FOOL! HAHAH! :D

I'm rejecting something inside my brain, and not letting it taking the whole of my mind. Cause it's not suppose to you know. Then can you stop popping up and irritate me. ahhhhhhh, see i told you angry thoughts. HAHA. im weird.

Today's post is a little weird and random. Idk what's my pt of typing this chunk of things.

MAYBE BECAUSE TODAY IS SUPPOSE TO BE A JOKER DAY. HAH!

HAPPY APRIL FOOL!

Let's go jack people! I jacked Boon! SO HAPPY! :D

Twitter of the Day:

"Dreams make thoughts. Thoughts make ideas. Ideas make goals, & only u can make them real." -Chris Ross /via @ilikemargarita


I guess my Spaz are the people on Earth who HATES me the most and think im the dumbest, stupidest and etc, yet they still love me. (:

YA & THEY HATE ME SO MUCH THEY DECIDED TO THROW ME INTO THE SEA OF JELLYFISHES.
& HALFWAY TO THE SEA, THEY DROPPED MY HEAD, then i realise, sand is actually not very soft. IT'S HARD!!!!! :(

oh and gan took a video, dont upload it pretty pls? :D

Easter

Jesus is the reason for this season.

This is the first time I'm so sure about something i haven't seen with my eyes, this is heart-faith not head-faith.

I Believe...

讓我為你而活
讓我為你而站立
永不放棄像你愛我
讓我為你前進
我氣息是你贖回
如今單單屬於你
活出你旨意的生命
改變世界為你轉動

This week is one of my busiest week, but yet not very busy. Confusing.
Visitation, Outings, Band pract+rehearsal, Easter, Invitations, Easter, Impressions.

& lots of smsing. Have been smsing from 11am to like 2 plus today none stop, & so on after tt, not those lovely dovely smses but serious stuff la. Thank God for free smses! i think i sent like alot of smses today.

This week, my cg will have a breakthrough in Jesus name!! :D

My skin is peeling!

Was thinking why skin peels and i found this website!
http://www.wisegeek.com/why-does-my-skin-peel-after-a-sunburn.htm

Main point bolded!! haha.

When your skin is sunburned, it's basically lightly cooked from the outside. Extended sun exposure causes severe damage to the upper layers of the skin, killing those skin cells and creating a characteristic area of redness and blistering, in the case of severe burns. Typically, in the first few days after the sunburn, the dead skin remains intact, while the body busily builds up new cells underneath; the dead skin acts as a protective layer while these cells grow, as they are very fragile when they are new.

The skin peel after a sunburn happens when the new cells underneath are ready to be exposed to the world, which happens to coincide with the time when the last of the moisture departs the damaged upper layers of the skin. The dried skin in turns starts to flake, peel, and eventually slough off to reveal brand-new cells underneath. During this phase, these cells are typically very vulnerable to sun damage, because they have not experienced the power of the sun before.


I think it's quite cool! Every time something happens and makes us burned out,we dont need to worry, cause actually something beneath we can't see is growing and eventually the dead will go, and the new will come as long as we don't hand itchy go scratch it hard and it bleeds. haha.

Dead characters (bad habits) peels, and New characters (good habits) grows.
Old things go away, NEW THINGS come forth!!

旧的不去，新的不来！

okay, let go get my skin burn a few more times.
HAHA just joking!

One life with You.

Was just talking to my dearest S just now, and found out so many things i haven't been following.

Many of times, we get so tired of what we're doing, especially when bad things hit, first thought is usually to give up. Give up la, easy, just dont care about it. Shared with S what happened to me recently and S shared with me. I hope something went in S's head cause something went in mine when i talked to S. I felt like giving up something precious recently, that i struggled really. (DEANNA NOT TT ONE, i know what you will think if you see this.)

So many things happening in my thoughts, but sometimes i don't have the ability to calm down and think clearly. I tried, and im going to try harder. Everyday i might be fighting a battle, but i know i will emerge strong. I'm not going to give up anything that is precious to me, even if it takes all of me. It's time to learn how to give and take.

& S, if you're reading, you would know who you are. I love you and i know many others too! You brought joy to my life and showed me many things that i should learn from you too. Don't give up! Cause i know everything you're going through only makes you stronger. Jia you! (:

Giving up doesn't solve the problem, cause it will keep coming back.

So i wont give up and S you wont too!

& i love my mum, she made so many sacrifices for me and my family. Where can i find a mum like her? Even though she always scolds me, but i dont mind. I want to love her more, and i should start on it. Went washing car with mum and i felt that she still loves me, and tt's good. (:

Got to love more and more.

Without love i am nothing. I am useless, with love i am something. With more love, i am more than something. I must start loving people even even more, but at the same time, humble myself to bring people up.

when skies are grey

when skies are grey, and you're feeling lousy, it feels sad.
When it's hot and sunny and you're angry, you feel terrible.
When it,s raining and you're happy, it feels arghh.

There's no perfect condition just how we would respond to it.

Blogging after sentosa but im still in vivo! Wooo. Hope u had fun spaz!

Random

What you can see about me is this much.

What I can see is about me is more than you.

What God can see about me is so so much more than me or you.

I want to enter into God's view where He see things, cause He's standing higher than i do.

Living rain, pour again over my life and days.

When my world was in darkness,

You spoke your word, night turn into day.

I don't like smart talks, but i prefer connecting spirit to spirit. (: but smart talk+spirit to spirt = you win.

Count your blessings

I decided to count my blessings today.

THANK YOU EILEEN.

You won't know this but I'm really inspired by you, times where you're consistent to send SR, you're diligent, you're so heartwarming to send smses of love and care. All this touched my heart! Thank you my friend even though we recently just got to know each other more only, but i feel that you're a person who can open the hearts of people with true sincerity and straightforwardness. & it's amazing how your straightforwardness won't hurt people, maybe it's a gift from God.

Continue to look at the promises of God today! & seek your gift! (:

Remember the rainbow!

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I'm so glad i have the honour of sharing a word in DG today & thanks Kelvin & DG for support. I wrote a sermon from 2am to 4am yesterday, and woke up at 6.15am ( 2 hours plus of sleep?) and headed to riverwalk. It was great, learned so much from Kelvin. I guess i heard rain pouring down so clearly, the last time i heard something was doves flying. Thank God for my life, thank God for friends.

CGM awesome!

& I really Thank God for people who keeps pressing on into my life, Thank you Karuna!! Thank you Kit!! & Thank you LJY!! Thank you guys! You really make me feel so loved! Thanks girls!! & Thank you JIEYING!! For always correcting!

& Thank you Spaz, I enjoy being with you all, cause im being me.(: Thanks Loves.

Whenever i learned how to count my blessings, i feel happier, cause i know, people still loves me. God loves me. I'm not alone myself.

I got this bad habit that i should change, but i can't find the solution yet.

& Anointing comes with Sacrifice.

I'm going to sacrifice something and breakthrough.

Thirst & Hunger for my next breakthrough cause God promised me.

God's promises breaks limitations!

(my sermon today! & all glory to God.)

WE'RE ARE FAMILY~

Today's a busy day!!!

Badminton, came home to do art and craft, do card, play chalks, send smses and all. woooo, quite an accomplishment! Tmr gonna be another busy day!

I really really look up to CGLs! cause every single day they are sacrificing so much just for God. Like KEL zone, leaders are doing ufit and every day they got alot of things to do. So starting from now, i shouldn't grumble if i'm thinking im doing alot, cause compared to them, im not!

Anyways, woooo. At home since 2pm! i slept at 6am today and woke up at 10am, i should sleep early today.

Oh and had a great time at badminton with Spaz today. Sorry Fiona!!!

I realise something at badminton today. Everytime someone hits a shuttle cock to you, you have to use a certain force to hit back. then if someone hits to you with greater speed and force(harder to catch), you got to respond even faster and hit even harder to return it back. & this is what we should do when bad things hit us. We got to hit it back to them harder and fast!

Svc tmr! boomz!

Stepping out

Woooo, these few days had been awesome!

Hanging out with my Spaz, my members, my leader, friends, awesome news and all.

Was talking to Eileen and she shared with me something that really blessed me!
Thanks Eileen! :D

Sometimes some of us might feel like pressured to perform a certain task and do it so well, because all the people around us are doing it so perfectly and nicely. Then sometimes you feel a bit discouraged when people says you're doing the wrong thing when actually you feel that it's okay, but for them it's imperfect. Or maybe you fear that you will do the wrong thing cause you're going against the flow and people doubt you when all the time you're always doing the right things..

Then you start to think, where did i go wrong at? Am i useless, am i stupid? If not why can't i do it well like others????? Why people doubt me? & then all these thoughts starts to discourage us.

I think we got to know that God has His own timing for everything to happen, everything happens for a reason in our life. Even when others around is doing so much better than you, people rising up faster than you, people getting complimented instead of you, people getting better results, i guess all we can do is just to continue doing the best we can. As long as you know you're doing your best, it doesn't matter what others do, as long as you know you're not letting yourself down.

Joel shared with Joshua and I this, as long as you keep stepping out from your own territory, to claim another, you get a larger territory in your life. & you step out again, you gain another larger territory. (eh joel, i got listen hor!)

As long as we're doing our best and we know it, we don't have to worry how it turns out cause each time we step out of our comfort zone, we're already conquering another territory of our life.
As long as you know you're doing it right, and God is in that plan of yours, that certain thing will come to pass for sure, in God's timetable.

Let's step into the unknown of life & Let no fear conquer our faith!

So yeah, I want to step out and claim more territories in my life.

Heehee, I don't want to be stuck in where i am now. Someone shared with me this, even when there's nothing to breakthrough in your life, seek for one! This makes you stronger to face future challenges!

You will get what you want in future!

Every step you take now, leads to your destiny! Jia you to you and me!!! no stress no stress!

Problem solving methods are cliche, but that's how we get problems solved.
PRAYYYY!!!

YELLOW BABIES

I LOVE THEM!
Everyone of them!!! :D

I look like i put braces, so shiny! hahaa.
Anyway, 7 out of 9 Spaz put braces currently or before!! awesome! BRACES FTW!
WE LOVE STRAIGHT TEETH! :D

A night of awkward silent. not literally. Guess sometimes my jokes dont work but hahaha, love my Spaz!

Humbleness

Lastest report of my stars!
3 stars/ prayers came true. Guess this star campaign works well for me. :D

Anyway, meeting was awesome yesterday. Yesterday i told God please please let me not forward any modules and i promise to do well for my Year 2. It might be kinda like answer my prayer then i will change that kind, and if you don't i don't change that kind. but no okay. I'm serious, i must do better, just like Pst Paul Kim.

He excel in both ministry and marketplace, and he's always so humble. Without any ego.
I realise people around even when we do not achieve alot alot in our lives, yet we have high ego, we're proud.

Imagine a long stairway from heaven leading down to Earth, and beside it, there's a little small box. & we're standing on that little stage we created for ourselves. That day i just saw this image, that Jesus came down that long stairs and walked in front of me standing on the little stage i created myself. & He asked, "Are you willing to come down that little stage? I came down from heaven already."

Sometimes it's because of our ego-ness, that's why we're unwilling to let people come into our lives, like not only pointing to God, but like friends who care. People are willing to put down everything just to be friends, yet because of our ego, we say that person dont deserve to be my friend or i dont like his attitude and ended up alone.

But we often forget we need people in our lives too, even though we like to be alone at times. Sometimes it's because of our ego, we have so many problems in our life, we dont accept advices. I got to let go of my ego, actually i find myself quite egoistic. Got to change.

Step down that little stage you created for yourself.

PROMISES BREAKS

LIMITATIONS!!!

I will run with you

OMG OMG OMG OMG WARNING, THIS IS THE HIGHEST POST I WOULD EVER POST.

CAUSE THANK YOU GOD.

MY STAR CAMPAIGN WORKED, SO WELL. GOD HEARD IT!!!!

Okay so this very cool. So this day i decided to write my star campaign for this person i really love, & i decided to confess it out. & THENNN, IT CAME TO PASS.

I shall not spoil the fun cause i cannot BOOMZ the news, BUT IT'S SO EXCITING, IM SO EXCITED FOR MY FRIEND!!! <3

So this convince me that my star campaign do work. I shall continue to count my stars till my wishes+promises of God come true!!! :D

Fiona! There's a wish for you inside my star campaign!! :D
Yours will come true too!!!!

To you, my loyal reader, loyal tagger, plus my bestest friend!! i LOVE YOU!:D

Surface/Substances

A road so long, so much to conquer.

I'm not dumb & innocent of what i have to face, really. even though on the surface i might be, but ya, how would you know if you're not me.

Anyway was reading Huimei's old blog, happened to went to it and read and woww, her SOT days were so interesting! & breakthrough came her way & she's so awesome now. Really make me feel like flying to SOT now, BUT, i still have poly. Can't wait for 2 years to be over, then i can go for my SOT.

I believe 2 years later, I'm gonna have a much exciting life. Even though i still don't have a aim on where to head on my future, i know God will show me a way.

His ways are higher than mine.

Got to stand on the place God sees my situation and my life.

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The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

I changedd!! :D

Masks

Cgm today was really great.

Really love worship today, as we worship, and Jieying said, just let it out, dont keep it in, people don't know but God knows, He knows. & suddenly, rain started to pour outside, as if God was crying together with us. At that moment i just felt, every time we cry, God is also there together crying with us.

Every tear we cry, is precious in His eyes.

I saw a image today, I was standing in the middle of a street, with so many people walking so fast pass me, walking and didnt cared about me, and i felt so so lost, so lost, so alone. I walked in the streets, went in all the shops, just to find something, but i forgot what was it i was looking for. & suddenly, at the end of the streets, i saw one man, standing there and He walked towards me.

As He walked, i cried, He came to me, and removed that thick layers of masks, slowly, one by one. Suddenly i just felt like why do i have so many masks on my face. At the end, i just realise, all i wanted was just to be me. Just to be me, that simple person inside me.

Many times we put on masks to make us look stronger but deep inside us, we're weak, we're prone to hurts. We hate those feelings, so we tried to make ourselves stronger. People see us strong, but deep inside we know, we're not strong, we're not that person we try to be.

Mask makes us complicated.

Remove that mask/masks and be yourself, even though it might be difficult.

I'm trying too. Let's try harder.

Maybe Jesus could help you with it.

Problem

Definition of problem

A situation, matter, or person that presents perplexity or difficulty: was having problems breathing; considered the main problem to be his boss. See Usage Note at dilemma.

Jingying just reminded me indirectly, that sometimes it's not about how others advices you, but it's how you deal with your mind/heart. (something chim from her, unexpected seriously. JOKING! :D love you jy!)

But yeah, it's so true. Problems always causes and lands us in a dilemma, like a maze, and we can't walk out of it. & no matter how, what, who when, whatever you do, you can't seem to walk out of it.

So back to what Jy had said, just now when i was playing the guitar, i guess God just reminded me, it's not about what the problem can do to you, but what you can do to the problem. You are bigger than the problem! & Sometimes problems just starts with ourselves. Not with others who caused that problem, but it's just you. & to solve it, we must deal with it ourselves.

Unless we deal with this problem, it will always keep coming back to us, we got to find the solution within us, not just wait for the problem to solve by itself.

Meanwhile, i know God will give me the strength to find this solution within me.

I knew this logos word, but now it became my rhema word.

God change me

but ya, sometimes i'm sick of competitions.

Simple

This is random.

But i feel that this world shouldn't be so complicated when it's actually suppose to be simple.

Isn't it good to just have a simple mind, simple thoughts, simple living in just a simple world?

I like simple things just like a note, a smile, a hugs and anything simple with simple thoughts in it. (:

WELCOME BACK TO SINGAPORE GANDIDI! <3

random

我今天很想用华文， 可是我发现如果我用华文，我会用很久很久来写完.

所以我还是用英文写好了.

okay, that was to prove everyone that i can write chinese on computer. haha! but lame. forget it.

Let's be me on this blog today. My blogging style kinda change after not blogging for a long time, i like it to be short, but sometimes i like it to be long.

I used to post up alot alot alot of pictures in the past, so im gonna post up pictures. i think.

I got kinda lazy after blogging awhile. haha.
but yeah, i decided to'promote' my blog by publicly opening it up haha even though i opened it up long ago. but yeah.

welcome to xyz's blog where you find the quiet me, cause you wont see/hear me screaming here.
welcome if this is your first time here, welcome back if you're back after sep close down. :D

going yew tee later! :D
need to be consistent in giving bs and to yew tee! :D

爱只有简单笔画

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化

我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

Nono im not falling in love, but i just like these lyrics. haha!

Some love are simple, some are complicated. Some are secured, some changes every second.

Actually everyone in this world is just waiting for their true love to appear, but in this modern age, it seems like this true love thing just extinct already. Divorce everywhere, unfaithfulness blah blah. arghh.

What is love? Idk man.

But i think i still believe in this true love thingy like some young kids.

& i know of one love that is simple and is secured every single minute and not very complicated and it doesn't bring you any fear. Forever there when you need help.

Because of Him, i will still believe! (:

Till then.

Stars are His promises

Gonna start a new thing today, write God's promises on the piece of star paper and fold them into stars.

Gen 15:5
Then He brought him outside and said, “Look now toward heaven, and count the stars if you are able to number them.” And He said to him, “So shall your descendants be.”

I'm gonna count my stars just like Abraham! I believe God's promises for me will come to pass, even though it will get hard! (:

You're my reason

You're my first love and my true love.

You chose the cross, You chose me
Surrender Your life, You chose me
Though i did not deserve, You chose me

So i choose to love, Just as you chose me
I put you first as you first love me
I'll treasure your grace as you died for me

You're my first love
You're my true love
You're my reason
You are why i breathe
i will give you my devotion
All of me.

Before the service, i said that i want to run to the alter and catch a fire.
& i went down to the alter and caught a vision. Thank God and thank you Pastor Kong.

Even though my life doesn't seem as simple as it seems before, i don't mind what's happening even though at times i grumble alot to God. I believe at the end of my race, i will be able to be like Pst Tan and his wife and the other pioneers of church, being so strong, that even wind / nothing can't blow them down. Nothing.

Emerge stronger, stronger than who i am right now.

Pain is temporary, but the prize is eternal.
Even if no one around me understands, i thank God He understands everything.

I will start visualizing my vision till it come true! :D

[edit]

This verse just spoke to me when i was flipping Kaka's bible,

Zechariah 13:9 (New King James Version)
I will bring the one-third through the fire,
Will refine them as silver is refined,
And test them as gold is tested.
They will call on My name,
And I will answer them.
I will say, ‘This is My people’;
And each one will say, ‘The LORD is my God.’”

I just flipped and it answered everything of what i was doubting, how amazing can God be?

[edited]

I believe

I think alot of things are going to change in my life. Somehow i just feel it that way.

Had lotsa fun at Food-togenic today, really awesome. it had been long since i participated in an outreach, last one sentosa or magnitude since U-Tribe we were helping out. Like really, even though like we're really lost in the beginning, but thank God we really pulled through and we won 2nd! :D Really so proud of the team! :D

& had fun at BK with all the dares and everything, super funny. WADUPZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. Layting set the standard for us and really boomz sia. In whole, exciting day and fun day. wooohooo.

Anyway, i need to change so much more for the better. Idk why but it seems like everyday i would like find out something more about myself that i would dislike/hate. & instead of pondering why, i guess i should change.

Still believing for a breakthrough!

3 days 3 days! Youth meeting tmr! :D Pst Kong IS PREACHING!!! :D

Time of the past.

Bleah, i did something stupid today again.

& Everytime i do something stupid, i will keep thinking about it until i make myself crazy about thinking. Like i remember when i was in Primary 3, stupid embarrassing moment of my life that haunted me for like years till i was sec 2 then i think it was stupid and i forgot it.

CAN YOU IMAGINE, 6 YEARS OF MY LIFE, WHENEVER I THOUGHT OF IT, I GO CRAZY AND I MAKE MYSELF FORGET BOUT IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.

What happened?

hah, cause i thought i was sick, i called ww to pick me up from school without informing my teacher, and then ww came to pick me up, and met my vice principal and tt i went down to meet ww. then dont know what happen, VP say i cannot/or dont need to go home, then tt Mr Ali saw me, and decided to be mean and bought me up to class, and i said bye to ww.

Went up to class, Mr Ali decided to scold me infront of the whole class 3/3 , and said "why must you bother the VP she so busy, (*@_#()*&#)(@&# and all the nonsense when im just tired/sick and want to go home. After lecturing and a moment of silence (which seems quite long for me), he decided to point out what's on my face, i think it's a pimple cause i misuse the condition for facial wash(WHICH WAS STUPID), then i said mosquito bite & it ended.

(i was guai, so i stood there and let him scold me. haha)

Main point: He had to scold me and embarrassed me in front of the class and even pointed out my pimple. -.-

Even though you might not think it's embarrassing enough, this had haunted me for years till i can forget bout this incident. Even though my primary school classmates dont remember, I DO, even though it was a minor little thing, TO ME it was SOMETHING BIG.

One thing could seem so so big to you, but to others, it doesnt matter at all.

What truly matters in this world then? Idk, all i know that dwelling on something that already happened and has passed is really really very stupid. Maybe it's just time to move on and leave all the mistakes you have done back in the past and bury every single little stupid things you have done behind. Stop thinking about the stupid past and go crazyyyyy.

Okay maybe for you it might not be things tt you do, but maybe things that had happened to you, bad circumstances, bad encounters with people, spoiled relationships, whatever... just dont dwell on it. Dont make yourself go crazy when you can spend your days happily.

Okay, words have been spoken(typed), it's time to forget what i have done/said today.

God help me to even forget this.

SET ME FREE FROM THE PASTTTTTTT.

P.S quite flow with Pst's daily devotion, go read if you're free!

EMO

Most people emo for one reason, because we don't feel loved.

I emo in the past cause i thought no one loves me, and i emo again and again cause i thought everyone was against me. I emo till i had sucidal thoughts.

But then i think again, there's people who love me, just that i dont realise it.
When I look around, I realise i am being loved, you are being loved too.

By your friends & family & God.

You're beautiful, no matter what they say.
Words can't bring you down.

Fruitful!

i went to pub and i think only this pic my bangs not bad. :D

I really really feel Friday was a very fruitful day. woohoo, after being stuck at home for days.

Went to Kbox after super long and sang all my old time favourite songs with Jasmin&Joel at Marina Square.

Then had BS at Yewtee with Guanzhi&Xinyi. Im super super happy cause i believe this is the start of something new! Really glad to see that a spark is lighting up, i hope it continues! and i really hope i can like bring them closer also. haha. so happpy, and they treated me dinner :D Awesome! I got to be consistent too! :D

Then fellowship at yewtee with the Army guys, chung&gary. really miss them so so so much sia!! and chung lost 6kg in camp, I ALSO WANT SERIOUSLY.

im so so happy, not cause of only fellowship, but i realise, the joy of giving bs(after giving like L1to10 of GS again and again)!! if you havent started giving bs, do try!!! it's like you learn more after every bs!

Anyway, eyes speaks. and through people's eyes, you can know what they're are thinking/feeling. cooolzo, amazing how we're created. unless you mask la, then i dont know what you thinking/feeling.

yup yup. BYE.

Paint my love

Paint my love
You should paint my love
It's the picture of a thousand sunsets
It's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love


I love Michael learns to Rock.
Reminds me of her, the one who let me hear this song, over and over again. Till im in love with this song, even though for a moment of my life, i might forget bout her, but still like these songs i might have lost it for a while, but it is engraved deep inside my heart.

Imy ww. (:

I'm searching everywhere to find her again
To tell her I love her
Twenty five minutes too late


Slide-track abit abit, im determine to go down to yewtee to visit my little ones every week.

Everytime we tell someone, "dont worry, i am there for you, i am there.", but out of how many times when something happened to that friend, you're there? Idk, words and words with actions. People usually trust the person with words and actions rather than words alone.

Got to achieve that stage of words+action and kick away all my laziness.
Stop procrastinating la xy!

Time to be faithful(consistent) in the little even even more.

Ever wonder why people's life could be so blessed and happy, yet yours might be like *(#%&UY##(* (indescribable)?

I think we got to learn to be contented with our life. Im still learning though. Life is never perfect and never smooth-sailing.

Staying at home for 2 days have been a little ____________(idk what to say).

It's good, cause now Mum knows im home for 2 days, and i havent been staying home for so long already. im not saying this cause im angry, but im happy! Cause this cold war actually ended a little, she talked to me! :D except that she kept saying the same old thing. LOL, but i reject tt la.

Everything will be alright cause i have powerful leaders + friends behind me praying for me, most importantly, a Powerful God, but that doesnt mean i dont have to pray myself. & really, it's through time of trouble, you know who you can depend on. (but what if you have no one, it's fine, God's there.)

I'm glad, that i actually did quite abit of soul-searching this 2 days while im home. But im not actually disconnected with the world, cause i have this internet here with me. coolzo but not very cool.

Haha, i sound emo typing this post, BUT IM NOT EMO, im elmo!

I RAN JUST NOWWWWWWWWW. WOOO.

Byeee.

Carefree

Spent my whole day home, but Eileen came to learn guitar!!

Thank you Eileen!!! :D

really made my day.

Sometimes i feel like shutting my life down to just myself till no one can break it, but everything im doing, by blogging/twittering/facebooking, ain't shutting my life, but making my life more expose to this weird little net. idk who's reading my blog now, cause apparently hits went up.

but it's okay. im not blogging any private things, just my thoughts. (:

Anyway, i was climbing stairs up to my room today, and for every step up, i didnt feel that i was moving higher(dont ask me why i so random, cause i was exercising up the stairs and i felt tt), but in actual fact i am moving up closer to my room.

conclusion, everything you're doing now, even though it feels like nothing, you're actually moving higher, one step by another to my goal of your life. for now, i realise, i have so many steps up to move. forgive me for being so imperfect at times.

This is what i do when im home/alone. i think more than when im with people.

anyway IM FINE! cold war has broke. im going out to pay bills incase mum scolds me. :D

Best friend.

What will you answer when you see these questions?

Who makes you happy?

or

Who do you trust most?

or

Who loves you most?

What happens if you don't have a friend or best friend to even answer this 3 questions or something related to this?

I guess many people in the world are facing loneness & never ever have a good friend to share every little details that happens.

If this is you, I'm in your shoes before or still.

Don't worry, you will find your best friend soon, or even a group of friends who know you best. (:

P.S. guess not many knows i open my blog, and it's pretty quiet too. (: TG.

Even...

Even if the world says you're stupid..

you're not.

Even if the world says you're doing things for the wrong reason,

you know you're not, you're right.

Even if the world says you're believing in the wrong thing,

you're not, as long as you know whatever you believe in is right.

Everything just boils down to one thing,

YOU!

Have faith in whatever you're thinking, feeling, believe in!

ARISE AND BUILD

Tmr's Arise and build!!! im so so so so excited really.

(I KEEP HEARING A BEE, I CANT CONCENTRATE!)

Went visitation at Xinyi and Guanzhi's hs today, guess it was really fruitful cause it has been a long time since i did a visitation and talk to them! (:

I guess i have sort out my mind ever since yesterday, so clearly now. Instead of blaming for what have happen and everything, hah! i should continue walking, cause everything i did is for eternal, temporary pain is nothing in time of eternal. but it still hurts la, but jieying reminded me, whatever that doesn't kill me, builds me!

I will be stronger, and im so thankful, that so many people are praying for me, so thankful.

In all times, i will keep a grateful and thankful heart.

& i will run till i see your face

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the earth
To the depths of my heart
Let You mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory
May you draw all men
As Your love and grace demands

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the Spirit Of God
Yes, I will run the race
'Til I see Your Face
Oh, let me live in the glory of Your Grace

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Tonight, i told Him everything i was troubled with, felt so woooo. havent been like this for i guess too long. Yesterday i dreamt of wawa, guess i really missed her alot. :/

Anyways, this song, is just one of the hymms in my primary school hymm book, and one of the songs i loved alot.

Just a young primary school kid, i would always sing loudly for hymms even when im not a christian, & i remember my classmate lyann(sp) would scold me "not christian sing so loud for what", but i would ignore, maybe at tt time i would think my reason is just because i love to sing, but now, different.

Really love this song, cause it brings me back to the first time i truly met Him.
& this song is a Rhema song to me.

& i will run the race, till i see your face.

bangs bangs

DONT LAUGH!!!!!!

I CUT BANGS.

kaka saw me and she started laughing cannnn!!! :(

i think i look like china doll and it reminds me of sec 2 when my classmates said i took a bow and cut my fringe. LOL. thanks to the bet i made with jasmin, today have bangs. Jasmin's cutting her hair too!

eyebagsssss. :(

Anyway all is well.
Not tt bad yet, BS yesterday was really awesome cause its 3 pages plus, it reminds me of something i have to have now. Faith.

Perfect love cast out fear,
& fear and faith is actually the same thing, the substances that we hope for, just that one is negative, another positive.
Have the positive expectation!

For now,
BANGSSSSSSS.

Freedom?

The another reason why i love my Saturdays.

My exam officially ended, and i pray i wont forward any module, i pray hard hard.

Even though exams are over, i dont feel like rejoicing at all, cause i still have another test to be completed. With so many people involved, and so many trick questions in between, i wonder how i am going to score well.

God will bring me through i know it. (:

Meanwhile, I'm gonna spend my holiday usefully, pack it with visitations, time to think, personal outing with myself, get up sessions, exercise sessions and all.

MY FRIENDS SAID I LOST WEIGHT. OMGZXZ RIGHT?
gonna keep it up. so happy when i heard tt, it has been a long time manzxz.

i can do retarded things here, cause my blog is still quite quiet according to my hits. PTL. (:

What a week

my awesome leader and friend.

okay i manage to get out, and study. and i guess some went into my head, some didn't.
i got to study harder now.

2 more days to freedom, after freedom, im going to enjoy and do things that i should do. im going morning walks with mum to prove her wrong, and alot more.

what a week, and yesterday's svc was really good, awesome. i dont want to ever leave, like really. my determination, God see it.

yup. spastics meeting tmr :D cya guys!

Greater is He

Spent the longest time ever in His presence today, not very good, cause i only learn when i am facing big bad wolf. (what a term!)

Haha, Really have to thank Rae and Jieying. Thank God for awesome leaders over my life. even Kelvin my zs knows i guess. Thanks for all the prayers, i can feel a victorious breakthrough coming my way, and i already claimed it in my spirit!

Got to be wiser. i have brains pls fiona guo!!

Nothing can stop me, or rather stop God. I feel bad for doubting God, but at the moment i was doubting, i couldn't hear from God, and God decided to use His vessel, Rae called me.

I must break through of this stupid cage the stupid devil placed me in, and find the key and get out. You can't lock me in my house. my house.

Breakthrough!!!

Ended my 5 day full fast with lots of food temptations in the middle, but i managed to go thru! WOOHOO! what a week of temptations plus struggle plus problems.

all shall be gone. gone.

run away

For this 5 days,

now i know what im really asking for.

All i want is just to stay in your house.

Me and jy ain't feeling good at all, it's affecting my studies. and i have exams.

how am i suppose to study.

i want to find a place where people cant find me at all.

i want to run away.

actually

I got to blame myself for all these.

haha, no better what happens, i shall smile it through. i know whatever test i go through, if it's easy to come out, it's only a minor breakthrough. So this time, im aiming for a large large breakthrough.

I kept telling God, i will continue to wrestle with you until i get my blessing just like Jacob, what Huimei had shared, haha quite dumb to blame God when i bought it all on myself. So one thing i can only do right now, get stronger. tt's what He said right?

my 3 things for this season,

1) First love

2) To be stronger

3) Preparation

Cool, never would i know the letter i wrote yesterday at starbucks would hit spot on to what happen. Be strong and of good courage.

Love love love and grace grace grace.

Never ever ever ever ever let you go.

Come holy spirit,
Fall afresh on me,
Fill me with your power,
Satisfy my need,
Only you will make me whole,
Give me strength to make me grow,
Come holy spirit,
Fall afresh on me.

Didnt know it will become this fierce, this bad. As im praying and fasting to be stronger, he have to attack me. Hit me so strong.

I need to make a decision now, one tt will please God. Is it true i must always face this kind of decision. I dont want to let anything go, it's really time for me to emerge strong. But i tried to get an agreement, i failed.

Grace grace to the mountains, MAKE ME STRONGER.

Thank God for Rae and Jasmin.

Last few hours, why can't she understands, i really dont want to leave everything down.

Stronger, being strong is a decision. i made mine.

it's not over

Seriously, Idk why, i thought it was over when i saw that he was willing to change.

Now it only goes to show that a leopard doesn't changes it's spots. & i think it disappoints me so much that i dont know how to react. haha.

maybe it's not true, but maybe it is true. God knows.

Bad things happens when im on a breakthrough lane, reaching another checkpoint to another.

Sometimes i get tired of running to the pt that i want to run away, but i come to realise, running away from the checkpoint doesn't helps.

Nevertheless, still i believe in His promises.

All will be well, all will be well.

Even the weak shall say im strong. I'm strong.

2nd day of fasting & prayer! (:

confusing

sometimes i wonder why emotions are so confusing.
so confusing tt my brain cant take it. only can pray tt God can make me wiser!

5 days of prayer & fasting.
Breakthroughsssssssss!

I decided..

To reuse this blog.

Even though i still have a little fear of blogging, but ya, im not going to blog up stupid things again.

My blog exist to just tell people how im doing. (:

Reason why this blog again, because i want to let my friends know that the memories i have with them are still treasure to me! So here i am back at spotthespellingmistake, credit to DEANNAGAN(PS, she got this name for me)!

ANYWAY EXAMS ARE HERE.
OMG and im super slack, i need to buck up! :D

Changing my skin soon.
A new start.

Try to spot the spelling mistake again! :D